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So, the results. (updated)

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Surah Al-Baqarah Ayat 216 :
“Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi (pula) kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak ketahui.”

Salam..
ok. as i promised, i will tell u the result, no matter what.
i told myself to b as lackadaisical as possible, n i did, i guess.

my bros were making me a lot more nervous on the results EVE..huah3. ske suki je..

"habis la akak..."
"akak xleh tido la malam ni..."

texted atiqah (started calling her "atiqah" instead of tunku/tk after the this-is-afiqah-n-this-barulah-atiqah thingie on the phone last several years... hahaha. igt lagi x? :D) till 1+ am i supposed! chatted randomly, PMR, McD, haha... "satu tiga ratus, satu tiga satu tiga ratuss.." :D i read her last message n decided not to reply (haha. sori3), cuz i know, if i do, i would eagerly b waiting for her reply, n if that happened, i will never ever get to sleep. huah2.

took me bout 30min to fall asleep after reading the message. the guilt for not replying the message..huah2. (this is me, ana sll make sure ana la org last yg reply o yg last ltak tepon) n of course, the 'will i's n 'what if's started ringing in my mind, non-stop!
tuned on IKIM.fm...ZzZzZzZzZ... unbelievably, i actually did manage to sleep. huah2.

OK2. so, woke up a lil bit late, 6.38am!!! xdpt nk Qiam n such....

time tu da rase .. lain macam. solat hajat n subuh....... online FS n MS n YM n MSN kejap...
then g sidai kain.... pastuh makan..disebabkan neves, nk cpt.. i took a bowl n a fork for myself only to eat da fried bihun..

"ambik la kat abah, sume skali.... ni amik kat die sorang je..haiii..aja..aja.."

ALAMAK. MAK DA MARAH. AAA. PETANDA TAK BAIK PAGI NI.

abes makan tu, forum kat iluvislam , bkk thread result pmr.
bace 1 post from a sensei..
kurang lebih bunyi dia cmni..
"b4 pgi skola tu, masih ad masa nk solat hajat, solat dhuha.... lepas solat, muhasabah dirii.. pk apa salah kita kat Allah , apa salah kita kat orang lain seblom ni....muhasabah lama sikit.... suoaya kita boleh terima walau apa pon ketentuanNya. bende ni da tertulis, tinggal utk adik2 rungkai je.. n masa tu la, kena blaja menerima....."

fuh. mse tu, dup dap dup dap.
but i said to myself..
"TOMORROW 2 HOURS LATER MAY B EVERYTHING, BUT WHATEVER HAPPENS, LIFE STILL GOES ON" kate2 tunku atiqah tengku hamnet dalam mesej terakhirnya *telah diubah suai sbb bukan tomorrow da. 2 hours to go...* hahaha. =D

so, mandi, put on my baju sekola. *alamak. baju ni da nak ketat. da makin gemok*
oh. tudungku sungguh kuning... hahahaha. gile lain warna ngan warna baju...baju putih biru, tudung putih kuning . baccckk to da topic. haha'

abh tanya.. "nak bawak camcoder, charge ar".

"xmo arrrrrr...bkn tau pon dpt pe..."

utk mghilangkan gntar, bukak la IKIM.fm lagi, hoping that i would hear the DJ saying "ooo...smoge bjaye to adik2 yg amik kputusan PMR hari ni ye".. but no, i missed that part. petanda lagi petanda.
so dgr la lagu2 nasyid... n berita dlm bahasa arab by mona jasman (hampeh x paham pon. kene brush lagi nih; dgr "anwar ibrahim" "sami velu" "malizia" je. akakak)...

n i saw my bro Yan da siap. "aik die ikut ke?" dalam baper minit lepas tu, along plak da siap.
"aik. ikut jugak ke?"
then my mum lps solat, siap.. "along, bawak kamera tu."
n i was like,
JANGAAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN.....
JANGANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN

but no, they even brought 2 cameras. "man, i would b so embarrassed kalo dpt terok...."

so Along drove us to school, my school. 1 famili tuuuu! apiq je tido xmo bangun n abah g keje.

sampai2 sane,
"adik! simpan kamera!"
"nk bawak jugak!"
"simpan laaaaaa"
then my mum.. "alah, bukan nk tgkap gamba kakak. gmba kawan2 kakak...kakak perasan pulak.."
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.

so, ku berjalan pantas mencari aliaa, nabilah n hafi. jmpe aliaa n liana. we held hands, sejuk2. ahaha. gelak2 bg ilang rase nervous..
tp terasa..
"ni jangan gelak skang, nangis kemudian da la"....aih . petanda lagi petanda lagi..

some of my friends da tau result drang. ye la, yg dpt insider's info...so, xde ar nervous sgt kan!!
x aci xaci. huhuh... pastu pjah said sekolah seblah (smk pokok sena) da siap balik da. dapat da pon. yg skola ktorang wat analisis ape lame sangat....da kol 11 lebeyh dah... called atiqah, tanye da dpt lom. "kte ad kat umah lagi".. called cuzzin wani, xangkat. called syawal, mcam off. * i just knew she lost her sim card. hak3. called wardah, she didnt pick up the fon. called tengku, "the number that u've dialled is not in service"... huhuhu...
adik aliaa, amni

sembang2, jmpe lps sorang sorang, salam2....wishing all the best... g kat parents jap...
dalam tengah sembang2 tu.. hafi ckp.. "hafi, lagi seminggu nk kuar result baru kalut2 nk solat hajat..." huhuhu. membuatkan ktorang terdiam. terpikir2.. "a'a kan." huhuh..

then drang kate 1/3 je dpt all a's..percentage menurun thn ni.. lalallala...xmo dgr xmo dgr....
pastuh nmpk sumer cikgu kelas da bawak slip pekser!!!
ad muke hepi, ad muke sudeyh.

pstu drang kate, ade abg reporter tu ckp menurun, 2 tercicir result, 3 failed... aaaa...xmo dgr xmo dgr...
i saw reporters da menunggu. trying to ran away from the lense. tau2 ar, lensa photographer sgt tajam. i hate candid pictures of me. but i love to candid others. hahaha. xadil sungguh.

da pnat tunggu owh. haha.

then along ckp pengetua da masuk dwan..
masuk dwan...
pengetua bebel bg amanat jap..menyatakan kekecewaan..

tu je nk citer buat masa ni. ngantok. bye. sok sambong kot, insyaAllah...

-------part2-------
cg shakir n pengetua suh masuk dewan..
but we didnt want to; i mean; jalan lambat2 la kan. haha.
"ai. dok takot2 pa macam x pernah masuk dewan??" akakak. amik. sebijik. *paaapp*
masuk ar ktorang ke dewan yg serba indah tu..

pengetua ckp bg analisis..... menurun...... n dia kuciwa... only 62 dapat 9A's, 50 dapat 8a's, 19 dapat 7a's, the rest x ingt. then atiqah called. tp x bape nk dengaaa... menci tol line camnih. i tried to speak louder in the middle of stillness . ok, xde la silent mane. huhuhu..n mase tu all eyes tgk ana.... heh. heh. *hello, friends.* ahaha.

anis n amal. :)

cg shakir mula sebut 9A's... igt kot ikut abjad. start dgn pa'aq~...then name2 budak2 pandai yg mmg dijangke pon. huah2. din, caet, yu, sume tu... then name lina, farah.. *owh. ikut klas kot.*... lina xdatang, pgi turkey, x aci . haha. (congratzzz!!)
then aliaa; yang mmg satu sekola da jangka dia boleh dapat, da nanges2 da.... "if alphabetically, why my name's not there?" pastu.. "ALIAA SHAFINAS BINTI MOHD DON"... hah, pgi pgi. hak2. then "NOOR NABILAH BINTI SAHAUMI"....waaa.. 2 of the Pensel Tekan Rangers da dapat!! i held hafi's hand...lepas sorang sorang name dak 3af cikgu sebut...abes name dak pompuan, msuk nme dak laki.... hafi ckp. "xpelah charger...kita xde da..berserah. " HAFIZATI BINTI ISHAK...(congratz!!) waaaaaaaaaaaaa.... korang da dapaattt!!! n mse tu, i tried to muhasabah, so that i'll face whatever is gonna happen at that time, i must accept it, life MUST go on.

hafi n aliaa

maka berlegar2 la khilaf2 mse jawab soalan..
SEJARAH - serius, main bulat2 je. seriusli!! n i wasnt hoping for an A! but i do hope for a miracle.
MATH - tahun ni baru sekali dapt A, tu pon soklan senang. soklan2 sekola asek C, D je.... pastuh i didnt do the exercises every day....selagi xde omwerk, xwat la soklan2 math. n ad sejarah di mana mechanical compass ana buat hal which led me to .......... nnt cite. ahahah.
SCIENCE - agak merapu kat paper 2.
BAHASA MELAYU.. penulisan. tengah pening2 sket mase tu...maybe sbb org kate "knapa puasa?? xtakut ke?? kalau aku xbrani la..."..... ayat pon tunggang langgang, peribahasa sumer masuk last minutes. make nampaklah banyak cabang2 "Y" terbalik kat paper tu. n yeah, I DIDNT EVEN FINISHED READING FORM 2 N FORM 3 NOVEL 4 KOMSAS. amik kau. hahah.
GEOG - i hate facts. ni pon antara adik beradik sejarah je. main bulat2... n bila sembang2, banyak pulak yg x btol. x harap gak utk dapat A, tp harap utk 1 keajaiban yg baikk..
ARAB - nape org lain ckp susa but i think i can do it? lain macam je. but i hope i can score this one.
PEND ISLAM - hukum2 tu not sure...but i think this is one of the papers ana boleh score, insyaAllah.
ENGLISH - oke2 sj. i had my hopes on this paper too la...
KH - never got an A bila buat latihan. asek C je. tp tiap kali exam, i got an A. the Qs were confusing. but i sooooo want an A for the paper.

fuh, abes review sumer paper... fikir2... ana ni malas orgnye. keje sembang je. xsembang, online.. pastuh mcm xde usaha plak nk dpt A. banding ngan derang2 yg da dapat, mmg nmpk derang PULON gile nk dpt 9A. so i'm okay with it. i deserved not to ace all subjects...

mse tgh flashback tu, 3-3 drang.. "syaza! syaza! syaza!" but no, it's still not my name. itsokaaay.. xde pon xde la. but then..NUR SYAZA..DINA..DIYA..DIYANAH *the typical asal-name-budak-ni-panjang-sangat-susah-nak-sebut-plak-tu thingie* BINTI SURAINI. said alhamdulillah, covered my mouth with my left hand. don't ask me, i dont even know y did i do that. as a sign of gratitude (?) or just a spontaneous, weird body language? haha. (so ok, u knew my result n decided not to know more. kan?) ok. u can stop here. daaa.. thanks 4 readiinng. n thanks sbb doakan.

nk bace lagi? skati ar.

turun pentas, pgi kat aliaa, bila n hafi... "alhamdulillah, 4-4 org kite bjaye weeyh!" ... n i was hoping to hear pjah's name. tp xde. 8A's! (congratz pjah!!) but she got C for arabic.... yg dpt 8a's ramai xdpt 4 Arab... my mama Aniisah pon dpt B for arabic, but u did great, mama!! luv u always! liana, auntie, i love u too! congratz dpt 9a's, hope we still together2 kan! :)) (oh, n i saw ur pic on the paper today!!! hahah)


intebiu intebiu. terpaksala korang ngaku kawan baik. ahaha. jk3.

so, lps dapat tu, as i promised atiqah, i would call her later. called her. tapi still line x baper elok. susa btol la. she got 7A's! (congrats!!) . told her i'll call her again when i got home, line tepon umah sedap telinga mendengar lagi. haha.

ramai lagi name2 yg disebut lepas tu. pgi kat mak, cium tangan, pipi. *muah muah*.. aha.
pak cik called, tanye cmne... ckp tahniah. wani x dpt lagi. but I KNOW LAAAA. even ANA YANG
MSE TRIAL DLU DAPAT 5A,2B,2C (gred skola. gred negeri, 7A2B) pon alhamdulillah 9A's, ni kan plak my cuzz yg dapat 8A's mase trial!!! i knew she can do it la!

then pgi balik kat ramai2 tu..tunggu nama2 abes disebut. bila kate syahid da nangis da. sbb name dak kelas ktorang da abes sbot da. rupa2nye cikgu sebut random!! nama dia last skali.... n billy's second last. (congratz!!) dak kelas ktorang cam ramai je yg dpat 9a's n 8a's, alhamdulillah. :)

pastuh mase jalan2 tu, got message from this weird number. ouh, aussie number. "hi syaza. ni anis raihanah. camne result???" we texted macam gune nombor biasa je. i dont even know how much does it cost. biar biar. ukhwah ukhwah. haha. she got 9a's too, alhamdulillah (congratz!!)...

najla :) u knew already!! x aciii. haha.

adoi, mmg lame nk tunggu panggey 112 org 9 n 8 a's.. lps tu ad sesi bergamba. saw abah n apiq baru sampai. salam2. cium tangan pipi. *muah muah lagi*.

pastuh salam cikgu2 sumer.. ckp kat cikgu pau.. "CIKGU! CAMNE SAYE DAPAT A SEJARAH? SERIUS CIKGU, SYE BULAT2 JEE.." cikgu gelakk je. cikgu ckp..rezeki kamu.... tahniah tahniah...

ya, ana da byk berdosa dgn Allah, dgn parents, cikgu, kengkawan... (my brothers, sori. xmo mntak maaf. ahahaha. ok2. dosa ngan drang gak laaa..) but He gave me what i asked for. THANKS, ALLAH. to kawan2 yg xdpt pe yg korang harapkan, it's all fine la.. ad hikmahnye...
eh jap2. x abes lagi.

O.o.. they said my mum looks like Ustzh Najihah?

so, balik tu, g tgk umah jap. called diyana, sembang, she got 9, congratz!! n suwadi pon.. :)... texted adilah nazneen, nureen, capik noor...tanya2 drang. alhamdulillah, korang pon congrats!! :)

balik umah, abh beli pizza. solat zohor, mkn. abh tanya nk ape; cash or things? i dont know. remember the day i told u bout my dad buying a camcoder here? my mum ckp.. "da beli camcoder da ari tu..." T.T.. hahah. xpk lagi nk ape.
a camera lagi kot. hahahaha. my bros suh beli PS3. like, HAH? SAPE YG MAIN NNT? hahah. mse dlm keter, Along ckp.. "akk nk ape?" ...Syabil tetibe je ckp, dgan gaye wise old apeknye, "AKAK MESTI NK BELI NOVEL NYE..." satu keter gelak!! ahahaha. Yan ckp.. "novel pe?" .. adik jawab.. "ala, novel yg pmpuan2 kat depan tu.." .. aha, ok, i admit it. my novels, kebanyakan, cover dia pompuan bertudung or berpurdah. huah3.

petang tu, hujan2. lebat kejap. then reda. called atiqah, wardah, oh, n hertina tahir! tahniah la korang.. texted cipah, she got 7a's also! (congratz!!) wardah, tido... she was quite upset la. got B for arabic n english... lek ok. baru pmr. spm lg penting. pmr, lulus x lulus, kita naik f4 gak kan... jdkan mende ni batu loncatan/ trigger utk korang berusaha 4 spm. jgn x tau, mostly yg dpt straight a's 4 pmr akn lupa diri n x score 4 spm...nauzubillah min zalik... ok? allah da tentukan sebaik2 ketentuan... ad hikmah. smiillee. :) tp sedeyh jugak kan, cuz ad friends yg x dpt nk same2 share this happiness. ye la, i know. ckp senang je kan. but at least we've tried. :) jgn iso ar. Allah xkan bg bebanan yg korang xdpt tanggung... kira bertuah la korang diuji. bila korang sabar, dapat pahala.. :))

ok. tu je kot nk citer tkt ni. kalo ad igt lagi, i add later. ok.

ap2hal, ASSIGNMENT FORM 4, HERE I COME. tiket ekspress utk siapkan omwek da sampai. salam!!!
some of the 9a's :)
some of the 8a's :))


boring.

Monday, December 29, 2008

Salam'alayk.
boring je nih. haha..

so, petang td, texted my friends, of coz, pasal PMR results kan.
huhu..
n troskan texting atiqah, calling aliaa, wardah, chatting with adilah, cipah noor, sume2 la... adoiyai. haha.

is tonight gonna b like waiting for UPSR results night? the night where i didnt sleep at all?
......

oh, n here's the one i got,erm, somewhere. (sori x igt...i told u i dont remember names kan? :D)
i dont know whether it's just me, or sume org pon wondering.. "mcm mane leh dtg perkataan 'hujan'? nape 'pokok' kte sbut 'pokok', bukan 'sofa' ke.. ape ke.. sape yg mule2 cipta perkataan 'ranting'..mne die tau 'ranting' tu, 'ranting'?" oh, n this post isn't answering ur Qs, harap maklum. hahah.


DORMITORY:
When you rearrange the letters:
DIRTY ROOM

PRESBYTERIAN:
When you rearrange the letters:
BEST IN PRAYER

ASTRONOMER:
When you rearrange the letters:
MOON STARER

DESPERATION:
When you rearrange the letters:
A ROPE ENDS IT

THE EYES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THEY SEE

GEORGE BUSH:
When you rearrange the letters:
HE BUGS GORE

THE MORSE CODE :
When you rearrange the letters:
HERE COME DOTS

SLOT MACHINES:
When you rearrange the letters:
CASH LOST IN ME

ANIMOSITY:
When you rearrange the letters:
IS NO AMITY

ELECTION RESULTS:
When you rearrange the letters:
LIES - LET’S RECOUNT

SNOOZE ALARMS:
When you rearrange the letters:
ALAS! NO MORE Z ‘S

A DECIMAL POINT:
When you rearrange the letters:
IM A DOT IN PLACE

THE EARTHQUAKES:
When you rearrange the letters:
THAT QUEER SHAKE

ELEVEN PLUS TWO:
When you rearrange the letters:
TWELVE PLUS ONE

MOTHER-IN-LAW:
When you rearrange the letters:
WOMAN HITLER


sape ar yg buat nih. hahaha.

yang terakhir kali



post nih post terakhir (pasal result)


heh.

TOMORROW IS GONNA B THE RESULT DAY! insyaAllah, i hope tomorrow's gonna b a great beginning for us to go through the new hijriah year with a whole lot of enthusiasm, positive-thinkings, yadda yadda.. :D

and i just cant stop thinking of what the outcome will be; n i believe everyone's feeling the same. huhu.

all these "what if"s n "will i"s are killing me!!! well, thank Him i'm still alive.

i'm freaking takoooowwttt. arrgh.

i have to admit it, i didnt exactly do all out those days; well at least that's what i think. but i know i did try the very best i could on those particular days... arrgghh. can't stop thinking.

i'm soooo hoping for a miracle. ya Allah.... tenangkan hati ni. huhu.

my bros got 9A's n everyone's like.. oh it's ur time to shine plak. hello, that's so not comforting. but still, i m hoping for the best.. OMA, these anxieties, shivers, n such are just freakky..

OH, n i keep getting SMSes saying, "kalo x nk result terok, forward kat at least 5 of ur F3 friends or u'll get BAD results!"

dude, n dudettes that was just silly! n, scare x langsung boleh bawak 2 khurafat/syirik. i mean, it's completely fine for me if ur one n only intention is for us to pray n get straight a's. but, what the H with all those "forward or u'll get bad results"... hello, believe in Allah, not the "ultimate" power of forwarding, which just doesn't exist! instead of forwarding n wasting, now's the time for praying, praying, n praying. there's nothing more left to do. we can't turn the time n make a few changes on the paper; we'll just have to tawakkal 'alallah n hope for the best.

so, stop forwarding those messages.. okeyh?

erm. for this coming result day, i pray us ALL THE BEST n let's not fight with what's destined. let's not bewitched by those "what if"s n "will i"s, n let's just stick with "whatever happens, happens." insyaAllah, He already planned the best for us all; insyaAllah. amiin.

Kalau cepat Dia makbulkan doamu, maka Dia sayangkanmu.

Kalau lambat doamu dimakbulkan, maka Dia ingin mengujimu.

Kalau doamu tidak dimakbulkan, maka sesungguhnya

Dia sedang merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik buatmu.

Just keep on praying.

God, im still scared. haha.

TAHUN BARU!

Sunday, December 28, 2008


Alhamdulillah.
kita bakal menjengah ke tahun 1430 hijriah..
skjap je rase diri ana ni da nk masuk 17.
(hijriah ok, masihi nk masuk 16. so, blom masenye nk tulis perancangan 4 spm. ahaha.)

haii.. banyak ke amalan2 yg lepas? kalau ad pon, ntah dpt keredhaanNya ke idak la..
Ya Allah, moga2 amalanku sepanjang tahun 1429h n sblom2 tu diterimaMu .. moga tahun 1430h n akan datang ni, will b much better than the previous years.
yA Allah, Kau ampunilah diriku yang telah banyak menzalimi diriku sebelum ini ya Allah, jikalau tidak Kau memberiku keampunanMu, nescaya termasuklah aku dalam golongan mereka yang rugi..
i demand Your divine light to shine my ways towards a better future ahead, insyaAllah.. amiinn.

oh,
n my relatives (belah melaka) paid us a visit. baru balik je tadi. 2 nights, 2 days .. :D
n im having flu. sikit2 nk bersin. sikit2 nk tersumbat. xpe ar, maybe ad hikmah nk masuk thn baru ni..

tahun baru nk masuk da. F4 ASSIGNMENT XSIAP LAGI. oh well, look who's typing. it's Lady Lackadaisical. i care nothing bout the task. (yeah, right. oh wait, it's true. yeah right. nooo.. i dont care. yes u care, syaza. NOOO...na a. u do care..) erggh.

ok2. biar2. so, results lagi 2 days.. n im counting down.
tik.
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tik.
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tik.
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tik.
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tik.
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i reckon, im mentally ready, mentally prepared for any consequences.. i think. .. so, All the best for us all, PMR Candidates of 2008. insyaAllah, we'll get what's the best 4 us.
banyak2 ar doa.. Addua' silahul mukminiin.. (doa senjata org2 beriman)..

xselesa nk menaip.. mate xleh bukak. hidung tersumbat. ok ar. till then, wassalam n have a great new year 1430. :)

my azams. resolutionsku.
-dengar n blaja tarannum Quran.
-xtinggal lagi solat sbb tertido
-kurangkan PC, lebihkan TV. eh. xD
-less loyar buruk. no2. strike this one out. b myself.
-MORE loyar buruks ahead. ahhaha.
-less rebutting; especially when talking to my parents. muahahha.
-be a better MUSLIMAH MUKMINAH towards da future..
-lose some weight later kot. ahhah.but i'll try.
amiinnn...

jom same2 kte striiivvveee!!!
p/s: korang da bace doa awal n akhir tahun?

brownies??

Friday, December 26, 2008

sori ar ana delete post yg ana janji nk post ... aasifah jiddan!!
da tulis panjang lebar giler giler da..
tapi tu pon blom cukup...
n if i were to write bout the whole story pon, it may take up to dozens pages, or even more!!
tapi when i come to think of it,
"slagi boleh, teguhkan diri, pasakkan tekad! sabar! innallah ma'assobirin!"
so, igt, ana akn truskan pasal sahabat.. tp maybe scara umum..
tapi, meh kemudiankan dlu pasal tu.. (tangguh laaaagi.) hahah.
hari ni, ana ad terbaca 1 cerpen yg agak menarik bunyinye.. (i loooooove brownies)
take some time n read, oke?

POST INI AGAK DEMANDING.
ADALAH DIHARAPKAN AGAR PARA PEMBACA DAPAT
BACA SAMBIL MAKAN BROWNIES. LAGI BEST.
walau bagaimanapun, xde pon xpe. troskan membaca. haha
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Hati kita mati sedikit demi sedikit pada satu masa disebabkan perbuatan kita. Beberapa tahun yang lepas, ketika saya masuk ke dalam pejabat saya seperti hari-hari yang biasa, seseorang telah meletak satu bekas berisi 3 ‘chocolate brownies’. Bersama dengan brownies itu terdapat sehelai kertas yang tertulis satu cerpen di atasnya. Sambil duduk menjamah brownies yang pertama, saya mula membaca kisah seperti yang tertulis di bawah.

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Dua orang remaja meminta kebenaran ayahnya untuk pergi menonton filem yang sudah ditonton oleh semua rakan-rakan mereka. Namun selepas membaca sedikit review filem itu di internet, ayah mereka menolak permintaan mereka.

“Ah ayah, kenapa tak boleh?” gusar si adik. “Ia dilabel 13-SX, tapi kami berdua dah pun lebih dari 13 tahun!”

Ayahnya membalas, “Ini kerana filem itu terdapat aksi-aksi yang tidak bermoral dan tidak patut ditonton oleh masyarakat umum.”

“Tapi ayah, itu cuma sebahagian kecil daripada filem itu! Kawan-kawan kami cakap, filem itu ada 2 jam, tapi aksi-aksi itu hanya beberapa minit saja! Filem ini ada banyak pengajaran yang lebih besar, seperti kemenangan kebaikan di atas kejahatan, pengorbanan, dan keberanian. Review di laman web filem juga ada mengatakan demikian!”


“Jawapan ayah ialah “tidak” dan ini adalah muktamad. Kamu boleh ajak kawan-kawan kamu datang ke rumah malam ini dan menonton video-video yang ada dalam koleksi video keluarga kita. Tapi kamu tidak boleh pergi menonton filem itu. End of discussion.”
Kedua-dua anak itu berjalan dengan muka masam mencuka ke ruang tamu dan duduk di atas sofa.

Sambil membayangkan wajah pelakon filem yang tidak akan mereka tonton, mereka terdengar bunyi dari dapur; seperti bunyi ayah mereka menyediakan sesuatu. Tidak lama kemudian mereka mengecam bau aroma brownies sedang dimasak di dalam oven, dan si abang berkata kepada adiknya, “Ayah mesti rasa bersalah, dan sekarang dia hendak mengambil hati kita dengan brownies tu. Mungkin kita boleh lembutkan hatinya dan memujuknya untuk benarkan kita pergi ke wayang menonton filem itu.”


***
Ketika ini saya sudah pun habis memakan brownies pertama dan mula memakan yang kedua. Saya memikirkan, apakah kaitan antara brownies yang saya makan dan brownies di dalam kisah ini. Saya teruskan bacaan saya.

***

Kedua-dua remaja itu tidak kecewa. Tidak lama kemudian, ayah mereka muncul dari dapur dengan satu pinggan brownies yang masih panas dari oven, dan memberinya kepada kedua orang anaknya. Kedua-dua mereka mengambil satu brownies.


Kemudian si ayah berkata, “Sebelum kamu semua makan, ayah nak cakap sesuatu. Ayah sayangkan kamu berdua.” Kedua-dua remaja itu saling berpandangan antara satu sama lain dengan senyuman penuh makna. “Ayah dah lembut hati,” bisik hati mereka.
“Itulah sebabnya ayah membuat brownies ini menggunakan bahan-bahan yang terbaik. Hampir kesemua bahan adalah organik; tepung organik yang terbaik, telur ayam Omega-3 gred A, gula organik yang terbaik, Vanilla Premium dan coklat yang paling enak.”


Brownies itu kelihatan sungguh melazatkan, dan kedua remaja itu menjadi semakin tidak sabar lagi untuk merasai kesedapannya kerana ditangguhkan oleh ‘khutbah’ ayahnya yang semakin panjang.

“Tetapi ayah ingin berlaku jujur kepada kamu berdua. Ada satu bahan istimewa yang ayah letak dalam brownies itu yang tidak akan dijumpai oleh mana-mana brownies lain. Dan bahan itu ayah ambil dari belakang rumah kita. Tapi kamu jangan risau, ayah hanya letak sekelumit sahaja bahan itu ke dalam brownies kamu. Jumlahnya sangatlah sedikit. Jadi makanlah dan berikan pendapat kamu tentang resepi baru brownies ayah.”

“Ayah, boleh tak ayah bagitahu apa bahan misteri tu sebelum kami mula makan?” tanya si abang.

“Kenapa? Sikit je jumlah bahan tu yang ayah letak. Satu sudu je. Kamu tak akan boleh perasan pun rasanya.”

“Ala ayah.. bagitahu je la kat kami apa bahan tu” pinta si adik.

“Jangan risau! Bahan tu organik, sama seperti bahan-bahan lain juga”.
“Ayahh..” pinta kedua-dua beradik itu, serentak.
“Ok, kalau kamu bersungguh-sungguh nak tahu. Kandungan misteri itu ialah…. Tahi anjing!!”

***

Saya terus berhenti menguyah brownies kedua dan saki-baki di dalam mulut saya luahkan di dalam bakul sampah di tepi meja saya. Saya teruskan membaca beberapa perenggan terakhir dari cerpen yang menakutkan itu.

***

Kedua-dua anak itu terus meletakkan kembali brownies itu ke dalam pinggan dan mengesat-ngesatkan tangan kanan mereka ke baju dengan penuh rasa menjijikkan.

“Ayah! Ayah tahu tak yang ayah dah seksa kami dengan bau brownies yang sedap tu selama setengah jam. Bila dah siap, ayah kata ayah letak tahi anjing dalam brownies tu. Kami mana boleh makan bende tu”.

“Kenapa tak boleh pula? Kandungan tahi tu sangat sedikit kalau dibandingkan dengan bahan-bahan lain. Takkan ada efek punya la.. Ia sudah pun dimasak bersama-sama bahan yang lain. Kamu takkan boleh perasan pun rasanya. Ia dah pun bersebati dengan bahan-bahan lain menjadi brownies. Jadi tunggu apa lagi, makanlah!”

“Tak ayah… kami tetap taknak makan!”

“Dan ini adalah sebab yang sama kenapa ayah tak benarkan kamu berdua pergi menonton filem tadi. Kamu tak boleh terima sedikit tahi anjing di dalam pinggan kamu, kenapa kamu boleh terima sedikit adegan tidak bermoral di dalam filem yang boleh mengotorkan hati kamu? Kita berdoa kepada Allah yang Dia akan menjaga kita dari mengikut hawa nafsu, tapi kenapa kita dengan akal fikiran yang waras boleh membenarkan diri kita menonton sesuatu yang boleh meninggalkan kesan kotor di dalam diri, fikiran dan hati kita dan terperangkap di dalam lubuk nafsu sesudah itu? Harap kamu berdua dapat pengajaran yang baik dari peristiwa ini”.

***

Saya terus membuang lebihan-lebihan dari brownies kedua, dan brownies ketiga yang masih lagi belum disentuh. Sesuatu yang tidak boleh ditahan beberapa minit yang lalu kini menjadi sesuatu yang tidak boleh diterima. Dan ini semua hanya kerana terdapat kebarangkalian yang kecil bahawa apa yang saya makan tadi terkandung bahan istimewa, seperti di dalam cerpen itu juga. (Memang laa dalam tu takde bahan istimewa itu… namun saya gagal meyakinkan diri saya. )

---ends here---
amacam? bes?
hahahah...
nak2 yg btol2 tgh makan brownies...

but anyway, if i were the boys, makan je. xkan abah nk buh bhn misteri tu kot kan!!! ahahahah.
btw, kalo korang ad resepi brownies yg enak2, nikmat coklatnya terasa, bg la! nk yg korang sniri da try! :D

k ar. wassalam!
:D

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Wednesday, December 24, 2008

adehh.. could they make the movie any better???

xsabau nk nengok. haha. walopon lambat lagi. huhuhuhuhuhuhu..

tu je nk cakap.

n again, like, WOW. i made a short post! :D

entah da kali keberapa.



post nih akan selalu di post sbg peringatan.


heh.

there's like, less than 1 week before the result.

and i just cant stop thinking of what the outcome will be; n i believe everyone's feeling the same. huhu.

all these "what if"s n "will i"s are killing me!!! well, thank Him i'm still alive.

i'm freaking takoooowwttt. arrgh.

i have to admit it, i didnt exactly do all out those days; well at least that's what i think. but i know i did try the very best i could on those particular days... arrgghh. can't stop thinking.

i'm soooo hoping for a miracle. ya Allah.... tenangkan hati ni. huhu.

my bros got 9A's n everyone's like.. oh it's ur time to shine plak. hello, that's so not comforting. but still, i m hoping for the best.. OMA, these anxieties, shivers, n such are just freakky..

OH, n i keep getting SMSes saying, "kalo x nk result terok, forward kat at least 5 of ur F3 friends or u'll get BAD results!"

dude, n dudettes that was just silly! n, scare x langsung boleh bawak 2 khurafat/syirik. i mean, it's completely fine for me if ur one n only intention is for us to pray n get straight a's. but, what the H with all those "forward or u'll get bad results"... hello, believe in Allah, not the "ultimate" power of forwarding, which just doesn't exist! instead of forwarding n wasting, now's the time for praying, praying, n praying. there's nothing more left to do. we can't turn the time n make a few changes on the paper; we'll just have to tawakkal 'alallah n hope for the best.

so, stop forwarding those messages.. okeyh?

erm. for this coming result day, i pray us ALL THE BEST n let's not fight with what's destined. let's not bewitched by those "what if"s n "will i"s, n let's just stick with "whatever happens, happens." insyaAllah, He already planned the best for us all; insyaAllah. amiin.

Kalau cepat Dia makbulkan doamu, maka Dia sayangkanmu.

Kalau lambat doamu dimakbulkan, maka Dia ingin mengujimu.

Kalau doamu tidak dimakbulkan, maka sesungguhnya

Dia sedang merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik buatmu.

Just keep on praying.

God, im still scared. haha.

KL

okeh2.

kte lupekan jap post sebelom nih. Ana pon tgh pening nk tapis2 mcm mne. hahah. tp i will blog bout that, insyaAllah.

seblom ana lupa psl ap ana buat kat KL smalam n kelmarin; baik ana blog. gaga.

DEC 22.

xtido malam tuh.. tpi akhirnya syahid jugak pada jam 5.30 pagi.

mak kejut..bangun smayang subuh... n tanya "nak gi KL x?"

ana tau yg adik, along n abah nk g KL .. abah ad meeting kat cyberjaya kot. haish. ari tu msyuarat kat pwtc.. dlu mse duk KL asek kne g Penang, bile da duk Penang, asek kne g KL plak. huhu..

so, it was a last minute packing. lps subuh, pack baju pe sume.. n tulis blog btau kate nk g kl.

pastuh abg ana, Yan yg baru balik dari Institut Latihan Dakwah Selangor pon nk ikut, x sampai sejam da kena kuar g KL lagi skali. akakak. makan. minum. tambah lagi roti telo. minum sket. alhamdulillahhh.. sedap2. :D gagaga.. detail tol. mak bagi sorang rm100. n i have like 300 more in my money-holder. (xmo tulis purse. hahahaha).. mle2 xnk bawak purse, mak suruh gak.. huhuhu..

spatutnya kene gi skola ari tu. kol 9. ad nk packing set2 buku tulis 4 2009... tp nk wat cane kan. ikut je derankk..my bro Syabil kata nk g aquaria, my brother Yan kate nk g Bkt Antrbangsa..So, Along kena ar jaga ktorang, adik2 nih. hahah.

so, salam cium mak, babaiii kat Apiq, n off we go..

mule2 abah bawak, ana duk depan... weird...kali ni, ana x tido pon dlm keter. kalo x, pantang 5 minit da tido da dlm keter.. da ar smalam x tido malam. ni da ad peluang nk tido 3-4 jam, tdo ar kan. haha. tp no, i didnt sleep. menikmati keindahan alam semula jadi, alhamdulillah. n dpt la ana tgk abah kena tahan polis. hahahah.. jap2. tu citer len.

mule2 abah bawak. then abh benti, suh along bawak sampai bukit gantang. along pon drive la...

radio xde byk signal kan, so, ana tanya.

"bwk pendrive x?"

"bawak."

"meh sini"

pastuh cucuk ar kat radio tuh.. dgr lagu2 mp3 from his pendrive. AIIYYOOOO..he's a huge fan of peterpan owhh... berbelas2 lagu; berturut2 lagu peterpan. lagu2 indie ar..tp xpe ar, layan je la. haha... lps2 tu baru masuk nasyid.. byk tol koleksi lam pendrive tu. huhu..

pastuh smpai bukit gantang, abah ckp kalo nk bawak lagi, bawak sampai simpang pulai.. then along pon bawak ar. pastu abah bwk g mane ntah (mule da lupa nama..haha).. makan nasi lemak... adik xmo makan. nasib ko la Sabel..

pastuh abh sambong bawak.. bwk cam beser abh bwk ar..skali nmpk traffic jam.. abah tanya.. "abah bawak laju x tadi?" .. ana pon, yg xreti nk kata laju ke x, "x pon. biasa je." dlm hati, "kot.". ahaha. "nnt x kene saman ar?" "hah? nape?" "tu polis kat depan"... ahaah..

so, tibalah turn abah lalu dpn pakcik2 polis tuh.. skali dia tunjuk keter abah, kene tahan tepi. hahahahaha... i laughed at that moment. kakakak. TAPI, xkena pon RM300. hahaha. polis tu bagi blah...sembang2 ngn abah siap. haha.. my dad bawak 144km/h, kilometer 239.. (i dont know what's that all about. oh well. haha)...tp frankly ar, mase along bawak, lagi laju ooo. hahah.

sampai kat rawang, abah tanya xmo ajak wani ke? mesti ar kan!! tp wani ni budak rajen nih. die sll gi kelas 4 f4.. tp, hari tu dia gugurkan kelas, ikut skali.. haha.

abah suh makcik anta wani n udin kat stesen komuter batu 3..so, abah pon pgi ar keje..makcik balik umah..

beli tiket, n tunggu komuter.. lame owh. huhu.. da naik tu, ramai plak org. xde tmpt duduk. diri je ar kan. banyak tol stesen nk kene benti sampai kat kl sentral..tp dpt gak duduk last2 stesens tu..

smpi KL sentral, yan beli tiket. satu peristiwa yg sangat2 membuang masa.. mesin tu kata kte boleh suap dia ngan duit kertas, punya lah suap RM1 lapan kali, sekali dia kuarkan 1 tiket je... pastuh kuar belambak lambak duit syiling.. sepok gak. haha. terpaksa ar beli 1-1... da beli tu, tbe2 tiket syabil x leh masuk... die luah balik.. along n yan da lepas da. derang xleh patah balik. tinggal me, wani, udin n a panic syabil. huhu. tatau nk wat pe. drang suh g beli lain. tp bukan kene panggey ke? sbb kalo beli lain rugi r kan. uhuu..

so, beli ar...wani beli..pastu mse nk gi balik kat lorong tu, ad sorang mak cik ni tket die pon xleh masuk. wakakakka. syabil, amik buat kenangan ar lg 1 tiket tuh. ngahah.

ktorang tunggu, naik LRT.. kan? nta la. wani tanya macam2.. ana ckp.. "jgn tanye ajaaa.. aja murtad kl nih. ahahaha" kakakka. suka suki je wat istilah. LOL.. kali ni, wani lak xleh duduk.. n along, udin, yan tengah takut2kan adik...bunyi mcm bunyi pompuan ngilai2... wani ckp.. "patut r org kate ketapi berhantu".. huhuu...

then, sampai ar KLCC. along ckp, g semayang dlu. ktorang bleh ar jama', spupu2 ku itu ngak bisa jama'.. so, smayang ar skali. adoi. asal la toilet jauh bebeno dr surau? xde ar jauh sngt, tp still jauh. huuhu..

i'm a talking machine. especeli ngan my dear cuzzin wani. kene tego ngan jaga kat situ. wakakak. sori deh. tp bukan la gelak ngilai2 ke ap..sembang cam bisik2 je owh. tp xpe la.

anyway, lepas tu ktorang line up nk masuk aquaria. along kata rm40 lebeih. aiyo. rm28 je la.. so, dpt ar kad die yg sgt lawa tu, jadik tiket. tapi, alih2 dia amik balik . x sampai sminit pon sentuh tket tuh.. ntah mcm mne, terkeluar dr mulut ku inih.. "aik? xleh simpan ke?".. hahahahah. abg tu ckp.. "boleh. ktorang simpan." adedede. lantak ar. tp agak membazir waktu gak ar kan. line up nk beli tket, alih2 gune kejap je. haha. biar2. citer lain citer lain.

masuk dlm tu, tgk2 pe sumer tu. yadda yadda..record2... cakap2. bla bla .. yadda yadda.. beli2 souvenier; amik gamba ngan toys pe sumer.. blah. OH, n my bro Yan x ikut skali. nta g mane nta...pastuh kuar tuh.. along call xdpt.. byk kali owh call xangkat. nta ape la die buat. call2, ad kat foodcourt. adoiyai. haha. pastuh along suh btau ad kat parking lot. alamak, da hang up. call balik. x angkat gak...call x angkat call x angkat. along, dgn muke x bape nk garang..akakak. da mara da. kot. cannot tell. haha. pastu along g carik yan.. udin tanya.. "abg syami g mane?".. "ntah. carik abg yan la kot." . "abg syami marah ke?" .. "ye la kot. kak aja pon tatau. hahah"... pastuh along patah balik, xjumpe. then call lagi, dpt..along ckp ar ngan die. wani pon. "syami marah ek? laju je jalan.." haha.

carik tmpt makan. KFC ramai gile org along ckp g BK la. agak KOSONG BK. hahahhaa. tp lps tu, along pon blah; masuk KFC balik. along tanye nk makan ape.. wani yg dari ktorang duk tunggu komuter asek ckp "wani lapar ni".. hahah. mmg xkisah nk makan ap.. sungguh ar, byk kali wani ckp die lapar. xpadan ngan kecik. hahaha. mase along n adik tengah order, wani g carik top up.. so, sembang2 ar ngan udin..pastuh g angkat amende yg dibeli.. pastuh yan dtg.. makan2. sembang2. bla bla yadda yadda.. time tu ar dpt mesej dr sorang kawan, BILA. "result PMR kuar ari rabu, 24." GILERRR. wat suspen je. drang kate result da siap da, da print.. ari tu mak hafi n kawan mak wani zul, da kene gi amik result..simpan.. takot2. huhu..

ktorang jalan lagi gi surau. wani n udin smayang asar. ONCE AGAIN, wani n ana kene tego sbb bersembang. ahahahahhah.... sure fed up mak cik tu.. abes smayang, ktorang g toyrus. kaki da lenguh da nih.. tp macam2 plak yg dibeli... banyak giler mainan.. wani dgn dilema nk beli apa untuk ikmal yg merajuk nk ikut tp x boleh, n sofwan.. dia beli gak something 4 humairah.. akak mithali. hahah.. then, along carik menan 4 apiq. syabil asek tuka2 je nk beli ape.. udin plak nk beli ketapi tu..tp alih2 dlm kotak tu ad rail die je. so, die carik mende lain..asal ad diskaun, ktorang redah je. hahah.. byk tol beli menan. xpadan ngan da besar. haha..

da beli tuh, pak cik tepon. tanye ad kat ne... g ar nk beli tiket...mak aih. ramai sungguh manusia2 ciptaan allah tgh bratur.. ni yg malas bab2 nih.. then ktorang naik atas, drang ckp balik naik bas.. tengok2 ramai tol dlm bas. ye ar kan, waktu puncak. xjadi, patah balik.. adeh. kalo tiap2 ari camni, mau kurus ni. wakakak. mase turun kat lif tuh, yan kate.. "balik lepas maghrib boleh?" .. boleh je. wani pon.. xkisah.. die lupa yg dia ad kelas kol 8, menggantikn kelas yg dia ponteng kol 3 tadi. hahah. so, yan g beli tket, ktorang jalan balik nk gi surau siap2. pastu along tanya.. "surau ke masjid?"...ana yg xlarat nih.. "mane2 yg dekat." hahahaha. ktorang ikut along naik atas, skali turun balik. ish. ape ke he ngan abng2 ana nih. turun naik turun naik. ahah. alih2 masuk surau tadi gak.. ramai sangat org tengah smayang asar. ramai gak yg tgah panik tanya ada lagi x waktu asar...sbb da kol 7.. so, ktorang amik air smayang siap2..tkut nnt lg ramai... GUESS. FOR THE THIRD TIME. KTORANG KENE TGO. hahhahahaha. met this one mak cik, very amiable. sembang2. dia igt my cuzz wani yg 15 tu baru 12.. haha. n dia cakap2 pasal result..f4.. then mak cik tu terperasan something..ad sorang ni pakai kasut masuk dalam..xkisah la . sembang2 lagi.. then kene tego lagi ngan mak cik jaga tu. akkakak. sori2. rasenye mmg mak cik tu da fed up a ngan ktorang ni.. ahhaa...pastuh mak cik yg smbang ngan ktorang tu ckp sori, then dia terpaksa pgi.. dia sempat wish us.. "all the best 4 result"... huhu..

then kuar, rehat2.. goyang2 kaki.. tunggu yg laki abes smayang. pastuh drang bagi tiket, yan buli syabil ..ckp x beli tket utk dia. tinggal kat kl ni. haaha. kawan tu panik da. pastu saje ar ckp. "eh,tiket adik yg lebih tadi.. ade kan?" .. die hepi sket .. pastu yg ckp. "mne boleh gune da...".. huhuhu.. ahha. then, die dgn muramnye amik balik tiket tu, naik... mak aih, mmg ramai ya amat.. wani lak gi sandar, peluk udin. hahaha. da ar kawan tu lagi tinggi dari akaknye, mesti org igt couple. wakakak.. udin ckp.. "ish. pgang ar tali tu..mcm kakak aja" tp wani x sampai... haha.. sakit tangan dowh. mne2 tempat pon menci tol nk pegang mende alah tuh. da ar trangkat lengan baju.. diri lama lak tuh. kaki xleh tahan da nih. gle lenguh. even time tgh blogging ni sket badan owh. haha. sampai la kat kl sentral..

pastuh beli tiket.. tunggu komuter. amik2 gamba. TIME NI TIKET KU ILANG. saspen oooo. giler ar. mau x.. ish, mmg saspen ar. wani, udin sume tolong carik. syabil je bising.. 'akak letak kat mane?? tulaaa..tiket kene la pgg...xkan akk x igt akk letak mane...."...along pon nk gi beli, tgk2 ad kat celah2 telekung. huhuhu..

then ktorang naik komuter yg teramat amat lah ssak sampai tersentuh tangan sorang nih. erk. dia mcm asek ke belakang je.. luckily my bro ad kat dpan.. pgg tiang with another 2 girls yg tgh pegang besi tuh. so, xkisah ar kalo terpegang pon. he's my brother! akakak. tp disebabkan laki yg td tuhtersentuh td tu asek ke belakang je, senang citer, ana suh syabil kebelakang sket, bg ruang.. akak nk masuk..lega. haha.then abah call. tanye kat ne. pak cik pon call wani.. ank dara balik malam2. ahah..nk dkt terjatuh gak ar bila berenti everi stesen. x pgg ape kan.. last2 adik jd mangsa. haha. tarik baju die. hahah.

then sampai la batu 3... abah, pak cik, sofwan n ikmal da sampai da... comey je sofwan tgk menan wani pegang.... "kakak...tu mainan ape kakak? mcm mne nak main kakak??" xcaye je next year die da skola. huhu.. pastuh udin pon ad beli something.. pak cik kate.. "kamu da besar. bagi je la kat adik2 kamu.". hahah. tp laki tetap laki, ni den punyo. aha...

pastuh balik, minum air banyak2. bye2 kat drang, berubah haluan. akhirnya ku syahid d dlm keter. haha. tido, bgun abah benti kat sg buloh, makan. abes tu tido lagi... sampai kat satu hotel di ipoh. syabil ar, kalo ikut abah, abah nk balik teros je. tp adik nk gak tdo hotel. aiyoo.. demanding. haha. sampai hotel, yan n along tingkat 5, ktoang tingkat 4. abah kuar g parking..tp x balik .. lame gak ar. ktorang tgk transformers kat HBO. haha.. then terbangun kol 4 pagi.. tdo balik... then bangun 4 subuh... then minum, then turun bawah.. yan lalu jalan lain. dia sampai dlu.. rugi tol baru tau along kne tahan gak! wakakaka .. i was right bout him driving faster. 150+km/h! hahaha. :D

pastuh breakfast. sdap gk die nye nasi goreng n garlic bread. along tambah nasi goreng.. ana amik lagi roti2...adik makan nasi lemak n cereal.. along x makan lada benggala, pe lagi, amik la kan. uuu.suke2. hahha.

then dlm perjalanan balik, ku tertido lagi. sampai umah, bukak mespes... hahha. n seterusnya. ok ar. da kol 4. 2 jam tulis mende alah nih.. nk recall lagi ape sumer. hahah. k. salam! (ade ke bace sampai bawah ni?)

OUT

Monday, December 22, 2008

salam.
erm.
i'm off to KL today.
last minute packing.

abah ad meeting kat mne nta. haha. if u are a true reader of this humble blog, u know i dont remember names very well. lol.

so, maybe abah akn drop ktorang kat somewhere. hahaha. told u.
then, we're on our own.. my brothers without apiq, n i....
mak n apiq duk kat umah.

it's gonna b a short trip today, i reckon.
oh well, c u soon! insyaAllah.
:)

p/s: like, WOW. i made a short post. hahaha

RESUUULLTTS...

Saturday, December 20, 2008



post nih akan selalu di post sbg peringatan.


heh.

there's like, less than 1 week before the result.

and i just cant stop thinking of what the outcome will be; n i believe everyone's feeling the same. huhu.

all these "what if"s n "will i"s are killing me!!! well, thank Him i'm still alive.

i'm freaking takoooowwttt. arrgh.

i have to admit it, i didnt exactly do all out those days; well at least that's what i think. but i know i did try the very best i could on those particular days... arrgghh. can't stop thinking.

i'm soooo hoping for a miracle. ya Allah.... tenangkan hati ni. huhu.

my bros got 9A's n everyone's like.. oh it's ur time to shine plak. hello, that's so not comforting. but still, i m hoping for the best.. OMA, these anxieties, shivers, n such are just freakky..

OH, n i keep getting SMSes saying, "kalo x nk result terok, forward kat at least 5 of ur F3 friends or u'll get BAD results!"

dude, n dudettes that was just silly! n, scare x langsung boleh bawak 2 khurafat/syirik. i mean, it's completely fine for me if ur one n only intention is for us to pray n get straight a's. but, what the H with all those "forward or u'll get bad results"... hello, believe in Allah, not the "ultimate" power of forwarding, which just doesn't exist! instead of forwarding n wasting, now's the time for praying, praying, n praying. there's nothing more left to do. we can't turn the time n make a few changes on the paper; we'll just have to tawakkal 'alallah n hope for the best.

so, stop forwarding those messages.. okeyh?

erm. for this coming result day, i pray us ALL THE BEST n let's not fight with what's destined. let's not bewitched by those "what if"s n "will i"s, n let's just stick with "whatever happens, happens." insyaAllah, He already planned the best for us all; insyaAllah. amiin.

Kalau cepat Dia makbulkan doamu, maka Dia sayangkanmu.

Kalau lambat doamu dimakbulkan, maka Dia ingin mengujimu.

Kalau doamu tidak dimakbulkan, maka sesungguhnya

Dia sedang merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik buatmu.

Just keep on praying.

God, im still scared. haha.

PENGUMUMAN PENTING!

hahahaha.
ana x larat nk gelak, tapi kesian kan.
hahaa.

adik ana, yg baru berumur 8 tahun, yes people. jah 2.
beria-ia je nk buat BLOG.
YAH. BLOG. STANDARD 2.

n i t0t he was only bluffing.

n he said.
"akak? tu page akak ke?"
"erm. blog."
"Adik nak?"
"nak ape?"
"blog."
"pergh. serius?"
"ha la."
"adik kne update sll tau x...susah2.."
"xpe la..."
"are u sure?"
"yes, i am sure."

mase tu tgh chat ngan dlm 4-5 of my friends kat YM.
n time tu chatbox dengan saffana ... n sambil tgh check chatbox kat my blog.
n she was thinking the same thing as i was.
"nnt da besar sure gelak je baca post dia lama2 dlu."
hahahha.

mule2 buat x heran je.
tp dia tunggu la sampai abes chatting. he was reading out loud my conversation with my friends. huhuhu.

so, tutup la YM n buat la blog kat adikkuh itu.
maka, blog yg bertema teentitans pon dipilih oleh mamat nih.

n my along was liike,
"xpayah la.. adik bukan rajin tulis pon."
"xpe la..adik da buat da"..

hah! x sampai 3 jam blog tu wujud da ad 2 posts.

maka dengan ini, kepada rakan2 sekalian,
korang view la blog dia.
kesian dia xde org nk baca kang.
hahaha.
n jgn lupe, korang drop la komen kat dia nye Cbox blah kiri.
jasamu dikenang.

klik2. jgn segan jgn silu. hahah.
Ya Allah, arap2 dia x terpengaruh ngan style tulis
blog mase tulis karangan.
hahahaha.

moving;again.

Thursday, December 18, 2008

friends!

im moving to a new home, PERMANENT home; in some time. in case ur thinking of asking, erm. yeah, im moving, but still in penang. not gonna b back in KL again... T.T

i hate moving. i hate splitting. but hey, like in my previous post, "bertemu berpisah kerana allah, ukhwah fillah abadan abada."...

surah azZukhruf, 67; "good friends on that day will be foes one to another, except for AlMuttaqun (the righteous)"...

im so touched by rasulullah's bond of friendship..

how the sahabats were willing to do anything for him. n how he was for them.

on the last week of school 2008, i was sitting alone in the school musolla..about 9am.. there were a few girls in front, playing with the mic, n no boys around. n i was reading my bro's BADAR comic, P.O.W..pearl of waqafan. i felt like crying when i read it. here's how the story goes, tp scara ringkas la..

ada sorang pompuan ni, .. dia dtg bawak buah2 limau yg memang nmpk ranum, masak, elok, mmg terliur la kalo tgk... oh btw, she wasnt a muslim.. dia bg kat rasulullah(s.a.w), yg masa tu tgh ad dgn para sahabat.

rasulullah (s.a.w) amik satu, makan. pastuh rasulullah (s.a.w) mkn sambil senyum2 plak tu. mmg nmpk mcm rasulullah (s.a.w) tgh menikmati la limau tu. lepas satu, satu lagi rasulullah (s.a.w) makan. pompuan tadi seronok sgt tgk rasulullah (s.a.w) happy dgn pemberian dia...

para sahabat yang lain, pelik. knapa rasulullah (s.a.w) mcm ni? selalunya, rasulullah akn share ngan para sahabat. tp kali ni x, buah yg kemain nmpk sedap, rasulullah (s.a.w) makan, habiskan 1 per 1..... sampai la habis, pompuan td pulang ke rumah dgn hati yg gumbira... seronok dapat jamu rasulullah.

so, para sahabat pon asked him. "o the messenger of allah. y didnt u give us the mouth-watering limes?"

n rasulullah (s.a.w) senyum, cakap..

"sesungguhnya limau2 tu sangat lah masam... aku tak mahu menjamu para sahabatku dengan limau2 yang masam rasanya. lagi2 pula pemberian itu datang dari seorang bukan muslim, jadi aku khuatir, kalian akan mengenyitkan mata kerana kemasaman limau tersebut lalu menyinggung perasaan wanita tadi."

maka para sahabat pon paham...

rse cam i wrote longer plak than the stori. haha. i know, the way i presented it wasnt touching. haha

did u get it? 1st, how we must jaga perasaan org, eventhough bukan islam sekalipun.

2nd, xbaik jamu org dgn makanan yg kita x suka. rasulullah(s.a.w) habiskan limau tu sbb masam, sanggup habiskan semua semata2 xmo kawan2 dia terpaksa menelan limau2 yg masam. n bayangkan la, i bet ramai yg agree, benda yg x sedap tu yg sll lagi senang kita bahagi2 kat org sbb x sanggup nk abeskan. righhtt???

i told 3 of my chums, mase kat kantin, this story. aliaa, bila, n hafi terdiam.. i myself, mase baca part rasulullah (s.a.w) xmo bagi cuz limau tu masam, stumbled upon this beautiful sirah..

plus, tingat mcm mana Umar xdapat terima kewafatan rasulullah (s.a.w) ... n how saidina ali sanggup tido kat katil rasulullah (s.a.w) padahal dia tau akn ad org dtg nk bunuh rasulullah (s.a.w) mse tido on that night. n ramai lagi laaa.

so anyway, moving to a new place means meeting new friends ayyte? meet new friends,but still, i must keep the old ones.

my house is in progress right now. tgh pasang tiles.. tiles baru delivered je tadi... HUGE ONES!! my mum picked out HUGE tiles!! mcm kat mall, ok, not exactly. kecik sikit la. hahaha. 600mmx600mm. huhuh..

n ad gamba, of my lil bro, kat dlm his soon to be room. i edited it.

the original

very random. da lame x ngedit gamba.

till then, love ur friends.

to all my friends,

uhibbukunna fillah!

my fingers are burniinngg.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

aaaaaaaa...

tadi saje nk buat chicken nuggets lps subuh, tp try2 la buh cili api ..........

pastuh sambil tunggu ayam tu da rebus, saje main2 ngan cili api tu.

n now, great syaza, great. ur fingers r burning. 

aaaaaaaaaaaa...

huhuhu.

kisah pe, asal jadi gak sarapan. LOL.

result.


post nih akan selalu di post sbg peringatan.


heh.

there r like, less than 2 weeks before the result.

and i just cant stop thinking of what the outcome will be; n i believe everyone's feeling the same. huhu.

all these "what if"s n "will i"s are killing me!!! well, thank Him i'm still alive.

i'm freaking takoooowwttt. arrgh.

i have to admit it, i didnt exactly do all out those days; well at least that's what i think. but i know i did try the very best i could on those particular days... arrgghh. can't stop thinking.

i'm soooo hoping for a miracle. ya Allah.... tenangkan hati ni. huhu.

my bros got 9A's n everyone's like.. oh it's ur time to shine plak. hello, that's so not comforting. but still, i m hoping for the best.. OMA, these anxieties, shivers, n such are just freakky..

OH, n i keep getting SMSes saying, "kalo x nk result terok, forward kat at least 5 of ur F3 friends or u'll get BAD results!"

dude, n dudettes that was just silly! n, scare x langsung boleh bawak 2 khurafat/syirik. i mean, it's completely fine for me if ur one n only intention is for us to pray n get straight a's. but, what the H with all those "forward or u'll get bad results"... hello, believe in Allah, not the "ultimate" power of forwarding, which just doesn't exist! instead of forwarding n wasting, now's the time for praying, praying, n praying. there's nothing more left to do. we can't turn the time n make a few changes on the paper; we'll just have to tawakkal 'alallah n hope for the best.

so, stop forwarding those messages.. okeyh?

erm. for this coming result day, i pray us ALL THE BEST n let's not fight with what's destined. let's not bewitched by those "what if"s n "will i"s, n let's just stick with "whatever happens, happens." insyaAllah, He already planned the best for us all; insyaAllah. amiin.

Kalau cepat Dia makbulkan doamu, maka Dia sayangkanmu.

Kalau lambat doamu dimakbulkan, maka Dia ingin mengujimu.

Kalau doamu tidak dimakbulkan, maka sesungguhnya

Dia sedang merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik buatmu.

Just keep on praying.

God, im still scared. haha.

oh, btw! i was looking for a new BLUE blogskin. there were like, loads of BLUE blogskins, n i can't decide which BLUE blogskin i would like to have. gawjjjuss! hahaha. wait la, nnt tuka. kalo rajen. haha. see how i really love BLUE? haha.

HOMEWORK F4

Tuesday, December 16, 2008

ok2. time sumer org da siap homework for next year, i just bought the exercise book. NOTICE i typed, "just bought"... baru beli, belum sentuh. hahahahahah. n i thought, having 2 elder brothers will make my life easier. ta payah beli buku. copy je drang punye.

tatapi..here's what happened some nights. (i kept skipping. y oh y?)

NIGHT A;

me: aaaa.yan, buku2 form4 mane? (tenga semangat neyh nak stat buat.)

yan: tu... (pointing to a mountain of F4 n F5 books)

me: ha? *blur jap* oh.ok. (dlm hati, "nnt la. mls plak rase." ahhahaha)

NIGHT B;

bila: awak! dalam buku rujukan awk ade x plot untuk poems??

me: aaaaaaa. nta. xbli buku lagi.

bila: aik??? abes ari tu kate da beli.

me: buku tulis, bkn buku rujukan. muahhahah.

bila: ish3.. trok tol. xpe lah... ni, awk, stahu awk, dlm poems, ade ke plot???

me: ad je..korek2 isi hati pengarang, dapat la plot.

bila: adeh. ni yg malas nih. nk kene korek. xde ke ref books? kalo de, ad gak alasan nk g umah kawan, boring gile nih.

me: ish3. xelok malas2. tgk kte, rajin je. RAJEN tgk tv. hahahahaha. 

bila: ha. bagos sgt la tu. eh, so, bila nk beli buku rujukan ..?

me : erm. jap.

***i went upstairs***

me: aaa.. yan, mane buku2 literature? xde pon.

yan: ade la.. kat atas..

me: mne?? xjmpe pon.

***he went upstairs***

yan: ni ... (a selected poems n short stories textbook covered in yellow paper with dragon balls scribbles. "-_-)

aja: cheh. mane la org nk jumpe... ref books xde?

yan: x. alah, bukan betol sgt pon ref books. buat seniri ..

n i was like, 

eh, bukan2, comel sket. haha .. cmni, tp comel lagi kot. caption, "ehhhh? nape xde??????".. panic da panic da. haha

hahaha. i was exagerating. i know im cuter. hahahahahah. no, really, that was my expression, my INNER expression when my bro said that..... this is how i looked like on the outside, well, kurang lebeyh la. 

erm, people. i meant the eyes. not with the roses n such. hahahah.

ok2, back to biz.

so i said..

me: ha????? aduuh. malas nk carik.. huhu. (remember i told my fren not to be lazy. well, here's my advice, take it, i dun need it. lol.)

so, i texted bila.

me: sori for the long wait. my bros x pakai ref books (both my bros mse upper form gi sbp, so yeah, drang xde chance nk kluar beli buku sll . ahaha), n nmpknye tpakse wat nota seniri.

bila: ha??? biar betol? abes, awk nk beli buku rujukan x?

me: erm, xkot. maybe i'll try buat seniri.....huhuhu.

bila: bagos la tu. jgn angat2 taik ayam je.

me: eyh, kte mane penah hangat2 taik ayam. ... heheheh. (no, really.haha)

bila: k lah. nnt kalo ad pa pe kte btau.

so off there.

NIGHT C; 

i reached my pc as i remembered my bro ckp "carik ar kat tenet" earlier. sje xnk tulis td, gimmick. lol. cunning plan, this lil boy is my alliance.. 

look how we share our cunning face. hahahaha.

so i keyed in .. n i found this website. full of notes for PMR n SPM literature... n this is how i felt,

bwahhahahaha. bila, i told u im gonna do this on my own. didnt say i was going to start from the scratch, eyh, i searched for the notes what, ON MY OWN. hahahahah. 

ok2. im starting to crap.

anyhow, DAYS AFTER THAT.

i found my bangah's profile on myspace. he was like my brother back then when i was younger. i call him bangah, n he's of the same age as my second bro. our siblings n his siblings are like , erm, siblings?. haha. we used to do things together, i mean, NAUGHTY2 things together, all of us.. so yeah, talked a lil. n it was weird to call him bangah (adli's his real name).. havent called him for like, 8 years. my brothers n i call him bangah, n his sister, kak long. n he gave me my kak long's fon number!!!! rindu kak longg!!! (she's his sister, izzati. currently in poli PD).. n their only lil bro, ajim is now in stand 6. can't believe it, the last time i saw him, was like, when he was in kindergarten! huhu..

n guess what, there's another childhood friend of mine i found yesterday. i hd never actually care bout strangers calling me n said they dialled the wrong number. but somehow, there's this kakak from smka (p) sharifah rodziah from melaka, kinda friendly. like i've known her somehow. i saved her number as Kak Fara Anom. no, not Hanum or something. anonymous. huahuahuahau. jahat2. well, ari tu tanya kat Pak Cik Google, n i found her(my childhood friend) name "Nur Lisa Zaharin"... in the latter school's pmr result sheets. she got 9a's, alhamdulillah. n i asked kak fara, whether she knows this person or not, n she said yes, nk number ke? ...my3... hikmah3. patutla pelik, knapa la ana layan kakak ni? huuhu..

that was like, my second time experiencing such thing. the first time was, when i was searching for one of my best kindergarten friend, anhar. (i forgot that she's younger than me by a year until i found her friendster)... n on that time, i was chit chatting with this girl, AZILLAH .. she was in standard 5, n i was std 6 back then. n sape sangke dowh! mse skola menengah drang 1 sekola! azillah n anhar! or korang mmg da 1 sekola from sekola rendah? my, btollah org kate...bertemu berpisah kerana allah... ukhwah fillah abadan abada.

all of them; coincidently are residents of Bukit Mulia, bukit antarabangsa.

:D:D:D

da panjang sgt kan? haha. k lah, to the readers (kalo ada), pat ur back! congratulations, u managed to read this long post of mine till the very end. hahaha.

tatataa...

PUZZLES.

haha.
ok2. right now, im laying down in bed... blogging...
just thought of blogging bout puzzle.
no..
not jigsaw puzzle ,
not crosswords puzzle..
it's a japanese series.

hahaha.

lawak tol cite nie!

k, i'm half way to finish all 10 episodes.
citer die..
pasal this female teacher,
english teacher, tp senarnye die x reti english pon.
she was transferred to this elite school... konon die terrer, die buang buku2 charles dicken, ckp "awful sentences"...dlm hati.. "my, y r they learning such advanced english??"
hahah.. so, dia ajar very basic english.... yg membuatkan bebudak tu boring

contoh.. 1 hari 1 perkataan.
"english is just another japanese language with different pronunciation..
"it's hopeless if u blindly memorize unknown english words.
"if u cleverly link the words and meaning, logically, it's easier to remember
"hesitate.,
"means, to hesitate.
"in this case,
"he..shite ito? [do i have to fart?]
"u will certainly hesitate to fart in public.

"SO CLASS. HESITATE. HE..SHITE ITO?...HESITATE.. HE..SHITE ITO?"

ni screenshots.


huahuahua..

cikgu ni, ad 2 character.

1 bila depan org ramai, GILER SWEET. GILER LEMBUT. GILER SOPAN. GILER AYU.


mak aih, bila ngan students dia, especially 3 org nih.., GANAS WOAH..



NOT TO FORGET, gile mata duitan! hahaha.
every episode, ad 1 puzzle/mystery/riddle they'll have to solve.. each n every one of the riddles is leading to treasures, jewels, n such. so, every weekends, asal ad pasal nk dapat harta je, cikgu tu join, gunakan, to be exact.. gunakan the boys to find the treasures. however, up till now, ep 5, all of their efforts have gone to waste. treasures yg diharapkan cikgu tu, bukan treasures pon. same ad forgeries, atopon maksud tersirat.

ad 1 ep tuh, cg muda ni sanggup go through bride choosing test utk this one very rich OLD man... serius, mata duitan giler. haha. pastuh clue terakhir.. "u'll only get the treasure by being with ur husband"...yadda yadda, cikgu tu terbaca these signs, yg mainly tulis "the treasures are children". huah4.

cikgu ni jugak sangat terrer selesai bab2 bahasa. so u really need to master japanese to actually understand how hard the questions are. BUT, not to worry, to enjoy this drama, no need la. haha. n cikgu ni sangat kuat makan. n xlarat naik bukit/jalan jauh2...

n setiap episod, ad kes pembunuhan, so akan ad polis.. polis ni tertarik dgn dedikasi cikgu ni utk menyelamatkan ank2 murid dia... padahal dia yg bwk anak2 murid dia sbb nk carik harta. tp as i said earlier, she has 2 diff characters! adeh! susah la nk citer. tp mmg lawak ar!

akhir2 sekali, sorang cikgu laki yg minat kat cikgu ayukawa ni akan marah2 budak2 3 org ni sbb da susahkan cikgu tu... cikgu tu mmg blagak baik ar time tu. tp lepas da xde org n sbb x dpt treasures tu, fed up, cikgu tu mesti ckp... "it's all your fault that ive wasted my days off again!" sambil kejar budak2 tu. haha.

tgk la kalo senang. :D
nk sambung lg 5 eps.
:D

daaaa

p/s: THANKS ALONG! DOWNLOAD LA BANYAK2 LG.. haha


lupe lak.

Sunday, December 14, 2008

lpe lak nk blog pasal malam tuh.
ok, memula igt nk tgk twilight with friends, tp sumer bz kan.
so, postponed la.

a day before, my cuzzin Am, yg baru lepas abes SPM datang..then dia, my dad n my bros kluar. n i tot drang balik petang japgi. tp tgk2 drang gi KL.. So, igt kot lame la kan drang gi.
adeh, satu malam je.
time tu tgh layan citer Witch Yoo Hee kat YouTube, dalam kol 2 pagi.
then, tgk2 my bro Yan terjah bilik dgn selambenya then dia sorok this one remote-control robot kat atas almari. n i was like, HAH? pastuh nk sambung tgk citer WYH, my cuzzin mcm nk ikut my bro n that time, HELLO. 2 PAGI. DALAM BILIK=time tu x pakai tudung lagi! cuz i didnt expect them to be back at that very night. pastuh he knew it la, dia tuka arah masuk bilik sebelah, kelam kabut ana carik tudung.

B4 tu, petang tu, my mum ckp.. "haish. tudung bersepah2. cuba la sangkut..." hahaha. mak, tgk! ad hikmahnye tinggal tudung dlm bilik. LOL.

ok2. 11 disember tu, my dad g mane nta. KL kot. again. n mse breakfast, my bro Yan said to my youngest bro, "adik, hari ni cicakman. nak tengok?"
yadda yadda drang sembang2. ana basuh pinggan. yadda yadda. igt nk call my friends, alang2 drang tgk cicakman, jom nyibuk. hahaha.

then petang tu, my bro tanya, "nk ikut ke?" pastuh cakap ar. "duuuh." hahaha. pastuh dia cakap xmo bawak kawan ke.. pastuh dia tanya nk gi bila.. n i said "lepas isya' ar."... so Yan n Am gi sana naik bas n ronda2..makan2. tunggu nk book. waited there. n i called n texted aliaa, wardah, pjah...sumer x boleh! huhu. ape la korang. cuti2 ni jom ar. haha. then, my bro texted .
"baper org kawan?"
"nta. jap2. nga contact."
"confirm btol2.. nk book nih."
"jap2. sorang je kot. dia nga tanye mak dia."
"ok. kol 7 nnt btau."
"ok."

adeh, mcm fairy godmother lak dlm citer cinderella. seblom kol 12 balik. ni seblom kol 7 mesej. haha.

n i was hoping nabilah boleh pgi. tp dia xbrani tanya ayah dia. aaaaaaaa .. huhu. im the only girl. huhu.
so, my bro booked tickets for him, my cuz Am, Along, Adik n I. apiq xmo masuk panggung. gelap. takut. :D... pastu btau my adik. kol 930 g sane. abg yan n abg am tunggu sane. pastu adik ckp..

"mak hanta ke?"
"along la."
"eh? along ckp dia xnk gi."
"ha? abg yan ckp die da book da tiket."
"oh ok."

so, lepas smayang isya' Along turun n i called my dad. abah gelak, abah cakap.

"byk duit. sape blanja?"
"yan."
"haha. xpe lah.. tgk cite pe?"
"cicakman 2. huhu."
"oh. ha pegi lah."

then my bro bawak citra g sane. I KNOW NOTHING BOUT STREETS. so, mcm duk je la dalam tu. along tanye adik,
"jalan mana ni?"
"sini la. pusing2."
"btol ni?"
me: macam pelik je.
"haaa.. adik. silap la...."
adikkuwh terdiam. haha.

n my bro yan da call da. ad kat ne. carik parking. huhu.
then masuk la tengok.
cicakman 2 ok la, byk humour. boleh tahan. costume die je xlawa. hahahaaha.
rrama's mcm fit gile. geli tgk. ahhaha. n baju cicakman yg baru pon x baper sangat.
tp overall, boleh la tahan, byk CGIs.. CUMA SATU JE NK POINT OUT NIH!!!

kan planet hitam kan, n sumer air jadik tercemar n hitam kan. ad this one point nih,
rumah hairi terbakar, n bomba datang. ajaibnye, AIR YG BOMBA SEMBUR tu putih bersih suci jernih elok je. hahaha. tapi maybe x disengajakan kot. xperasan. haha.

pastu abes tu, kluar gi kat parking lot. along g bayar parking n my bro Yan cuba2 nk bawak keter.
n i said to my screaming lil bro.
"adik, baik adik ngucap sesiap!"
"xmau laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..." he kept on screaming. haha.
"ngucap dikkk. ngucap. takut x sempat. "
then Yan bawak pusing2 kat lot tuh. jalan brek jalan brek. adeh. kalo teros lagi baper saat bleh termuntah. haha.
man, that was scary! hahahah. gle takot.. 4 minutes mase tu macam LAMA gile. hahaha.
pastuh dia berenti. pusing belakang. Along nga peluk tubuh dgn muka x baper nk garang, aahha. jk3. pastuh balik. camtu la gamaknye. hahah.

punye panjang citer nk gi sane. bukan citer pasal cicakman. hahahahah.
tu je la. LOL.

results.

heh.

there r like, another 2 weeks before the result.

and i just cant stop thinking of what the outcome will be; n i believe everyone's feeling the same. huhu.

all these "what if"s n "will i"s are killing me!!! well, thank Him i'm still alive.

i'm freaking takoooowwttt. arrgh.

i have to admit it, i didnt exactly do all out those days; well at least that's what i think. but i know i did try the very best i could on those particular days... arrgghh. can't stop thinking.

i'm soooo hoping for a miracle. ya Allah.... tenangkan hati ni. huhu.

my bros got 9A's n everyone's like.. oh it's ur time to shine plak. hello, that's so not comforting. but still, i m hoping for the best.. OMA, these anxieties, shivers, n such are just freakky..

OH, n i keep getting SMSes saying, "kalo x nk result terok, forward kat at least 5 of ur F3 friends or u'll get BAD results!"

dude, n dudettes that was just silly! n, scare x langsung boleh bawak 2 khurafat/syirik. i mean, it's completely fine for me if ur one n only intention is for us to pray n get straight a's. but, what the H with all those "forward or u'll get bad results"... hello, believe in Allah, not the "ultimate" power of forwarding, which just doesn't exist! instead of forwarding n wasting, now's the time for praying, praying, n praying. there's nothing more left to do. we can't turn the time n make a few changes on the paper; we'll just have to tawakkal 'alallah n hope for the best.

so, stop forwarding those messages.. okeyh?

erm. for this coming 27, i pray us ALL THE BEST n let's not fight with what's destined. let's not bewitched by those "what if"s n "will i"s, n let's just stick with "whatever happens, happens." insyaAllah, He already planned the best for us all; insyaAllah. amiin.

Kalau cepat Dia makbulkan doamu, maka Dia sayangkanmu.

Kalau lambat doamu dimakbulkan, maka Dia ingin mengujimu.

Kalau doamu tidak dimakbulkan, maka sesungguhnya

Dia sedang merancang sesuatu yang lebih baik buatmu.

Just keep on praying.

God, im still scared. haha.

oh, btw! i was looking for a new BLUE blogskin. there were like, loads of BLUE blogskins, n i can't decide which BLUE blogskin i would like to have. gawjjjuss! hahaha. wait la, nnt tuka. kalo rajen. haha. see how i really love BLUE? haha.

OK. I WAS TAGGED. haha

Wednesday, December 10, 2008

I WAS TAGGED BY A JUNIOR NAMED AZILLAH.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
no lover. ok, nexttt. :D

2. Do you like tags?
this is my first time. huhu. kinda fun. :)

3. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
ermm..i got one prob. i don't have any hadaf. helllpp. :D

4. What is your current mood?
everything seems to be mixed up.

5. What will you do with a billion dollars?
errrmm... billion dollars? i may koyak koyak kan 1 note, n then i'll confirm that i got billion dollars. then i'll think of what i shud do with the rest?.. hahah

6. Will you fall in love with your bestfriend?
my bestfriends are girls. hello?

7. Which will you prefer, loving someone or being loved by someone?
neither. i want the relationship under the philosophy, "loving n loved bcuz of Allah."

8. Are you pretty?
erm. physically speaking, i dont think so. but hamdalah, He made me normal.

9. If the person you dislike is right in front of you, what will you do?
dislike in what way? hmm, since im in my house, n she/he's here, what to do? jamuu la. haha.

10. What do you pray each day for your loved ones?
i pray that........... we are leading an eternal friendship fillah, the rest of the doa', let it be a secret between me n Him.

11. What takes you down the fastest?
a betrayal.

12. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
ermm. 25. no vision came, cannot see anything. bwah4.

13. What are the reason that could make you so tensed up?
when people came to me for a solution, but i felt like i can't help them.

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
azillah? dont know her much in real life, but ukhwah doesnt need togetherness n everyday conversation, she seems rather humble n a soon to be great generation of muslimah. :D:D:D

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
ermm. tough one. HAHAHAHAHAHAH.

16. Who would you like to see the moment you wake up?
anyone just as long it tells im not alone.

17. What's the character must have in your partner?
what partner? haha. ape2lah. im Lady Lackadaisical, so luke-warm that i never matter how someone is. haha.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you like to pick?

suke sangat talk about love , (haha. azillah, i leave ur answer here. same lah. )

19. Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing that someone has done?
u see, i trust people easily, but once u break the trust, it'll b hard for me to accept ur trust again. but still, i do forgive people easily. who m i nk hukum2 org. but beware, i may not forget. bwahahaha.

20. Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
dlm islam, ms utk kta berkenal2an adlh dlm tempoh pertunangan. hehe. still got looooong way to go.

21. Would you leave your family behind just to chase your dreams?
let the dream chase me then. haha

22. Who are the 5 person that you w0uld like to tag?

tunku atiqah, norliana shuhada, natasha as-sakinah, yani, sape2 je lah.

haha. thanks, azillah. :)

btw, my bros n my cousin Am are now ronda2 kat KL. my dad ad mesyuarat, so drang ikut skali. JELES TOL. huhuhu...

ah, i found a pic of my MAMA. kalo korang nk tgk vanessa anne hudgens versi Asian muslimah, ni la die. hahaha. :P jgn marah, mama. :P with her, ummu. :)

my mama ni ad ramai suami. kaka, bryan nickson lomas,

ish. ramai la.. sampai x menyempat2 nk tulih.. hahahah. :D

oh, my aidil adha was great! cuma masih terkilan not many yg anggap aidil adha ni sepatutnya lebih meriah dari aidil fitri.. hmm. mcm mn nk ubah mentaliti n norma masyarakat kita skang nih? pelik btol. aidilfitri sehari, buat macam sebulan. aidil adha 3 hari, buat cam setengah hari

i saw the penyembelihan....felt sORRY for the lembus. my cousin ikmal, my bro syabil n my cousin sofwan said "td nmpk lembu2 tu nangis".. em, pnah dgr jugak yg lembu2 korban ni akan kluar air mata... sbb dia; x sure, tp ad dengar yg drang gmbira dpt menyumbang sesuatu buat umat islam. :')... n suddenly i remembered the video i saw earlier..............

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... do u know what vid????? do u wanna knowww?????

it's a vid of a palestinean slaughtered hidup2...aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa..... it's ringing in my ears how he said Allahuakbar!! n when the knife reached his troat, i could hear the air he exhaled, mcm gas bocor... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.... nauzubillah min zalik! felt like crying... people there mati sengsara slmt islam, people here mati kebodohan yang amat. nk sgt tiru budaya kuning . aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...........

erm, pa pe hal, let's go back mase b4 raye.

my atok mmg slalu buat makan2 everi malam raya, where everyone gathers happily, the house would b very cherished with the kids' laughters n the adults' stories. my acu buat tayangan pasal dadah, x sempat tgk sumer. dtg lambat, my dad ad keje. then, tgk wayang smbil makan2 kat lawn atok... aaahh.. likey2.

AHHH. aisyah humairah is aaaayyy cutie!! haha.

n the best part of all, I RAYA-ED when I SPENT THE NIGHT BEFORE, from 8pm-8am WATCHING SASSY GIRL AT YOUTUBE, TERUSKAN BERAYA, N SLEPT AT 5.30pm SAMPAI MAGHRIB. balik malam tu memang ngantuk ar, BUT I FINISHED THE WHOLE EPISODES sampai pagi esok tuu.. huhuhu. n now im watching WITCH YOO HEE, episode 8/16. hahaha. kat 8tv x bes, x real, da alih bahasa. huhuh..

doodled at Yahoo. haha. sarang=love. jadikla mcm ni. kakaka.

n guess what, i picked up lots of korean words. ahah. xde mase nk gi kelas korea. LOL.:P


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