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SYAZA "DIED" TODAY

Monday, June 29, 2009

"Charger. Listen here. Everything happens for a reason. Sume ni ada hikmah.
From what i interpret it, it is time for u to stop sacrificing so much for one person who will never understand. My time, long ago. I stopped when i was not suppose to stop. u, Allah nak tunjuk kat awak, u HAVE TO STOP IT - NOW." - Aliaa

"Charger, lek...byk2 sabar eh.." - Farhana

"Charger. Sabaq... p balik umah tidoq.." - Wafa

"Hafi tatau nak kata pa lagi da.." - Hafi

Salam..

i m feeling absolutely unappreciated.
absolutely undeniably unappreciated.
and this feeling killed me.

the Syaza that u once knew all along... "died" today.

OVER JE.
AHAHAHHAHAHAHHA
IGNORE.

syaza u can do this.
Allah ma'ana.
Allah ma'aki, syaza.
U got ur friends.

well. it was nothing actually. sje nk melodramatic dlm ni ann. haha.

Happy Birthday Abah!

Sunday, June 28, 2009

Salam..
smlm, 27th June 2009, my Abah, Suraini bin Ramli turned 44~
wat marble kek vanilla n choc... icing coklat!! :D

Atok dtg petang tu, tp Abah xde, g tgk transformer ngan Adik.. "-_-
Abah kne pujuk Adik sbb Adik merajuk..
Abah balik awal, xdpt nk surprise. hahahahahhahaha

ptg tu tgk cite Hindustan. pasal Poonam n Chotti pemende ntah.. pnah tgk kat channel Zee kot...tp xsmpt abes.. so tgk la bg abes. wakakakka.

pastuh malam tu, abah balik.. makan2.. Apik xmo makan.. dia ckp ngantuk.. bibir berdarah, mcm tergigit.

oh n pagi tu ad skola ganti.
wasted my time. SORANG CIKGU PON X MASUK DARI MULA SAMPAI ABES. baik x yah datang skola... "-________________-
n then tengahari tu ad klas tambahan Bio, guess what, WE JUST KNEW YG TCE FIFA GOT AN IDENTICAL TWIN!!! kakak Tce, Hafizah, Tce Hafifah... n she's a dentist. OMG. xcited gle. tingin gak nk ad kembar..

Farhana pon ckp tingin nk ad kmbar..
Amal ckp, "toksah! satgi hancoq dunia kalo ang ad kmbaq!" hahaha

mmg off topic la time tu.

then, Farhana suggest kat tce nk ubah kedudukan, sume boys duduk kat depan since skang tinggal 6 org je.. buat sbaris je for boys. .. n di back up oleh Wafa too. tp ad yg x stuju.... marah2... ckp buat ap nk ubah2.

tp Tce ckp..

"Tce pon senarnye mmg nk buat mcm tu.. da xde alasan da boys nk duduk blkang. buat ap boys duk blakang, boys sepatutnya duk dpn la~"
Tce ckp, buat proposal, tce tandatangan je. ahahhahaha.
buat Piagam 4IR. wakaka. :D

tp drang2 tu x puas hati...
Amal btau drang ckp...
"ni Irshad, bukan Islah."

NI YANG NAK MARAH NIH.

HEELLLOOO.. Islah ke, Irshad ke.. same je la! 2-2 Islam! ape lah salahnye kalo nk amik budaya Islah if it is for the better? apsal nk beza2 kan Islah n Irshad? skang ni kira ISLAM. ya allah.. masalah tol.

TP .. ehem. me n farhana, were appointed as the AJK Keceriaan. say no more. listen to us. wakakak. mcm kejam je gne kuasa veto.

ajal datang tiba2..

Friday, June 26, 2009

Salam..
erm.

pagi tadi, dtg skola.. fae tego..
"charger..masa mai td charger nmpk x ad keta masuk longkang?"
"hah?? kat ne? xpasan lak.."

sorang demi sorang ckp pasal keter tu..
drang ckp..
pakcik dlm tu mcm pengsan..longlai da...

n i suppose, dia kena heart attack b4 masuk longkang, hilang kawalan n jatuh dlm longkang...

b4 baca yasin, dgr pengumumn ckp takziah.. not quite clear, but im positive it was for the pakcik...
mse bace tu.. sayu sgt...
sbb pk macam nih...

"ayah budak tu meninggal mse hantar dia g skola.................da sampai skola plak tu......"
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa
satu skola lak baca yassin utk ayah diaa... aaaaa
huhuhu

then farhana ckp, confirm, pakcik tu da ninggal. al fatihah..
anak dia form1, ad 2 org kot anak xstudents sini.. thn lps, kak wan nur athirah katanya....

bayangkan.. budak tu form 1, sama ada 3 tahun, ato 5 thn dia terpaksa lalu longkang bersejarah tu tiap kali masuk kawasan skola....
T____________________________________T

ajal x kira waktu... tsk tsk.

-------
smlm time pj wat sukaneka.
best.
n bila main tepong n air, i smelled like a dough throughout the day. "-_-

then petang tu amal main hangman ngan satu kelas.

sir wat magic show. not really, but pasal pisang. "D

...
ummu asked me to write longer, like i used to.
but ummu, i think i lost my so-called-talent in posting extremely long posts after i moved.. hahaha

when hah?

Monday, June 22, 2009

Salam..

i was looking at my friends' photos on their brothers' and sisters' wedding ceremony and i am wondering...
when is it gonna be my turn to say...

"dtg tau,knuri abg kte kawen esok."

hahahahahhahahahahahahahahahhahahahahahahahahah

mcm mne eh persiapan nnt? spe kawen dlu? along? yan? ahhahahahahahahhaahahah.

pergh. lambat lagi kot lambat lagi.

but when i said that my bro nak bertunang on 31st April this year, my friends screamt out loud!!!!! without even thinking is there such date as 31st April?
hahahaah.

i got nothing to blog actually.
markah pekse ku sgt lawa..
sejarah, terharu gle. 94!!!! xsgke cikgu sgt generous kerana tlh memberiku markah yg sngat tingiii... 94 weyyy 94 !! **NOTE THE SARCASM**
sivik! paling bes, 66!!! HAHAHHAHAHA. sikit je lagi nk kne retest. igt kot nk wat la rekod the only one who'll be sitting,i mean, REsitting SIVIK! hahha. tp xberkesempatan la plak... hahah
chemistry kne retest jugok. tgk marks paper 3 mcm hebat je... tp paper 1 n 2.. wakkaka. xdapek den nk nolong.
bio x kot, kalo tambah another 4 marks sbb anta buku latihan. mueh2.

BI, tcer jamie n sir said said. er, Sir Said said
(ade org pnah tanya tru YM..
sir mne?
"sir said..."
"ye la.. sir mne yg ckp?"
ahahhahahah..padah xmementingkan caps lock)
drang kata, my essay sounds so informal.
gahaha.
adeh. alhamdulillah eseikuwh hanya 2 org cikgu yg check, Aliaa's, sume cikgu BI semak..
"-_-...susa jadik dak pandai cam awak aliaa.. haha :D

have i blog bout a HANTU that disturbed me last holiday? i wish i can just say those things, but .. erggh!

till then. salam! :D

Friday, June 19, 2009

Salam..

AHAHHHA
AHAHAHHA
AHAHAHHA

I CRIED DURING MY ORAL TEST.
hahahahhahahahahaahahhahahhahaha

ya allah, malunye. wakakka.

I never thought that i would cry. why?? whyyy?? whyyy??
mse practice xde pon. adehhh..
aaahhhh.
malunyeee. alhamdulillah ramai escape g USM. xramai org tgk...
everyone knows the hard-to-cry-even-harder-to-be-seen-crying syaza!!!
hahahhahaha.
ya allah.
malu maluuu.

lalallalalalalala.

so barang da packing 4 kem kepimpinan.
SEKALI BATAL????!!!!
xpe ah, kta hanya mampu merancang, Allah menentukan. trima seadanya. pasrah. huhhuhu
nak gi keeeemm. huhuhu

oh, n teacher jamie, if u read this, CONGRATULATIONSS!! U TYPED MY BLOG URL correctly. wakaka.

haha. so ok ar. nk melepak jap. wsalam!! :)

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Salam..
ahahahaha
kawan2ku sudah bising,
nape x update blog lame sunggoh.
mne de lame...
dlm 10 ari camtu jeee..
hehe

snarnye byk gle nk citer,
byk byk byyyyk ssgt.

tp xpe la
nk cite ari tu dpt spent some time with my cuzzin Wani.
boy, pity her! i pray for ur strength dear cuzzin!
2 thn je lagi. lek2.
we exchanged stories, like usual.

then esok tu anta along balik.
guess wat.
i wear kain batik g giant!!!
hahahahhahahahahahaha

cuma kawan2 skola je yg tau cite penoh. nak tau? call le.
01*-4*5****
hahaha.

k ah. batteri nk abes. salam!
td petang practice poco2!

day out

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Salam..

smalam .. erh kelmarin kot.. ha, btolla. selasa.. ana bersama 3 org rakan tercinta, aliaa, bila, sama hafi hang out.

ktorang (ana n aliaa) tgu kat bus stop jap smentara tgu hafi n bila..then tetibe je ad budak kecik ni call..

"akak. adik nk ikut boleh?"

"......~_________~....... nyebok aaaa.. "

"alah.. nk ikut...boleh x?"

"haa.. ikut laa.. haiish.."

call abah lepas sume da ad, abah dtg.. tgk syabil pon pakai mengikut tema = hitam merah.

hahaha

pastuh ktorang tatau nk g ane..

ckp g pacific je la kan. hua hua hua.

kalo g sunway, buat penat jalan je. bukan leh beli ape. hahah .. da byk kali lak tu pegi.. mcm muak la plak. hak3.

nk tgk wayang, mak hafi x bgi.

so ktorang antara org first smpi.. xde org.. sume baru bukak kedai.

ktorang ronda2... tgk2 pintu2 kedai yg rapat terkunci... "-_-

then ktorang masuk popular..

gle lame drang spent kat ruang novel..

"skang da ramai eh org wat novel islamik."

"erm. buat mmg sebab nk berdakwah or sebab da jadi trend?"

"wallahualam."

then g naik atas. carik buku2 latihan.. (ye ar..xcaye?)

drng browse macam2.

pastu tgk ad 1 pembalut hadiah ni...

igt nk balut my almari la kan.. warna coklat, polka dots... waaa.. lawa.. leh amik  ni... sekali tgk harga.... |RM3| ape ke? see how people make business?? ya allah... berkualiti sgt la tuh.

i ended up buying nothing. nada. even my bro syabil bought buku2 bm, m3...

pastu ktorang g kedai jam..bila ckp jam dia da mati. great. mine n aliaa's still working, bila's n hafi's xdpt diselamatkan. haha. syabil da start wat latihan. asl rajin terlebih ntah. 0_o

jam warna biru. ktorang 4-4 org warna biru pnye jam. haha

then g makan. ppft. i spent money on eating. "-_-...ad akak kat situ. ish. geram je. xpe ah.

mse makan2 tu la time story mory ktorang. 

bila xmo cite sal kengkawan kat kisas, dia ckp..buat sakit hati je.. but aliaa said,

"let's trade. if u wanna know why charger cried..."

"woi!"-(me)

"hehe. ok, if u wanna know why she cried, what's the content of the greeting card i received, n what's new with hafi. u must trade one story to get one."

hahahhaha

then dia pon mula la cite...

pasal hantu2 kat kisas... she kinda got sixth sense. seram woah. paling seram pasal sorang akak yg nk qiam...

mse akk tu amik wudu', air yg kuar dari paip tu warna merah..............but dia still amik gak.....if it was me, i reckon i would run ..

then mse dia hampar sejadah, dia nmpk mayat2 keliling dia .

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... scaaaryy. but that akak still qiam... pastuh nmpk benda menjenguk dia mse tgh nk sujud kot...

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

bila said, that akak said it was just a mere test. kalo org lain, i believe lps tu trauma xnk qiam da.. so proud there's still someone like her.

then byk la dia citer...n we xchanged oso..

then tanya...

"apa yg menyakitkan hati sgt? ngan kengkawan kat sne?"

she was reluctant to say... but we finally know the reason.

b4 g pharmacy. aliaa carrik lip balm. bibir da kering thp gaban. 

then ktorang menggila kat pharmacy tu. heh. biarlah rahsia. wakakak.

pastu bila g beli cellphone charm.. oh. i lost my cell charm too. beli la skali.. dia beli yg bulu2.. n i was like, "bulu2???????"... tp last2 ana pon beli yg bulu2 gak. waakkaka.

haaa. b4 makan, ktorang ad g mcd, beli ice cream.. main suap menyuap.. HAFI'S ICE CREAM WAS HUUUUGEEE. ok, exagerrated. no, it was not huge, biasa je. tp tinggi. with green apple sauce.. aahh. yg lain sume beli choco. my bro, mentang2 abah bagi duit, beli ikut suka hati dia je, xtanya akak dia dulu pon...

pastu ktorang g kedai dvd..

carik kedai tu.

aliaa ckp.

"ha. tu king kong dvd."

"i was like, KING KONG? i thought HONG KONG"

"ehh.."

ahhahaha. ktorang glak ntah pa pe  je. nasib xde org. hahah

mmg xdpt dikawal. hahah. fun times fun timess.

syabil beli cd cina, champion..

tp pelik.. tanya plak.. "akak, leh beli x ni?"

patot ar. duit da abes. wakakak.

then bila ngah gila kat kawasan dvd korea...dgn hafi.. aliaa crik dvd english.. me? menggila kat kawasan korea gak. aakkakak

nak beli tu nk beli ni ..

last2..

"WOI.. BUY ALREADY!"

ktorang beli dvd since mak hafi xbg tgk wayang, pasang kat umah ana la kan..

pastuh, syabil tetap dgn "champion" (setelah kumenooolak rayuannya utk membli "terminator"..)... da nk siap bayar da tuh .. hafi beli "final destination 4".. bila, awak beli ape eh?

n aliaa.. ttiba je..GASPING FOR BREATH macam nmpk nikmat..

"SKY OF LOVE!"

errrk. hahahah. cite tu. dia ckp tgk iklan astro box office. but i have to pay for it, dia ckp kalo dia simpan mmg kompom ayahnya, Pakcik Don marah.

so. ktorang pon beli n gerak tgu mak aliaa. sume xsolat g nih.

syabil da tanya dah. 

pastuh naik kete mak aliaa. nyaris2 dilenyek lori. mak aliaa ckp "mentang2 dia besar...."

kalo mak aliaa x hon, mmg arwah la. ya allah.. alhamdulillah xjadi pa pe.

then g tesco..mak aliaa g beli barang, ktorang g solat. 

then balik.. :)

that's all.. gamba x blutuith lagi..

we did nothing much, but it was fun to gather. we dont need to spend money lavishly to define hanging out. no, just simple, n memorable.

luv u girls.

I MISS U ~~~

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Salam..

aniiiisss

ur making me missing moments with u guys!

how long has it been??

8-9 years... almost a decade!!!

i miss u guuuyyss

two of my closest friends, in fact, my two closest friends during my last  few years in KL

anis raihanah n tunku atiqah~~~~

n then...

ain bahirah, syawal, nureeeen, adilah nazneen, nik liyana, anhar, amirah, iqin aziz, deanna zulkifli, sh noor, hertina, farah amira, zulaiha, suraya, sofea, bibiiii..najihah aziz.. syatrah.. or was it natrah? illi syairah.. sarah..  ALL OF U GUYS SOME MOREE.. tooo many to list. waayy to many.

boys spe eh. xigt. hahaha. kjam. as far as i can remember, danial izzat (ketua darjah ntah baper tahun .. ahaha), shahiran, amir hamzah (kot) aidan (he made me remember how he called the teachers sampai skang.. "cigu cigu..." huahuah), hudzaifah, shazard, (muka2 sejenis)...muhammad, spe g spe g...

YA ALLAH.

TIME FLIES.

i miss the teachers somemore..

mse jah 1.... ustazah pendidikan islam ktorang. i cant recall her name, but she was young, tudung labuh.. igt lagi time kne duk kat lantai nk blaja camne nk tentukan da masuk waktu ke belum according to the bayang2....n cg hafizah fauzey, my standard 1 class teacher.. teacher dina......igt tce dina, igt DO A DEER A FEEMALE DEEERRR.... persembahan mse stand. 2... n then n then..

i miss the bilik muzik.. kipas warna warni...

ad byk alat musik i played that day...

n then i miss the kantin..

mse jah 1, sape dpt jawab, kuar awal.. i share my nasi with my friends...

mse jah 2, main tiang.... main lompat2 kat longkang mse pj....

i miss masuk umah antu ngan tk atiqah.. we were lining up 4 the entrance.. tgk org terjerit.. we were like.

"eleh.. itu pon nk takut.." lasttt22... hahahah

i miss going to anis's house blaja arab, lepak2... umah ain...mse xpndah bukit jaya lagi... main game macam2....as my bros pon g umah dia nk main ngan abg die..

i miss kak aida, pengawas pusat sumber.. she got lots of ghost stories to tell mse tunggu van abg jo sampai...mse ni naik 4 sesi pagi..... sesi petang, i miss the moments where we played in the evening depan BP sambil tunggu van... i miss the GILA MENUSUK hair gel yg abg someone named syaza, but we called her taza wore.. i miss the craziness in abg jo's van..

i miss us playing bicycle tetengah malam... i miss cycling the whole bukit antarabgsa with my friends. i miss going to the madrasah.. i miss ustaz ibrahim, i miss ustazah solehah, i miss ustz mad saleh, i miss ustazah rashadah, i miss everyone.

i miss the time where i hafta wake very early in the morning sbb tkt van tinggal.. i miss kak long, bangah, ajim.. neighbour yg mcm adik-bradik. i miss the chaos we did together; as one big "siblings". 

i miss this one part, every time masuk akhir tahun, everyone like, bringing toys to play with.. barbie..congkak.. uno cards... i even remember where i destroyed hertina's barbie doll pnye skirt to make it look like a hawaiian skirt. hahaha. sori her!...i remember combing adilah's barbie's hair... sampai gugur2 rambut kawan tu. ahha.

i miss us playing batu seremban.. my mum spent sampai kul 2 pagi just nk jahit 5 pieces of batu seremban for us to play.. thank u mak.  

i miss the moments where we go n pray together. sll g ngan tk atiqah.. even practiced sujud sahwi right after blaja.. THE WRONG WAY. ahahahah. suka2 hati je sujud 3-4 kali, bace tahiyat ntah bape kli sbb nk wat sujud sahwi... ahahahaha. 

i miss the surau.. 

i miss gayut2 with them. 

i miss the part where i had to say goodbye.. tukar2 alamat...no tel.....

i miss tulis2 surat...

i miss ALLLLL.

im missing every single moment ive spent with my friends. 

waaaa. sedih nye. 

do they miss me?

HUAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

hahha

friends apart.

Monday, June 1, 2009

Salam..Susah x?Susah x nak berubah?Susah x nak berubah jadi baik?Susah lagi nk ubah org.

ana bukanlah makhluk Allah yg paling baik kat dunia ni..

tpi ana bukanlah kejam.. wlopon ramai kawan2 ckp "charger kejam". ok ok. kejam la sikit.  wakaka

it's been a while since "yesterday"...

ntah. hidup x selalunya indah, langit x selalu cerah....

ana nk ckp..ana rse Allah da bg satu amanah besar dan ana xberjaya menjaga amanah tersebut. sedih owh..

ana bukanlah bertujuan nk meddle in her life, ana bukanlah bertujuan nk kongkong dia, tp tu la kan..

bila dah ana rasa dia tanggungjawab ana, ana rasa tu tugas ana.

ana bukannye nk halang dia buat itu ini.. ana risau.. tengok keadaan dia sekarang. ya Allah.. mungkin selama ni ana terlepas pandang, tersilap langkah, terlajak bicara sampai jadi cam ni...

parents dia pon mcm da bg kpercayaan utk ana jaga anak drang... but then what happens? 

did i leave her? or did she leave me?

i tried to help her, even if not for her to be better, at least not worse. 

i love her, n i dont want her to slip away. i love her but i dont want her to be sad because i wasnt there for her.

i might be over protective

"but she seems happy." said a friend of mine.

"happy? jgn menyesal kemudian sudah..."

i talk as if i care nothing more. but, once she was in trouble, i'll be the one thinking of solutions, non stop, 24-7, making my friends annoyed ... once problems solved, there she goes again. problems come, hi. we meet again. (it rhymes~ haha)

YA ALLAH.

u feel like u've sacrified everything, but it appears nothing. 

i just wanna hold her hands and stop her from jumping down the cliff. but if she feels like she is already occupied with safety features, with lots of friends to jump together and laugh ha ha ha in the air, then fine. go. do as u wish. but when something bad happens, if the water's too deep and u are drowning, dont tell me i didnt stop u. just call me n i'll be there. that's my promise. but u didnt call me n continue leaving gaps. continue leaving me in the dark, questioning...leaving me one way, o Allah please land her safely.jump all u want. u got ur friends.

hold still mr. stickytape.

jiwang je. asal nta? haha. sje nk citer, bukan ad org nk bce pon ann. hahaha

 
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