Ziarah

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Of name, arabic name.

Tuesday, December 25, 2012

Assalamualaikum.

So I told you I have a studiomate from Egypt.

When I introduced my name to her, she went "Syaza? Beautiful name. :)"

Masa sembang2 sambil tunggu crit session untuk projek kedua kalau tak silap,
kak Jiha tanya beliau, pelik tak dengar nama-nama kitorang. You know, macam kitalah. Kalau orang tu nama memang Melayu sungguh.

"Melur"
"Cempaka"

bila nama-nama orang Melayu Islam banyak dalam Bahasa Arab, pelik tak bila nak panggil orang?
Kak Jihah tanya, "Isn't it weird, you call me, "Najihah, Najihah come here" like "Success, success, come here!"
She said no..

I love my name. Cahaya Keharuman Agama. but then my Arabic ustazah pernah cakap my name is not arabic. Sebab tak de 3 huruf asal, macam perkataan2 arab yang lain. T.T Sedih tahu tak.

So I asked her,
"What about me? Syaza?"
"Oh, your name? It's very popular in my country. Syaza.. it means.. beautiful smell, fragrance.."

bayangkan. berbunga2 hati ai dengar yu know. hahaha.
sejak hari tu baru yakin dengan maksud nama ni. tsk. tsk.

"Oh, I even considered naming my baby girl "Syaza".." (She's 6month pregnannnnt~~~~)

*terbang di awangan*


source

***

Portfolio Day hari tu, I came slightly earlier than the rest, masa nak naik lif tu, there was this veeeery beautiful lady, tangan dia sangat penuh.. berat-berat pulak tu dia bawak. Since ada masa lagi, offer lah nk bawak sampai ke kelas dia..

Memandangkan hari tu memang portfolio day untuk semua kos kecuali architecture, I was wondering if she was preparing food for jamuan lepas portfolio and deliberation jugak, so we started talking

"What's your name..?"
"Syaza.." :)
"I'm Samar.."
"Are you in your second, third, forth year here?" tetiba terfikir ntah-ntah lecturer..
"Oh. no, no. I'm in CELPAD, i'm taking English.." *Seriously baru tahu kat KAED ada kelas CELPAD. luls. yada yada..

few moments lepas tu, masa nak cross dari satu blok to the next, beliau tanya lagi..
"So, Syaza is an arabic name, right?"
"Yes, it is." :D
"So you understand the meaning?"
"I do.. it means, fragrance, isn't it?"
"Yes it is. You have such a beautiful name.." aaaah she's so pretty i tell you. sangat cantik. Aina saksi jumpa aina dekat lif.

Begitulah kisahnya.

Nama cantik tak guna kalau perangai buruk.

Astaghfirullahalazim.

Currently dalam fasa final examination, mohon doa semuanya. :)
JZKK
_parfum

Sunday, December 23, 2012

Lemahnya.
Cepatnya jatuh.
Lekaslah buat pilihan.

To the lovelies.

Monday, December 3, 2012

Assalamualaikum.

Had a call from a friend.




When those around you are feeling down and you don't know what to do..




I know things are getting tougher these days.

Sometimes we feel like giving up. 
Sometimes we feel like fate isn't on our side.
We question, are we really living our dream?
Are we really meant to be here and not there?

"Cause sometimes fate and your dreams will collide.."

It feels such a bliss knowing this semester is ending, but hey, this is just the beginning. 

I know at times like these a physical help would do like, HUGE HUGE favour, instead of just giving advices. You know, that 'cakap senanglah' ..
Not being in your shoes makes it even harder for me to lend a hand, or even both of mine. Kalau boleh nak bagi kaki kaki sekali. 

Remember we talked about this lots of time.
Remember that verse?

2:286

Let us not give up hope. Never..
Feel the heartbeat? It's beating for reasons. 
Look around you. We're here not for nothing. 

There's something planned.
Something big.
By The Best of planners.

Hold on tight, keep the faith no matter what happens.
Stay cool, calm and collected. Allah is always there. Always.

And at times like this, ask ourselves how far do we really believe in this?

Beauty-full.

Saturday, November 24, 2012


Dah jumpa lagu yg dorg guna utk montage masa heroes conference hari tu! Ya Allah.. sedap sangat. 

Bila kita kenal betapa hebatnya peribadi Rasulullah, rs malu.. why am I not following his lifestyle fully?
Allahu allah. Ini baru tau sikit. Baru dengar cerita2 macam gini2 je.. 

Dr Spahic Omer selalu cerita pasal zaman nabi dulu.
Antaranya,

" ...Indeed, that [behavior] was troubling the Prophet, and he is shy of [dismissing] you. But Allah is not shy of the truth..." (33:53)

Dr Spahic ckp, "He was too nice, too kind that Allah had to interfere.."

And ada kisah sorg yg tarik kolar Rasulullah dari belakang, pusingkan Rasulullah supaya menghadap dia, bayangkan sampai berbekas leher kena tarik... and org tu ckp "Teach me too"... Rasulullah smiled n said "Okay.." kalau kita sekarang orang buat mcm tu? dah naik penumbuk agaknya.

Kisah rasulullah belai pokok yang menangis bila org buatkan minbar supaya rasulullah tak penat berdiri masa bagi khutbah.... sebab dulu sebelum ada minbar, rasulullah selalu bersandar dekat dia sambil bagi khutbah... :')

Man of the best akhlaq. Akhlaq of the Quran.


لا إله إلا الله
محمد رسول لله
عليه صلاة الله
وآله والأحباء

لا إله إلا الله
محمد رسول لله
عليه صلاة الله
وآله والأحباء

Shine your mercy like the sun,
And be gracious as the earth,
Let your kindness come like rain,
That cares not whom it falls upon.

And let ocean-deep your wisdom be,
Your heart a lantern spreading peace,
Give yourself in love of Him,
Be like Al-Habib.

And in your deepest need and in your deepest grief,
Call on Him in humility,
Place your trust in the One, to whom creation turns,
You’ll find redemption and find peace

لا إله إلا الله
محمد رسول لله
عليه صلاة الله
وآله والأحباء

Be a blazing fire of truth,
Be his soothing bond of peace,
With the light of your sincerity,
Break the clouds of tyranny.

Let your faith be like a blessed tree,
Give your shades to all who seek,
May your roots run through and deep,
Take your strength from Al Habib.

يا نبي سلام عليك
يا رسول سلام عليك
يا حبيب سلام عليك
صلوات الله عليك

And all the certainty will bring tranquillity,
Contentment with Allah’s decree,
Give thanks for all that comes,
Be patient and know that, someday you will return to Him.

لا إله إلا الله
محمد رسول لله
عليه صلاة الله
وآله والأحباء

Hold fast to the company,
of the folk of certainty,
Through their gaze and through your love for them,
May you be as one of them,

Be as gentle as the whispering breeze,
Spread solace to the world we’re in,
Let your heart and soul be mirror clear,
Give life and love to Al-Habib.

يا نبي سلام عليك
يا رسول سلام عليك
يا حبيب سلام عليك
صلوات الله عليك

And stand before Allah like nothing else exists,
And worship Him like you are seen,
Be with all creation in all your deeds and words,
As though you have no self to please.

لا إله إلا الله
محمد رسول لله
عليه صلاة الله
وآله والأحباء

Yet when you master all of these,
Forget not your neediness,
Were it not for Allah’s grace,
None of this can be achieved.

So be humble as the lowly earth,
That all creatures walk upon,
Be the slave of the Most Merciful,
Take your light from Al-Habib.

So shine your mercy like the sun,
Send your light across the earth,
Let your kindness flow like rivers,
Quench the thirst of all who come.

And let mountain-strong your spirit be,
Let your heart melt out of love for Him,
Take the road that leads to Him,
May you be with Al-Habib.

يا نبي سلام عليك
يا رسول سلام عليك
يا حبيب سلام عليك
صلوات الله عليك

يا نبي سلام عليك
يا رسول سلام عليك
يا حبيب سلام عليك
صلوات الله عليك

لا إله إلا الله
محمد رسول لله
عليه صلاة الله
وآله والأحباء

لا إله إلا الله
محمد رسول لله
عليه صلاة الله
وآله والأحباء

May we follow his footsteps.
"Syaza tengok cerita perang-perang?"
"Tak minat sangat.. Perang, lawan.."
"Kenapa?"
"I don't like negativity."

And yes,
In movies, you know things will end.
I couldn't imagine the sufferings they are having there.
For real.
Where nothing is staged.

Tak perlu resepi nk bancuh darah.
Tak perlu PVA glue n kitchen roll to fake a wound
macam Neil Buchanan ajar dalam Arts Attack.

Semuanya realiti.

Allah.
I'm weak.
I couldn't even take care of my own self.
Orang sibuk berbicara hal ummah,
aku sibuk risaukan benda-benda remeh.

Wake up, Syaza.

Wednesday, November 21, 2012

someone told me not to write about other people.
eh i just did.

Monday, November 12, 2012

Hati,
Bila nak jadi baik?
Senyap.

Hati, 
Bila nak bersih suci?
Diam.

Hati, 
Jangan mengeras.
Echo.

Hati..?
Please tell me you're there.



Fighttilltheend.

Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Rape attempt nearby KAED Musolla. :O Baru je cakap boleh tidur dekat musolla kalau nak stay dekat KAED. Takbolehlah nampaknya. 11 malam takde sape boleh tinggal dkt bangunan KAED. Semua mesti balik mahallah by 12, katanya. So I guess I won't be having any more experience of pulling an all-nighter in a studio.. Guess that will make my mahallah KC sudio level 3 staying up experience even more meaningful :) Anyhow, do pray for the sister's well-being. And us too. (Rasa bersalah sbb mcm mencurigakan sebenarnya.... abaikan. doakan yg terbaik.)

Tomato 2.0 - The awaited!

Friday, October 26, 2012




btw, please watch Tomato 1.0 jugakk. hehe


http://madmie-photography.blogspot.com/2012/10/short-film-tomato-20.html 

Lepas baca update dkt blog tu ckp ada Tomato 2.0 mmg waiting for it.

Ini awesome ya Allah.

23:99
23:100
[For such is the state of the disbelievers], until, when death comes to one of them, he says, "My Lord, send me back (99)
That I might do righteousness in that which I left behind." No! It is only a word he is saying; and behind them is a barrier until the Day they are resurrected. (100)

To have people around you who always remind and ask for reminders in order for us to keep reminding one another, is a bless.

Ya Allah, may we be among those yang menggunakan kepakaran masing-masing untuk ummah.

p/s: so Pijan razeif became the first Sixtens to be in such production. Impian tercapai. lulz. :P

The best day of the year.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Assalamualaikum. So Allah hides the best night of the year, but He lets the best day of the year known! Don't miss it !

tulisan masih buruk, but at least it's readable :P
Not that hard, no? :)

it's Eid again, everyone! :)

Kullu am wa nahnu bikhoir :D:D

p/s: Jangan terlebih rajin puasa on the following days - 10,11,12,13... adalah hari2 yg diharamkan berpuasa, just in case we forgot :)

As the eyes settle down.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012





"Umi, what are the things in this world that make you go 'Subhanallah'?"
"Look at the sun setting, can you feel it, honey?"
"Yes, umi. It feels.. nice.. Oh, and the waves too, umi."

Both go "Subhanallah."

"Those are some of it. But Umar, you know something that can make me go 'Subhanallah', 'Masha-Allah',  'La ila ha illallah', 'Astaghfirullah'; all at once?"
"No, Umi. Tell me!"
"It's you."

*pasang lagu Your Mother by Yusuf Islam and kids


mother and child by krrow

25:74
Al-Quran 25:74

of Kacang Ipoh and Built Environment

Walks to the toilet nak pinkan jubah yang labuh sangat.

Dalam toilet, ada sorang makcik, Indian, baru lepas keluar toilet. Dia senyum. Tak sure lah senyum lega ke apa, eh abaikan. Agagag.
No lah, I'm sure itu satu lemparan senyuman ikhlas dari lubuk hati untuk memulakan bicara dengan seorang stranger.
Senyum balik.

Selesai pinkan jubah, sekarang pinkan tudung...moh le gera..k..

"Adik kerja sini?" Masa tu ada Chocolate and Pastry Fair dekat KAED Gallery...
"Eh tak, saya student lagi.." Stop.
"I jual kacang-kacang dekat sini.."
"Ohh. Dekat sini, dekat mana?"
"Luar sana.. Tepi-tepi sana.. Tapi sedihlah.. I datang dari Ipoh, tapi takde orang nak beli.."
Tak tahu nak respon apa. Kesian, seriously. "Ohh jauhnya datang dari Ipoh... Tepi-tepi? Orang tak perasan kot.."

krik krik krik. 



"Adik belajar sini, ambil apa?"
"Saya student kulliyyah ni je.." Senyum je, nak buat apa lagi.
"You study Islam ? Pengajian Islam?" Lupa, I said KULLIYYAH. -.-
"Tak.. Er.." Nak jawab student kulliyyah Architecture and Environmental Design, Applied Arts and Design panjang sangat, "Dalam bidang ni jugak, architecture.." In fact I'm planning to do Interior Archi, so yeah, I guess that will do.

Muka makcik tu terkejut. As expected. But then she smiled.
And I smiled back, minta diri, off we go to STABAZ yang jauh di hujung alam.

Itu satu cerita. Now keep that aside.

Plan lepas STABAZ nak gi Dr Zakir Naik's talk dekat PWTC... (btw, STABAZ jauh gila. Lalu AIKOL, senyaaaap sunyiii je. I thought budak Law bising2 belaka? Senyaaaaaap je ghupe kulliyyahnya. Gelapp. Gelita.. Hahah. hari tu semua gi STABAZ kot, bangunan AIKOL takde orang, mungkin)

Memang nak pergi sangat sangat ni. Daripada the previous one before this one lagi. Tapi masa tu semua busy. So macam, yg dekat PWTC ni jelah semua orang macam ada masa sikit.

Lupa nak inform dekat mak, ingat nak inform awal pagi lagi. masa on the way g LRT baru bagitau. Then mak ckp..
"Ok. Tak jadilah nak singgah UIA jap malam ni. Esok jelah.."
Now wait. Nooo. Tak boleh jadi. The whole family is coming, mesti patah balik. mesti..! Esoknya pulak kelas dari pukul 9-4, mesti patah balik. tak boleh tunggu esok! (tengah taknak mengaku rindu, oh well, you got me :P) Turun sampai LRT, naik teksi patah balik sorang-sorang. Yang lain gerak g PWTC.

And so I didnt go to the talk.

I keep telling myself, if it is meant to be, then it is meant to be. If it's not, then it's not. As simple as that. And who controls this? And who has the ultimate knowledge and justification of why these things are allowed to happen? Allah . Believe in Him. Believe in His timing, believe in His plans.

I didn't get to go to the talk but I get to spend some time with my whole family tolak Along. Bersempit dalam kereta sebab Yan ajak keluar gi Giant, Adik sat on my lap.. of which I will not be able to let him do that again unless he slims down as he gets older lulz.

Aaaanyway, now back to the first one. I've encountered a few similar situations. 
Different reactions. Makcik tadi tu kira antara pleasant ones jugak lah.. daripada yang jawab
"uui.. meremang bulu roma dengar art-art ni.." yg jenis mmg pantang dengar seni-seni ni..
I even heard seniors from a particular tahfiz centre memang tak galakkan juniors dia amek bidang ni. 

Or even those yg mmg dalam bidang ni tapi mcm tak yakin,
"I tengok stok-stok assalamualaikum wbt je ni..."

Sekali sekala bolehlah nk wat lek wat cool tapi to a certain extent, I find it disturbing.

ilmu Allah ni luas, terpulang pada kita yang nak meneroka, learn from geniuses of the field that we're in, manipulate or even innovate it to benefit the ummah, and most importantly, take back what was once ours. . Tak payah cerita panjang bab ni, semua orang tau. Cuma kena ingatkan.

My QSBE (Quran Sunnah and Built Environment) lecturer, Dr Spahic Omer, said (paraphrase) "Islam is the way of life, Islam is life. And when there's life, there's built environment. And what is built environment? Built environment is the framework of life..." "This environment is a fertile ground for evil doings - corruption/bribery, arrogance, etc. How do you avoid this? With, Taqwa. When one perceives architecture as a mean to serve God, he remembers that he will always be, number one, servant of God. Quran and Sunnah stop someone from evil.." Awesome lecturer by the way, rasa macam pergi international talk every week. Rasa macam masuk kelas Quotes and Sayings.. :P

Anyway, do you know why is this happening?
Cuz we're being judgmental. We judge people from their appearance and put them into specified fields yg kita dah kategorikan dalam minda kita. Got what I mean?
Man, what's up with that attitude?

Nak membebel pasal judgmental dah masuk satu bab lain. Mungkin perlukan buku berjilid. No, wait. Tak perlu sebenarnya.. kalau semua orang faham yang membezakan kita cuma taqwa.

Dang. Banyak membebel kebelakangan ni. I need to regain my calmness. Hahah.

Friday, October 19, 2012

To be happy when they are, is a must.

To be happy when they aren't...
...
.
.



Alhamdulillah 'ala kulli hal.



Waiting to board. Hello, home. :)

Terbanyak cakap.

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Assalamualaikum.
So I was scrolling the IIUM Online group dkt facebook, wat relaks2 macam xde keje padahal ada sebongkah kayu nak diukir....
Jarang sebenarnya nak tgk group ni tp terasa nak bukak pulak pagi ni, and I found this: 

Kalau tak silap, akak nilah salah sorg wakil KAED yg menang election hari tu, being the only sister.
And so I read the comments, as usual..

Banyak tips and teguran no? Alhamdulillah.. :)

Back in CFS, I used to do my work dekat studio mahallah, which is free from the brothers maka aksi2 kami buat kerja dan tidur juga freestyle. So it wasn't really a problem back then kalau nk stay up. But since kat sini takde studio dkt mahallah, nak tak nak, some work, you will really need to use the studio and therefore will have to go to KAED.

So far I haven't had the need to stay dkt studio, but knowing the nature of the course, I know time like this will come sooner or later. My friends who are taking Architecture and QS pun, dah mula buat kerja dkt studio sampai pukul 2-3, 4-5 pagi.. oh, even some from my course pun prefer to do their work at the studio as well sebenarnya.

Sometimes bukan tak boleh nak buat kerja kat bilik, but some people need company to make sure they didnt fall asleep. Trust me, forcing yourself to stay up doing work while your room mates are sleeping, and knowing that your bed is just right next to you, is not easy, especially when you hadn't had any sleep at all for the past hours..

Anyway, nak terhadkan masa tak lebih pukul 12, lepas tu balik mahallah, would be quite hard I suppose, especially when you need to use the studio tables and stuffs like that.

The part mintak brothers temankan tu, serious segan sebenarnya. Plus, they need to do their work too. Tapi memandangkan agak bahayalah UIA ni dgn macam2 kes yg dengar baru2 ni, takboleh nk buat apalah. Kalau tak nak diteman jugak, er, stay je lah dkt KAED sampai subuh~ kot?
Oh and jangan gerak sorang-sorang. notetoself.

The thing is you need to stay up and awake, but you need some rest at times. Tak terfikir pulak pasal tidur dkt surau KAED. Betul jugak kan..
Tapi kalau semua tido situ pun tak boleh jadi jugak kan. In my studio, we got one room which was originally bilik stor, lepas gotong royong hari tu, got some space (and the sisters thought of buying tikar ke apa kan, selesalah sikit.) Which is, quite cool. We can even pray kat dalam tu.. toilet pun sebelah studio je....... (tapi studio panjang so sebelah tu takdelah dekat mana, but, dekatlah jugak. :P)
 
Ayu said in their studio, the seniors even made a compartment (was it?) for the sisters to rehat-rehat.

Sedih kan hidup ktorang? HAHAHAH. ok abaikan.

Jihad! Jihad!
:D

***

"Ramai orang pakai niqab kan , sekarang..?"
Jeling. "dan...?" Sinis.
".. tapikan, macam trend pulak.."
"kan..?" Senyum. Expected.

but who are we to judge people's intention..?

Dulu hari kantin sekolah, buat tema Souq Al-Arabiyyah. Pasar Arab.
And the girls were encouraged to wear niqab. I tried, for one whole day. Yelah, bila lagi kan..
I felt, yes, protected.
Macam lebih senang berurusan dengan orang, I mean, people appreciate your communication skill more.
Dan, kurang segan untuk bercakap dengan lelaki.

"The less you reveal, the more people can wonder.."

So anyway, last Friday, we went to the workshop for our second project. (Workshops bukak masa office hour je, kalau bukak sampai malam I bet everyone would stay there.)

We need to wear the mask as it was going to be very dusty.. veerry dusty. Banyak kali jugaklah kena bukak nak amek nafas n lap peluh. -.-
And I tell myself, "If this is how it's like, I can never be a niqabi."

Aalaa, my studio-mate from Egypt, (married and pregnant hikhik) said so too. Lebih kurang: "I can never wear a niqab. Back in Egypt, I used to wear it once because everyone else there is wearing it..I don't think I can stand wearing it.. " *Takes off her mask* "Take a breath..!" *Laughs*

Salutations to the niqabis! .. and the doctors, dentists, ehh..

Oh and when I was using the router, I didn't wear the workshop goggle. So another studio-mate of mine, Hakim gave me the goggle and I put it on. Seconds after, tak sempat nak on balik mesin tu, I took it off. "Tak nampak?"
"Tak!"
"Pakai lah dua-dua. Aku pakai dua-dua jugak tadi."
"Bukan tak nampak apa, WAP!"
hahah. Sape pakai spek mesti faham.
Lepas guna mesin tu memang macam mandi debu lah.
Angkat tangan nak lap peluh, and the dust on my sleeves masuk mata. Seronoknya.

Oh and and,
Aa tengah tunggu kayu dia kena potong dekat bandsaw and our lecturer, brother Ismail nak tunjuk kat org lain yg dorg boleh buat mcm Aa to make things easier. But he forgot her name...
"Tu, macam yg siapa tu buat, siapa nama dia?"
"Kat band?"
"Kak Ben?"
"Eh tak, yang dekat bandsaw tu ke?"
"Ohh. Amboi kau, aku ingat, sekolah agama panggil kak ben, kak ben.."
and I was like, brother, you don't know Irshadians and nicknames. I wonder how would it be like kalau brother tau what people call me. hahaha.

***
Masa study circle II hari tu, ada mass lecture and it was about Justice. Gulsum abla (Kak Gulsum, she is my naqibah, from Turkey) was very disappointed when we we're not being that active in the class. So she said "Those who are in my class, please raise your hands." Pastu kenalah respon kan dkt soalan tu..
"What do you think of when you see the word Justice.." my study circle mate, a senior, talks about being justice to the knife, using it to cut meat and not to hammer a nail. Fatma abla turned to our side and said "I saw someone else raising their hands over here."
Ah sudah.
Gave my opinion on Justice, how justice doesn't really have to mean equal in quantity, and she asked
"What do you do, sister?"
"I'm doing applied arts and design.."
"Sorry?"
"I'm from KAED.."
"Ohh. I thought you're doing social sciences."
:)

Oh and Qila asked Sis Gulsum if she ever gets mad. And she said, rarely.
So we asked why, she answered it with a poem.
"I used to be really mad at someone until I read a poem, about love.."
"Say it in Turkish.."
"Would you understand?" *Speaks in Turkish*
Ternganga. HAHAHA. So she translated the poem and basically it says, don't waste your time hating people as you may not realise  how time flies, and you'll regret not loving them when you had the time.
***
Usrah hari tu, buat dekat bilik nawal n syu. And tetiba masuk pasal Dengan Lafaz Bismillah. One of them found out that the main story of Ji is actually based on her story. and I got hit. hahahaha.

Till then.
Terbanyak cakaplah pulak . Back to work .

Biasan.

Monday, October 1, 2012

***
Perbualan dekat CFS dulu, lebih kurang,
"Macam mana kalau, satu hari nanti, dekat main campus, korang nampak kita makan berdua-duaan, duduk bertentang dengan lelaki?"
Diam.
"Kitorang husnudzhon lelaki tu abang awak...?"
"Macam mana kalau, dia tu memang korang semua kenal, memang dari batch kita..?"
"Er.. Atas urusan kerja, projek..?"
"Kalau selalu sangat..?"
"Husband awak? Dah nak kawen kan .. hahaha."
"Serious ni.." Diam lagi. "Doa, please? Mohon dijauhkan.."
"InsyaAllah, will do. Will do."

To be honest, I don't know.
I don't.
I can't even imagine.


***
"Tak tahulah kenapa, tapi saya rasa saya makin jahat owh.."
"Pernah tak dengar orang cakap, "Aku rasa aku makin solehah lah.."?"
Ketawa.
"I've read somewhere, kalau kita nak berubah, memang akan ada perasaan kita ni jahat, belum cukup baik. Kira macam reminder lah, for us to strive and be better."

***
"If someday something happens, please jangan give up tegur kita. Walau macam mana pun reaksi kita masa korang tegur tu. Please, jangan tinggal."
"Same here.."
***
"Korang, bersyukur tahu, ada kawan-kawan macam ni?"

***
SMS masuk.
"...Sure, I would LOVE to meet you guys tp like you always said, as long as the relation lives in the doa, our friendship will last abadan abada. That's what I'm holding on to.. =)"
***

Wednesday, September 26, 2012


Cause I'm leaving, on a jet plane.
I don't know when I'll be back again.
Oh babe, I hate to go.
But I'm leaving, on a jet plane.

The moment.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

Assalamualaikum.

Lately I''ve been thinking, there was indeed, one moment where I turned to be someone different.
One moment.
Of which, I still, until now, am not sure which moment it was.

I became someone, I wasn't.
I changed. (and I sure hope it was for the better.)

...

Now leave that aside..

I am a very selekeh person, I am aware of that. Tak pernah berlama-lamaan dekat cermin nk betulkan awning tudung and such. All I know is, sarung tudung, make sure xde rambut terkeluar and serkup tak senget. Then I'm done. Few minutes kemas, as the day goes by mmg... tak yah cakap lah.

Kalau silang tudung pagi2, tak sampai tengahari, tudung mesti dah di-pin straight dari atas sampai bawah balik. Takde dah silang-silang bagai. And yes, tak lipat tudung. It won't last.

A good friend of mine, good friend(s) sebenarnya, selalu suruh lipat tudung. Sejak sekolah menengah lagi kawan2 suruh lipat. hehs. (masa sekolah rendah tak, sekolah rendah pengemas, sikit. haha.)

Masa dinner, closing ceremony kaedfest hari tu, Mira came to me and tolong lipatkan.
"Chaje... cubalah lipat sikit tudung.. barulah comel.."
"Haish, sebab tu la kte tak lipat. takut comel sangat.." (excuse)

"Ha! kan comel macam tu! Lipatlah tudung tu! ni, selekeh je. Orang Islam kena kemas..!"

Sentap.
I knew, but I never actually cared.

not me.

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

saya bukan anak orang kaya-kaya.

setiap sen bertukar milik,
terbayang setiap saat abah dan mak membanting tulang..
sakit-sakit sendi, bersengkang mata.

even if I earned my own money,
there are, still, a lot of things I should be spending on,

instead of .. nonsense.

*Pandang portfolio bag, designer tool box..

Allahu ya Allah, moga ada keberkataan dan manfaat pada ummah.

Terharu.

Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Assalamualaikum.
Serious terharu dengan respon. seriously.

Memandangkan agak malu nk share public dkt profile sendiri, I personally sent a message, FB inbox dkt a few friends (lulz including my mum) .. to invite (haha) them nk suh jadi proofreader hahaha. and they're being too nice with the comments! :')

Serius terharu. I didnt know it can touch hearts smpi mcm tu skali.. *lap air mata, sorok muka, mana cool nangis2 dpn public. (note: Allah jugak yg pgg hati2 kita,this short story kira wasilah only..)

Now,
Ada yang ckp, "nak jugak ending mcm dlm cite ni. So, perlu ke ikut ..?"
The answer is, sebenarnya xperlu jadi macam dalam cerita ni.
Ni cerita rekaan semata-mata.. well, a compilation of true stories made fictional and it can be true.
Do YOUR istikharah, Allah will attend to His servants personally. Allah pgg each and everyone punya love story, tailor-made setiap sorang. Xperlu ikut siapa-siapa, asalkan hidup kita ada guide dr alquran n assunnah, al iz well.

"sambungg!!" Hahaha. I dont think so, buat masa sekarang... I don't plan to make it longer. Penat weyh tulis dgn bahasa 'agak' tersusun. lulz. sebenarnya igt nk tulis standard, dlm 4-5 muka surat je, xperasan dia terpanjang smpi 20muka (lps ubah setting, jd 14 muka, my standard panjang would be 2-3 pages). hehs.
plus i don't write things based on my own experiences like some people do with their karya, so i can't really write stuffs laju macam air.. ahhaa. i would normally write without knowing the ending. ye, mcm tu la perangai saya masa buat projek. buat je, gunting tampal potong lekat sampai rasa dah puas hati, time's up, submit. you don't trust me, got saksi ramai. :3

"tulis la lagi cerita2 macam ni..."
hehs. saya perasan, i normally write masa zaman2 UPSR, PMR, masa SPM, masa nk masuk Degree.
you might have to wait until graduate u kot, for another compilation of true stories , then kalau ada idea cmne nk blend baru jalan. haha.
sebenarnya i write in school magazine almost every year kot, cuma i didn't put my name. cuma tahun 2010 je tce jamie gi letak jugak nama. -.- but even when my name's not there, my friends still know it's mine. so like, yeah.
i didnt put name sbb malu tu satu, but then i realised, karya aku, akauntabiliti aku. my work, my responsibility. i am fulllly responsible for what i write. people can correct my mistake when they know how to contact the author. so, nak tak nak terpaksa la tebalkan muka kan. saya pemalu, percayalah. i don't like it when people read them and look at me, "org macam ni tulis cerita macam ni?" the look, the stares, the smirks, gulp.

i would like to thank every single one yg dah baca, download, share, komen, kritik (aina siap ANALISIS plot dr permulaan, klimaks, peleraian, gaya bahasa lagi!) i iz blessed, alhamdulillah with ohsem people around me! :') Moga bermanfaat, moga ada sahamnya.

Another new life is about to begin, mohon doa semuanya. :)

Cerpen: Dengan Lafaz Bismillah...

Saturday, September 1, 2012

Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah.
In about 24 Hours, I've finished a cerpen thanks to those yg sudi menjadi antara pembaca pertama utk penambahbaikan, :P appreciated, really. thank you soo much!
Sekali org komen, sekali edit (berkali2 jugak sbnrnya), tp save kat satu file je...So setiap orang dapat version yg berbeza.. :D But this is the result after its final edit, insyaAllah.

Note:
You, you and you may find a bit of you guys in this. *List of those involved secara x langsung, tengah menari2 kat otak.


Oh well,
Long story made short, happy reading, 'Dengan Lafaz Bismillah..' *get it get it?

Moga bermanfaat.

I have stopped writing , like, serious stuff we're talking here, for sooo long.. so don't really mind the grammar,tatabahasa au nahu mistakes :D and I'm afraid it's gonna be another long yield as Degree studies are starting soon.
See you soon, insyaAllah. Mohon doa.

update: So I  found out ramai orang masuk blog ni, searching for "Dengan Lafaz Bismillah by Aisyah Shakirah" luls. I guess because I did post it in #TeamKhemah FB group.. :D Oh well, hope it benefits, still, regardless of the author. :)

Dengan Lafaz Bismillah... (Preview)

Friday, August 31, 2012

Assalamualaikum.

So out of the blue, I made a cerpen semalam. But I need a comment or two before publishing it. So, is there anybody out there willing to somewhat be among the first to read it?

Preview:
It's............ a story about friendship, and love.
Cheh I don't know what came into me. Blergh. Hahahaa.

if you're interested, tell me yeah and I'll email it, Facebook, Twitter ..

Thanks!

update:
 It's out! Click to read, and you can always send me feedback :)
http://diyanahp0nb0leh.blogspot.com/2012/09/dengan-lafaz-bismillah.html

Thursday, August 16, 2012


#TeamKhemah by @AisyahShakirah (update2)

Monday, August 13, 2012

Assalamualaikum. So our young muslimah vlogger and iluvislam cartoonist, Aisyah Shakirah came up with this Khemah Theory which is accepted dearly by other young muslimat! some are even inspired to wear tudung labuh, alhamdulillah.
For those of you who do not know, you may want to check her vlog "Yes, We Wear Head Tents"

Someone, nama Adibah kalau xsilap, created a group called #TeamKhemah on facebook and so basically people are sharing pasal aurat, peribadi muslimah semua tu la kan. So I shared my button design utk souq arabiy hari tu (2010) since it got something to do with muslimah and modesty. Somehow people thought it was for the group and went "nak!!" "nak beli!" "bila nk jual?" and I was like, waaa i didnt mean to promote the button badges! they're all sold out.. so i felt guilty and said, i can try and design one (or more perhaps) for the group since i got some free time right now.

Lepas bincang2 sikit dengan aisyah semalam, this is the result :
It is a very simple and quick one. oh ! n masa buat ni, I just discovered a new function (lama je function ni, baru tahu guna sbb terklik. hahah)
It may or may not be final, though. And maybe if i got some other ideas , more designs are to come, insyaAllah. but so far, alhamdulillah orang boleh terima. i was so nervous to know their reactions tahu tak. i mean, suka2 hati je tawar nk tolong design. ahaha.

I wanted to do doodle version as well, but I believe Aisyah is having something in her mind, so tgh tgu lah.. and rasanya kalau guna doodle Aisyah it'll have that signature worth as people know her for her doodles as well.. :D

InsyaAllah, may everything go well and let's spread the love :)

Tujuan blog ni sebenarnya nk bgtahu, nak credit, yg the vector graphic is adapted from a pashmina-wearing mannequin taken from fadzbiz.com :D THANK YOU SOOO MUCH FOR GRANTING UR PERMISSION !! :D Do check out their website for some beautiful tudungs. :D


may #TeamKhemah be our own reminder to guard our hearts and actions,
not for us to feel superior to or condemn those who are /not yet/ in..:)


UPDATE=
Design 2 :


I made this yesterday.

this one, is Aisyah's doodle and I just did the editing. :)

These designs aren't final, Aisyah posted them dkt grup, pastu kalau ada komen apa2 I fix it.
Button badge project ni, xde perancangan apa pun sebenarnya. Masih dalam design phase. X habis survey lagi nk buat dkt kdai mana apa semua, cash on delivery ke, boleh pos ke, harga etc. :D

If you want to share them, I don't mind, may the message in it spread (that's the most important thing) but being a designer (ceh) I would really appreciate if you can tell me, I like to read what people say about my design, in a way that I can improve lahh.. :)

Till then.

Hijjaz- Sebelum Terlena

Saturday, August 11, 2012


Listen to this please,
whole-heartedly..

omnomnom.

Thursday, August 9, 2012

My Kitchen Rules. (rojak alert.)

I learnt a lot from this show kalau nk dibandingkan dengan master chef. I mean, dia macam lagi fokus on the cooking. Drama mestilah ada, nama pun TV show, but xlah melampau sangat drama, at least i learnt how to make things lah. tp serius dorg byk guna wine.. even seafood. xselamat sangatlah nk makan seafood pun sebenarnya kalau kat luar negara. apa2 pun, amik yg jernih, buang yg keruh. agagag.

Orang kata beruntung kalau ada anak dara kat rumah. My mom would be the one to deny. HAHAHHAH. beruntung kalau beliau rajin je la. Kalau pemalas like yours truly, any mother would feel cursed. lolol.

"Aja kau pandai masak rupanya, kau malas je!" - jujur sungguh wan hasnah ku tercinta suatu masa dahulu..

Maka, saya yang sedang bercuti 3bulan ini terasa rajin untuk post pasal percubaan mbuat lasagna from scratch! no frozen or dried item! eh ada lah sebenarnya. but at least, rajin sikit daripada kebiasaan. haha

» tekan sini tekann..«

so i planned to make lasagna. i needed bechamel sauce as well. sos putih tu. i didnt know it was that easy! sebelum ni xtau apa bahan dia, i used cream soup je as a lazy substitute..
google
very easy. same amount of butter and flour (guna sudu sup je. ahah. ye, sy mmg malas measure2 ni. about 30g lah..about... asal dpt jadikan roux and add 500ml milk sikit2 smpi pekat. keep stirring, don't let it boil! then add in onion pique (cucuk2 bunga cengkih dekat bawang besar, and if u have bay leaf, masukkan bay leaf sama. i didnt have one. dont have time to go (malas sebenarnya) and buy one)
google
some salt to taste. and we're done. a basic sauce. lps tu nk tambah apa tambah lah.
i added 2 slices of Cheesedale just to get the flavour.
i dont really like cheese sebenarnya,
it's hard to get cheese yg kena dengan lidah minang. ahak ahak. i made this tengah2 malam since this was my first try, xberani nk amek risiko buat xrasa dulu.
i let it set in the fridge, overnight.

next, the tomato sauce! i dont have italian herbs, tah mana nk cari kat taman alamanda ni. so i used one can of prego pasta sauce . oh kata nak start from scratch kan, xaci la main guna tin je. kena la modify sikit.
tumis bawang kisar n cili kisar dulu, then baru masukkan sos prego. masukkan isi2 ayam yg dah dipotong2 kecik, some sausages even. and so it's done.

if u want to make ur own pasta sauce, senang je sebenarnya. search lah for recipes on the net, tanya mak abah, atok nenek sume. but since im 100% malay tanpa sebarang darah kacukan, no one ever did this kind of stuff (but i think abah tahu buat..) so i rely on the net je la.

i trust OnePotChef n VahChef on youtube. lol. and myresipi or allrecipes .. senang kata, cari resipi yg ada org hantar review or report. read their comments sikit, you might learn a thing or two as you go through the comments.

accident happens tho. i did try satu resipi buttermilk chicken yg xboleh nak telan. ahahha. major disaster. eventually had to wash the chicken and made sambal. but honestly i'm not blaming the recipe, i think it was because i used some very old butter yg dah lama simpan dalam peti ais. haahah.

next. rolling the dough. you'll save a lot of time if you do have pasta machine but i dont have any and i don't consider buying one so i rolled the dough, by hand. adalah dalam 2 jam jugak melenyek lenyek doh tersebut.
adalah dapat dalam 20 keping kalau x silap.

next, you have to boil it. xnak boil pun xpe, since it's fresh pasta i think it'll cook in the oven because of the sauces. tapi sbb nic n rocco boil, nk boil jugak lah. :D
bukanlah boil sebenarnya. more like celur, blanching.
to avoid them from sticking to one another, apply some grease lah, anything oily. oil, obviously. -.-

and so it's time to layer them! start with the tomato sauce! then pasta! then tomato! then pasta! bechamel sauce is usually put the last , but mengada nk letak jugak in the middle, seronok tuang last2 lapisan paling atas x cukup bechamel. haha. asal ada. jadilah.
put them in the oven, around 200degree sampai agak2 dah masak tu keluarkan lah. semua dah masak sebenarnya, tinggal pasta sheets tu je. xlama pun. the sauce will cook it and kalau nk garing sikit, tunggu la lama lagi. personal preferences, up to you.

besar nih, dont be fooled by the photo.

and there you have it.

i don't like to cook masa puasa sebenarnya sebab i'm not confident to campak2 je. i need to rasa-rasa at times. tp kalau dah kena masak tu, bantai je la kan.. sapa nak komplen sila masak sendiri. haha. if your mother or your sister or even your wife masak x berapa nk sedap masa puasa, TOLONGLAH appreciate! ohoh

Duduk rumah memang makanan sentiasa available la kan .
sia-sia je lose weight dekat cfs balik rumah naik balik. lol.

 
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