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What kind of person do you look for?

Sunday, August 9, 2020

Orang sekeliling selalu tanya, 
"What kind of person do you look for...? Meh nak tolong carikan."
Sometimes I simply say...
"I don't know."
Sometimes,
"Someone like my Abah."

I'm looking for someone who is able to keep the balance, in almost everything.
Even if not, will always try to.

Someone who is...
Clear of what they want to achieve in life, and why they do it.
Someone who...
Works hard to get where they want in life, but knows when to take a rest.
Someone who...
Listens attentively to stories and dreams of people around them.
And their eyes lit up just as intense when it's their turn to talk about their passion.

Someone who is...
Very knowledgeable but believes there is always something new to learn everyday, 
Someone who remains very humble and always wants to go for the knowledge.

Someone who would...
Challenge views - flip a coin, and it's an exciting conversation where we could go on and on!
Someone who is...
Firm in what they believe in, but always open to exchanges and discussions.

Someone with a heart so sensitive to the emotions in their surrounding, able to empathise with others but at the same time motivate and push someone else to keep their chins up.

Someone who is...
Vulnerable to share their feelings but not easy to break down in adversity.

Someone who could inspire people around them by being who they are.

Someone who is careful in their words and thoughtful in their actions.

Someone who is always looking on the bright side but embraces loneliness and darkness when necessary.

Someone who is always grateful for what they have, and appreciates the little things in life.

Someone who is contented with what Allah gives, but not complacent for they believe in what Allah is possible to reward His creations with.

Someone who when they have more, give more.

Someone who has ultimate faith in The Almighty as the Best of Planners, but tie their camels too.

Someone who tries to be a better version of themselves every day, in every aspect of themselves.

I'm not looking for someone who seems like the best in a room full of people,
but someone who, no matter what, will always try their best to keep moving.

...
I wrote this as a list of what I look for in someone.
Perhaps this is what I shall be working on too myself.

My duaa is that while I work on myself, I would find someone who'd share the same aspiration.

Amin.





My duaa after watching the Final Table,
especially after the Sea Urchin episode of "reaching out" to the treasure:



O Allah please grant me a Charles Michel

I see a piece of you in all of my friends

Sunday, April 19, 2020


You didn't wanna know me
Said you didn't wanna know me
But you hide behind the lies
You're in disguise, I can't describe
The feeling when I said to you
Do you remember what I said to you?
You said you wanted to hang out for coffee
But you didn't even reply
I'm not even worth it am I?

[Pre-Chorus]
Deep down when no one's around
You've got a heart of gold
Where is it now?
I don't have another way to get to you

[Chorus]
Charlotte, I see a piece of you in all of my friends
It's over now so why am I still thinking back
To all the times when all we did was laugh and cry for hours
You let me down
So Charlotte, would you still care
If you knew I was hurting?
I miss my friend, it's like I'm missing
Parts of me I didn't know
And now I've got to let them go
But I, I just wanna know if you're still fine

[Verse 2]
I kinda miss your family
Your dad was always there for me
He drove us anywhere we wanna
Singing songs like karaoke
But that was six years ago
Where did all the time go?
I wonder if you've changed your hair
Do you still live a stop from mine
Maybe it's a matter of time

[Pre-Chorus]
'Cause deep down when no one's around
You've got a heart of gold
Where is it now?
I don't have another way to get to you

[Chorus]
Charlotte, I see a piece of you in all of my friends
It's over now so why am I still thinking back
To all the times when all we did was laugh and cry for hours
You let me down
So Charlotte, would you still care
If you knew I was hurting?
I miss my friend, it's like I'm missing
Parts of me I didn't know
And now I've got to let them go
But I, I just wanna know if you're still fine

[Bridge]
I just wanna know if you're still fine
I just wanna know if you're still fine
'Cause if not, I'm there in a hurry
You moved on but you're part of my story
Everything is coming back to me now
Thought I'd be there when you marry
Does your therapist know about me?
'Cause mine does, mine does

[Outro]
Charlotte, would you still care
If you knew I was hurting?
I miss my friend, it's like I'm missing
Parts of me I didn't know
And now I've got to let them go
But I, I just wanna know if you're still fine

---
2020 is an interesting year.
I was offered another new adventure after my teaching fellowship.
Wonderful people, great atmosphere.

2020 is also the year everyone was forced to stay inside.
Being a hermit I never thought it would be a problem for me.
I can stay inside for months if I want to. Perhaps, it's the feeling of 'not being allowed to go out' that's suffocating.

Also,
Quarantine is making me miss the people I thought I've let go of.

Allahuyusahhil.
 
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