Tiba tiba masuk kelas...

This is another one of the notes I wrote earlier. I write things dekat handphone sbb tak sempat bukak blogger. Hahah. 

Gambar: Design showroom tingkat atas. Sampai ke sudah tak siap-siap lagi.

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Harini ada org walk-in showroom. Tanya pasal hood dan racking..... Kemudian jadi lecture panjang sampai sejam..... There are some points I agree with and some that I do not. But since beliau orang lama, I just listened more. 

INCOME, AND INCREMENT 
"You kerja sini, ada buat freelance tak?"
"Adalah kadang-kadang."

Beliau ulang pasal income RM1500 dkt kampung memadai, and yes RM3300 miskin bandar dekat KL, tahap layak mintak zakat. He told about his friend yg kerja tetap RM4.5k, freelancing RM4k. I personally don't like talking about money when it comes to the intention of us working, but he insisted on making sure students these days are equipped with entrepreneurial skill upon graduation. I admit I suck at that. 

PERCEPTION
 I have had people asking me if I'm working part time as they don't seem to agree with the place I am working at right now, as I 'seemed to deserve something better'. Sebab 'kerja dekat dengan rumah' sounds like a joke. I do not mind at all, why should you? But unlike other people of his age, this man told me it's good to start at this kind of place. "They let you do everything, dari akaun ke tax invoice ke cuci cuci jamban sekalipun, they instill trust in you. If you start dkt company besar and you are given one task, say, technical, sampai ke tua lah you buat benda tu unless you berjaya highlight your management capability and improve your skill. Mcm mana org skrg buat? Open university, online university. Sad."

Well, I don't see a problem sebenarnya.. tapi takpelah.

WILLINGNESS
Beliau cakap pasal nak buat sesuatu kena ada hati. Beliau tak setuju grad 3.6 civil engineering tapi buat cosmetic business instead. He said why waste your time doing something you cant make money out of it in the future?

I do not agree since I am a firm believer that knowledge will always have value and time is never wasted even if you don't end up in the field.

Even joining TFM, some people go 
"Oh sayangnya bukan bidang.."
"Laaa. Kenapa macam tu??" 

For those I do not feel like explaining, I will just say "JPA panggil untuk habiskan kontrak", end of discussion.

INTERIOR DRAWING AND RENDERING 
"You buat 3D? I akan avoid. I pernah buat aquarium siap air, ikan, lampu semua. Walaupun kita tulis this is just for visualisation, bila dah siap client akan tanya "MANA IKANNYA?" Hahah

"You ada knowledge on measurement, jadi I rasa drawing you tak ada masalah. Ni ada student I yang main hentam je measurement dalam drawing asal dia nampak macam lawa. Kita yang dah lama ni, zapp terus boleh detect mana salah."

I told him about how some clients insist on us doing exactly as they want.
"You ingat ni, dalam interior, CUSTOMER IS ALWAYS WRONG. You have to show them what they did not expect." 

I told him how my bosses are always in a state "Oh you're right, didn't think of that" when I started asking questions. How they said they always never cared.
"Because they are business-minded. Asal dapat duit, we do what they want. But you as someone with knowledge, tell them what they might not realise."

He said he used to work with international companies.
"Drawing ni ada dua jenis: TECHNICAL dan PRESENTATION. 
Interior, kita lebih dekat dengan client, so we had a lot of presentation to them. Yg duduk depan you siapa? Accountant, Manager, yang tak ada design background. Anak2 muda sekarang sibuk pakai macam2 software, nampak canggih tapi tak dapat reach audience. Kami orang lama guna powerpoint je, tarik arrow je show this and that. Know your audience."

I told him how I can resonate, when my first few technical drawing couldn't be understood by those in the production team. I did like how I was taught in school, segala dotted line for hidden objects dan symbols for elevation door swing. We dont share the same frequency. I learned their way to be well understood.

He also asked if I know as-built drawings... He said it is very important for the designer to know the little details. OHH AND HE ASKED HOW MANY YEARS WE SPENT LEARNING ABOUT DRAWING IN UNI? "You banyak explore sendiri kan, bukan lecturer ajar kan?" I'm telling you dalam 200 orang graduates, 2 orang je betul capable drawing. You guys had too many things. Kawad lah apa lah." (I told him yg uia got no compulsory kawad thing, we very direct pipol liddat)

"You buat rendering? TAK PAYAHH, BUANG MASA. I as boss nak tgk first idea je, kalau lambat sgt nak attach file, hah snap je lah pakai phone. Nak tgk view je, then we start the discussion from there." I don't mind sebenarnya, it is one of the skills we can learn and improve, why not. Although, I am not much of a super photorealistic rendering (the one yg dengan karat-karat, taik cicak sume nak indicate), to me you leave the realistic aspect when it's finished, when it is .... realised? I find it time-consuming because at the end of the day it is almost impossible to get something EXACTLY the same as your rendering. I would like to focus more on the rough idea, the design. Nonetheless, I still regard it as an invaluable skill, go for it if you like it.

Em. Banyaklah sebenarnya beliau bebelkan, tapi macam berterabur sini situ sikit. Fiuh

Beliau akhiri dengan mintak contact number dan cakap "Kalau I ada benda nak you buat nnt, I contact you. Benda2 simple je. Tak sampai 15min you boleh buat. RM20-RM30 utk benda kecik, kumpul 10 kali, dah boleh dapat RM2-3ratus." baru nak cakap cuti Ahad je tkut tak ada masa dia sambung "budak sekarang manja, bila anak I kata dia busy, ok tell me, list down the things you are so busy of..".............. K.

Bila beliau ckp contoh dia nak suruh visualise meja study, I felt so reluctant. I thought of how I would be doing a detailed meja study with aluminum handle, drawer dengan kunci, papan keyboard dgn railing, skirting meja segala. It would take me hours to perfect it. When he showed me the drawing did by one of his outsource, yup. Tahap buat 15min je. 

PROBLEM SOLVING
"You belajar addmath, you rasa ada kegunaan tak dalam hidup?" I know he wanted me to say no ahha but I just smiled I didnt wanna say no sbb mmg ada lol, but he said something very interesting too. "It's all about problem solving. The skill to solve problems." reminds me of how designers are (or supposed to be) regarded as problem solvers.

Then it also got me thinking, Oh problem-solving is such a compelling trait to me. Like how I am adoring this Tan guy kedai radiator sebelah hari-hari baiki kereta rosak dan customer jadi sangat happy bila kereta dah baiki. Eh.

I like when people give out ideas and even more when they proved they can solve things. Like, so heroic/heroinic(?). Alah hatta benda kecik je. Macam jawab teka teki dengan betul. 

Wuih. Panjang beno ni. 

Melalut, nak tulis lagi tapi Notes dah start hang.

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Rant.

Rant.

Kadang-kadang benda yang akan buat kita rasa tertekan lepas sesi tutorial, is that time bila kita bentang idea and the lecturer starts to question the practicality of our design, how is it gonna work, is it a common practice in Malaysian built environment, is it OKU-friendly?

Dengan masa lebih kurang dua bulan je untuk satu projek, dengan subjek lain yang mengejarnya, kita selalu akan fikir,
"Huk aloh. Biarlah. Kerja aku design. Macam mana nak execute tu boleh fikir kemudian. Tak boleh nak explore-lah kalau asyik fikir teknikal."

But then, being realistic, this thing *is* the framework of life. It *does* involve the whole community, bukan boleh syok sendiri. You'll be facing the real world. You must be aware of the real constraints - money, material, authority, etc.

These two - exploration phase of designing and recognition of the restraints are both equally important, I believe.

 "...architecture is understood to be about movement and use of space, not just transparency of material. "

Selingan: IG: SEPTEMBER 24, 2014.

Igtkot kayu. Rupanya rubber flooring. Pft. Looks deceive, no?

Byk benda menarik jd harini, cerita ceriti, dating dgn Aa. 
Sukahati masuk 2-3 hotel buat mcm ad book bilik turun naik lif dia tgk material apa dia pakai ketuk sana sini utk esemen. Fiuh. 
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We trust, we believe. Moga yang baik2 aja.
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 In the end, selalunya kita akan resort to either

1) Do more research on the technical, construction-wise, or,
2) Opt for the, what people call, 'safe design'

First option takes a longer time, no doubt, (unless you already have an archive of successful design construction in your head) but, you'll be a lot more confident to justify what you plan to do.
It'll be a lot easier to design and defend, when you know more, when you read more.
When you belief in your own design.
This, however deals with our time management.
Nak juggle design satu hal, dengan benda lain keliling pinggang dan masa yang terhad untuk satu-satu projek, satu hal lain.

And unfortunately when we fail to grab the essence of our design concept (without forgetting the purpose it is to serve), we hence give up and opt for the second one, Often, tak ada soul.

Our original aim may be achieved within the stipulated time, but we may then realise we haven't done our creative potential justice. And comes the regret.
Or we may have designed it the way we like it, but it's only for aesthetic purpose, it can even be a pain in the back part for a group of, say, people with disability, that we neglected during our design process.

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Ni sebenarnya nak cakap:

The same thing with our life.

1. Being individuals, it's (very) okay to have our own identity, our own preference.
It's okay to explore. But it's always best to know our purpose.
It's good if we know what is allowed and what is not,
so that what we've been living would not fall in vain.

2. Proclaiming ourselves as a 'dai'e', when it comes to enjoining what is good and forbidding what is bad, it's always best to read up more on our audience - their life stories and the challenges.

"Connect, and correct." 

Or else, it'll become "Safe dakwah" - Only reaching those who already have a basic understanding of this religion, who only need to be reminded of something they already know every now and then.
It's obviously not wrong, but certainly there's still something missing.

Note to self, and those reading.

Harapan.

"The past matters, but only as a reference point untuk tengok sejauh mana kita dah berubah." Tak perlu buang jauh-jauh, takut nanti kalau terbuang terus, kita lupa benda tu salah, dan kita asyik ulang balik... Tapi macam mana pun sebenarnya, memang kita takkan kebal daripada dosa.

Cuma asasnya yang kita selalu lupa, our sins can never be greater than Allah's mercy.
Minta.
Seek.
"When God puts you in a situation where no one can help, He really means business - one on One."
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"Kekadang kita rasa benda tu musibah, tp benda tu sbenarnya perancangan Allah, kan? Nak ajar kita something untuk... get better."
"..untuk luruskan niat..untuk baiki diri.."
"..untuk bersihkan hati.. untuk menjadi seorang insan, individu muslim yang lebih baik.."
Kerana akhirnya menjadi baik itu fitrah.

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"Hidup, kalau takde masalah, takdelah muhasabah."

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"Datang talk semua ni, tapi sentap masa tu je lah. Lepas tu lupa balik. Muhasabah, lepas tu menangis sekejap lah.. then you know lah.."
"We human, we forget. We need to always be reminded. Keep me in your du'aa."
"Keep me in yours."

 --- note to self, and whoever is reading. Ramadhan kareem, Allahu akram. :)

kasut ambe jangan dibuang.

Segala pengalaman hidup, segala ceritera suka duka,
mahu saja dikongsikan dengan teman-teman seperjuangan di sekolah dahulu.
mahu saja diluahkan segala persoalan, segala rasa khuatir, rasa bersalah.
i wanna meet them so so badly, dan ceritakan semuanya.

tapi, kalian.. tahu? I'm still so afraid that you'd too, be among the... judges.
kerana akhirnya, environment kita, tetap berbeza.

ntah. tak tahu kalau nk cerita, nak cerita dekat siapa.
in the end, cerita-cerita, luah-meluah dengan diorang, yang at least berkongsi 'saiz' kasut yang sama,
walaupun tak kongsi kasut tu sndiri.
at least they know, a tiiiiny bit of what it's like to walk in this particular size of shoes.

daripada yang tengok kasut dari balik tingkap kaca.
atau yang sekadar tengok kita beli kasut.
atau yang sempat tengok kita pakai, sampai melecet sekalipun.

ntahlah.
kawan, sungguh, saya mahu percaya kalian tak akan mengecewakan saya andai saya ceritakan segalanya.
sungguh, saya tahu teman-teman saya bukan jenisnya suka menghukum itu dan ini.
tapi sungguh yang sedikit pasti, kalian tetap takkan faham sepenuhnya.

tapi tetap saya risau benda yang saya takut, jadi jugak.
saya tak mahu jadinya nanti, saya pinjamkan kasut saya pada kalian,
kalian cuba .
dan kalian lihat kondisinya, lusuh amat barangkali, dan kalian terus buang jauh. tinggalkan saya tak berkasut.
nak cari balik kasut tu satu hal. nak beli kasut baru satu hal.

kasut kecik ni, jumpa tepi jalan. tak bertuan. 

. . .

amende ambe merepek ni.
kbai.

Orang tamak tak selalunya rugi.

Nak cerita satu:

A friend said, "Orang tamak selalu rugi. Bagai anjing dan bayang-bayang..." "Buku cerita waktu tadika."

Then another friend, "Zaman sekarang orang tamak untung besar."

One of us then replied "I setuju."

The first one then said, "Saya perlukan contoh bagaimana orang tamak untung besar."

I was about to reply based on the typical tamak dengki mendengki sesama kawan, mungkin untung besar tapi untung tu sementara je yadda yadda when this friend of mine went,
"Tamak melakukan kebajikan?"

oh wow. just, wow.
what a perspective.

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Terima kasih kalian untuk malam tadi.
Untuk hari-hari sebelumnya.
Untuk hari-hari mendatang, insyaAllah.

The phrase 'Jauh takpe doa tu sampai' means a lot more after last night pny unintended muhasabah moment.
When you look at it dari sudut yang sangat berbeza.
When it's not just jauh sekadar jauh dari mata tapi tahu masih ada.
When you merge, yang hidup dan yang dah pergi.
Isk. Nak nangis. Terus mesej mak abah..

Ya Allah. Entahlah. Nak cerita semua rasa macam kena buat buku je. Haha.
Berterabur gelong macam mana pun tapi ada je the wisdom behind every word.
Konversasi yang pasti akan berakhir dengan doa dan harapan.
Yang bermadah, yang direct, yang berdiam..
Saling belajar, saling mengajar.



Kawan-kawan saya kuat. Saya kena kuat jugak.

I feel so blessed to have our paths crossed. You guys are awesome.

Now tell me how can I ever, move on?
How can I ever, forget those lovely souls Allah let me meet?
Nauzubillahiminzalik, dah cakap kan, tak nak lupa..

"Selagi ada hayat, selagi kepala boleh ingat, kenangan akan kekal terpahat."

Purata.

 

TasbeehCamara

Surah Hud, 88.

"Aku hanya bertujuan hendak memperbaiki sedaya upayaku; dan tiadalah aku akan beroleh taufik untuk menjayakannya melainkan dengan pertolongan Allah. Kepada Allah jualah aku berserah diri dan kepadaNyalah aku kembali."

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Sometimes it's better to be alone than to be in a bad company.
Well, sometimes.

Most of the time we just have to be the good company.

He did not shoo away those who didn't follow his way, did he?
Dakwah wouldn't have spread if it was a work of a single man.
It started from one man but grew until Makkah became the oasis in the Arabian dessert.
Islam is not a religion of solitude, Rasulullah went out, he did not isolate himself and do good all by himself. He spread. He taught.

He was sent down to perfect good manners.
Have we tried to follow his way?
The last Prophet's, s.a.w. 

Sometimes it's the little things that matter. Jihad is big, but everyone's mujahadah is definitely different from one another.

Notetoself, and those reading. :) | 14

This was meant to post for MaulidurRasul sebenarnya.

Sesetengah orang rasa untuk bermanfaat kepada ummah tu, adalah dengan mengangkat senjata, join demo sini sana, itu dan ini. Tapi in actual fact, apa apa pun yang kita buat, sentiasa ada peluang untuk bermanfaat. Dan kalau dah namanya untuk bermanfaat, haruslah buat yang terbaik. Note to self. Note to self. Remind, for I forget.

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Ini kesinambungan pengakhiran post "Mortal, Rizak dan Rizqi"

Results in a couple of days. I'm nervous. Ho yeah.
and mulalah post-post
"Ilmu bukan pada pointer"
That, is true.
"Allah tengok usaha, bukan tengok natijah"
That, is also true.

But. Before we quickly comfort ourselves, just, ask, banyak mana usaha tu?
You know, "to excel, is a Muslim." Dr Spahic Omer. but did we really try to excel?

Kalau result tak seberapa, nak biar je ke berterusan macam tu? Of course we should work harder, aim higher.

"Buat apa nak kejar pangkat tinggi-tinggi?"
"Tak bawak ke kubur pun pointer tinggi.."


To be average. To be among the typical. Is it really what is taught in our religion?

Watch this:

Rasa macam nak buat transcript penuh je..: 

 “The strong believer is greater to Allah, is closer to Allah, is more beloved to Allah than the weak believer (Hadith). And here, 'strength' is not only strength in imaan, in dakwah, 'ibadah, taqwa, but strength in ALL aspects of life, and that includes your education! That includes you seeking education. Whether you're taking syariah or engineering or pharmaceutical or medical sciences or whatever field that you're in, Islam wants you to be the BEST!” 

 “Always aim high. Look for what is beneficial for you. It is the advice of our beloved teacher Muhammad s.a.w. What’s the passing mark out of a 100? 51? Then you aim for 51? NO!” *Ouch*

 “It’s not wrong in getting the best in a position, Yusuf a.s asked to be a treasurer of Egypt during his time. Aim to be the best! You follow the best, you believe in the best (the prophets), so why don’t you follow TO BE the best?!”

"Ihris ‘ala ma yanfa’uk! Work hard for what benefits you."

"Let’s learn from our beloved Prophet s.a.w, with ONE MAN, ONE MAN ALONE IN MAKKAH, when Allah s.w.t asked for him to get up and call people to Allah, bring people to Islam, invite people to Laa Ilaha Illallah, what did the Prophet s.a.w said? Did he say 

“I want all man in Makkah to be Muslim.” or 

“I want the whole Arabian Peninsular to be Muslim.” Or 

“I want Asia to be Muslim” ? 

NO! He says I want Islam to reach everywhere, the way day and night had reached everywhere. Look at this high objective! That was the achievement of Prophet Muhammad s.a.w. He aimed for it. He set it as a goal. And he worked for it.” 

“You don’t have to be a sheikh or a’limm. You could be whoever you are, whatever you are and whatever you are in, you aim high to achieve and become the best of Muslim." 

"When you ask for Jannah, don’t just say Oh Allah, grant me your Jannah, don’t just ask to be in just any level of Jannah.. don’t just ask to be amongst those who just enter the Jannah, who just smell the fragrance of Jannah. No! No! If you ask Allah for his Jannah, ask for the Firdaus, aim to be in the Firdaus, the highest level of Jannah! This is the character or a Muslim, the character or the believer that makes us different – when we aim, we aim high, and when we achieve, we achieve the best!"

“The best of you, are the most beneficial to others (Hadith).. Achieve the highest in life. Be the best of example. Be the best of engineer, be the best of Imam, be the best of teachers, the best of doctors…” 

“Aim high, and depend on Allah s.w.t. Depend on The One that lives for another day, depend on The One that says “Be! And it happens” (kun fayakun). How could you aim low and depend on Allah? If you really wanna depend on Allah, then aim for the best in life. Depend on Allah and know that Allah with always be with you. Don’t be lazy! Don’t be reluctant!” 

 *tampo tampo tampo*

Only after that we have the right to say, "Usaha kerja kita, natijah kerja Allah."

فَإِذَا عَزَمْتَ فَتَوَكَّلْ عَلَى اللَّهِ

Kemudian apabila kamu telah membulatkan tekad, maka bertawakkallah kepada Allah.

All the best.

Till then.

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So my blog was set to private a few days ago, if any of you noticed. *krik krik krik*

It was the usual "I should stop. Tulis tah pa pe je, macam xde manfaat je." phase.
That feeling, rasa macam nak shut down semua akaun dekat alam maya ni.
But I know that is just impossible.
Well, at least for me.

Kadang-kadang terfikir jugak untuk delete all those nonsense, tinggalkan yang (rasa-rasa) ada manfaatnya je. Tapi fikir balik, tak boleh jugak, kadang-kadang manfaat bukanlah dari post yang ilmiah, yang ada selit ayat quran atau hadith.

Kita tak tahu how our words may affect other people kan.
Like I myself, bila dengar kisah orang, sometimes it's the tiniest bit of what they said tu yang struck me. Sometimes it's a sentence bukan the whole story. Sometimes it's the subject matter not the language.
Kadang-kadang dia cakap pasal ayam ke itik ke tapi kalau kita boleh relate dengan hidup kita, apa salahnya kan.

"Kadang2 kita tak tahu macam mana words kita boleh affect orang lain. 

Pemahaman semua orang berbeza, but if it could benefit, especially on the way we see things around us, then it's a yay.

Malam ni was, something. It was very deep, so deep I could cry, tambah deep. Dan lemas.

Allahurobbana.
Tsabbit qulubana.
'Ala diinik.
Wa to'atik." 16 Sept 2013.

Besides, my blog dah macam my memory back-up dah.
Yelah, zaman blog cakap hari ni bosan tak buat apa sampai zaman blog berjela-jela satu hari tu buat apa sampai, sekarang. Zaman ana antum to zaman kita korang zaman tak tahu nak bahasa diri apa *major problem*...zaman copy paste artikel tak tengok sumber. zaman zaman tu.

It feels great to see the changes. Malu memanglah malu tengok ya Allah tak matangnya, pft macam sekarang matang lah sangat kan, tapi hey, it was me.

Those were the days and those were my stories that became a part of me.
Even though there's so much more I hide in the closet but everything I put in this blog is a part of me that I choose to share with people. Though, I don't really tell people my blog link. It's like kalau jumpa, jumpalah. :P

buat buat kental 
menahan airmatamu jatuh 
agar kau terlihat kuat 
penat juga ya 
lepaskan rasa 
biar airmatamu jatuh 
biar kau lega. ~ ismisyahida; 280114

Champak

Semalam, ada diskusi sikit dengan my dear schoolmates bila Tasha post pasal 'To be or not to be in a relationship...".. Teringat zaman sekolah.
To sit down and have our own extended discussion in the musolla after usrah. i miss u guys.

nak duduk dekat surau al-ansori. atau teratak ilmuwan. atau astaka.
dengan angin. dengan daun kering. dengan nasihat.
dengan, sahabat.

Teratak ilmuwan.

Bila Tasha keluarkan statement, "Rindu-rindu cenggini baiklah kita patri dalam doa. Biar tsabat sesama. Ohoho" NAS

It's just that, I don't know. We're taking different paths.
Things aren't the same.
Things are scarier.
And your know what, I don't know if i'm becoming part of it.

now playing: "Will you hate me?" Dawud Warnsby Ali.

i don't know. how would you guys react if u see the live i'm living?
would you guys be among those yang ada that stereotype towards design students jugak?

would you guys call me a hypocrite, a liar?
would you damn me to fire?

i feel like running away from people. escaping.
but running away isn't gonna solve anything. AQ 33:16.

This is gonna be awkward but, permintaan:
I'm not gonna delete anything from the past but,
Mohon, andai satu masa nanti penulis blog ni tak lagi bernyawa,
Mohon doakan blog ni ada manfaatnya.
Mohon apa saja yang baik dapat dimanfaatkan.
dan tentu tentunya,
apa saja yang buruk mohon buat jadi pengajaran.

kehidupan realiti, luar blog jugak. Sama.
Even if yang negatifnya mungkin, oklah confirm lagi banyak dari yang positif,
Mohon doa berterusan.
kbai.

Pencari Tuhan.

  

too long to tweet in one go, too lazy to break it down.

Yang mencari Tuhan, bukan kita seorang.
Mata sendiri andai tertutup sebelah pun buat dunia nampak lain,
Inikan sepasang mata milik orang lain.
Beri ruang.
Untuk mengajar.
Dan belajar.

"No matter how life distracts you, Close your eyes. Push away the temptations. Close your eyes and run. Run away from Seduction. Run away from glamor and greed. Run away from pleasing the Nafs. Close your eyes and run to Allah subhanahu wa ta’ala. You will stumble, fall, cry and feel lonely. It’s not easy. Never easy."

Sedang berjalan. 

atau masih merangkak, mungkin.

"You, just go ahead and run to the finish line. I have a few stuff to handle. Tali kasut terlerai, kasut ni pun dah haus, lelah."
"Mana boleh macam tu. Jom lah sekali."
 "Tak pe, tak payah tunggu.. Nanti lambat. Pergilah dulu.."
 "Apa guna lepas garisan penamat tapi nak seronok pun sorang-sorang?"

 Everyone has their own story, their own struggle.
But at the end of the day we're heading towards the same destination.
 Kalau jatuh jangan ditinggal.
Ustaz kata, syurga tu terlalu luas. Jangan takut nak masuk ramai-ramai.

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Needing a break.
Counting days.
Biar akhirnya semua jadi indah,
Walau jalannya tak pernah mudah.
Dan moga lelah, jadi lillah.

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"Erase whatever in your past and upbringing that taught you that struggling is a bad thing.
Struggling means you're growing."

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Alhamdulillah. Alhamdulillah. Dah start cuti!
I praise Allah for all the things that had happened this semester. Interesting semester.

"You know, saying it's 'Interesting' is just the best way to put it, the fact that it's not all fun and play, neither it is all dark and painful."

Been posting long statuses on FB lately, sbb nak ingat, tapi tak sempat blog.
So yeah.

Hilang.

Bila kita seronok sangat lari-lari dalam hutan tebal, sampai hilang.
Sampai sesat. Tersasar.

Peta dan kompas boleh terbias pada diri orang sekeliling. 

Atau benda. 

Atau apa-apa.

Yang boleh ingatkan kita apa yang kita lupa.

Walau tanpa suara.

Adh-Dhuha, beautiful and consoling surah indeed.
Walau sesat sampai malam gelap, at least percaya waktu dhuha esok, matahari bercahaya.

Ya Hadi, ihdina.

O The One who guides, guide us.

Sometimes as we strive our way towards success, there comes a part where we feel as if the sky is falling, as if everything is just going wrong.
Chin up, and remind ourselves of The One up there, The One and Only in control of this universe, showering blessings from above. :)

I do simple graphics at http://instagram.com/duudle .. those are kind of like my NTS reminders ..Feel free to share and spread the doodles from that page, and if u need a higher reso just leave a comment there. :)

Just a little something I do and I hope it benefits :)

K.O.T.A.K [Short Film]

Melayu Malaysia beragama Islam.

Assalamualaikum.

Semester lepas, kelas UNGS - Islamic Worldview dengan  Dr. Salah Machouche. Tak sure mana satu nama depan mana satu nama belakang sebenarnya. Tapi saya panggil Ustaz Machouce je. Sem sebelumnya, kelas QSBE - Quran, Sunnah and Built Environment dengan Dr. Spahic Omer.

I have to say, these two classes were my favourite classes besides History of Arts and History of Islamic Arts dengan Madam Harlina (recently dapat Assoc. Prof, tapi sebab dah terbiasa sepanjang sem 1, dan rasa lebih mesra guna Madam..).. kenapa? Sebab lecturer-lecturer yang disebutkan ni, lain daripada yang lain. The way they make us think, the way they put things into perspectives.

Banyak kalau nak cerita satu-satu tapi ringkasnya ada pensyarah macam ni, khususnya pensyarah yang bukan dari Malaysia atau yang hidupnya bukan revolves around Malaysia semata-mata, selalunya berjaya bawak kita, well at least, saya, untuk berfikir tentang sesuatu isu harian, luar dari adat dan kebiasaan.

Reminds me of Fatih Seferagic when asked beliau ada sebarang food routine tak nak make sure hafalan tak hilang? He smiled and said "You know, I've never encountered this kind of question, until I came here."

Hehes.
"I love food. In fact I just had some pizza hut before I came here (the convention). If you ask me, I would say no. What food you eat does not really matter, what matter is that you keep on reviewing your memorisation."

***
Tawazun. Balance.

Ustaz Machouce pernah tanya, sambil lukis simbol dacing di papan putih.
"So we've heard a lot of people saying we must keep Dunya and Akhirah balanced. Now tell me, you know in order to make it balanced, it should be 50 on this side, another 50 on that side. Correct?"

Seimbangkan dunia akhirat, kata orang. Tapi kalau seimbang maksudnya kena sama berat. Kalau percent, maka 50% dunia dan 50% akhirat.

Angguk.

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"Now tell me, is the value of Akhirah equal to the value of this Dunya?"

Sama ke nilainya? Semua senyap.

"You claim that Akhirat is a whole lot greater in value vis-a-vis Dunya, but why would you put them equally? Why would you give the same amount of effort in doing worldly things as you would in Akhirat matters?"

Wo ho.

Kalau ikut pemahaman kita tentang keseimbangan, maka benarlah, bahagikan sama rata. Dalam kes ni, dua benda - Dunia dan Akhirat.

Ceritanya, kalau saya beribadah dengan membaca al-Quran, bertasbih, tahmid dan tahlil, solat tanpa henti selama 12 jam atas alasan semua ini ibadah untuk saham akhirah, maka malamnya saya perlu ke kelab-kelab malam untuk enjoy, bekerja depan komputer kalau tak nanti takde duit nak sara hidup.
Kata balance, kan?

One of us said, "We should work 50% for Dunia and 100% for Akhirah.."
Ustaz replied, "That would be 150%.. Let us not run from the fact that 50:50 is a balanced ratio.."

Satu kelas diam lagi, tak tahu nak cakap apa. Hah selama ni kemain canang seimbang dunia akhirat, maka apa pemahaman kita sebenarnya?

The answer is, to make sure the Dunia thing we're doing is something that we can invest in the Akhirat.
Got it? Contoh, macam kita kerja pejabat 9-5. Ini benda dunia. Kita mesti kerja, kalau tak kerja nanti mana nak dapat gaji , macam mana nak sara hidup, macam mana nak terus hidup kat dunia ni? Tapi kalau kerja kita tu patuh syarak, kita buat apa yang Allah suruh (tutup aurat for example) dan tinggalkan benda yang Allah larang (mengumpat, ekhem) .. kerja duniawi kita tu boleh bawak kita ingat kat Allah then there you have it, ratio kekal mathematically balanced, tapi priority tetap dapat pada saham akhirat akhirnya. The end. :D

Senang kata, fahamkan bahawa setiap inci kehidupan kita adalah ibadah. :)

***
Jujurnya, saya tak faham dengan rasional membenci penggunaan kata ganti diri Ana-Enta/Enti dalam perbualan seharian, ATAS justifikasi kita orang Melayu, ada di Malaysia, cakap Melayu sudahlah.

Like, seriously?

I mean, I can understand kalau tak berapa gemar nak guna bahasa diri macam tu sebab rasa geli-geleman ke apa, just like I feel using I-You in a Malay conversation. Tapi just sebab tu - sebab kita ni orang Melayu dan kita sekarang ada dekat Malaysia maka penggunaan bahasa diri dalam Bahasa Arab cuma buat diri terasa Islamis? What's up with this?
Walaupun secara peribadi saya rasa janggal menggunakan bahasa diri I-You tapi takdelah sampai nak gi kat muka dia cakap "Guna Hamba-Tuan hamba lah saudara, kita kan Melayu." Ok exaggerating. I do have this problem, nak guna bahasa diri apa bila bercakap tapi let's put that aside dulu.

Grow up lah Malay Muslims living in Malaysia. Kita tak pernah habis masalah persepsi siapa lebih beriman dan siapa lebih banyak setannya, kan? Just by simply looking at how an individual brings themselves cepat cepat kita classify si polan ini kategori itu, si polan ini kategori ini, begitu dan begini.

Antara topik lain yang sangat popular dalam bab ni, is which tudung style signifies the wearer being in a holier position than the other?

Seolah-olah ada garis nombor.

Tudung labuh bulat berjahit tengah lebih baik daripada tudung labuh bidang 60 dipin terus atas bawah yang in turn lebih baik daripada yang dipin selempang, di akhirnya mungkin bidang tudung 45 atau shawl yang berusaha dililitkan bagi as labuh and as longgar as it can be.

"Oh dia ni tak istiqomah bertudung labuh bulat."
"Oh dulu dia pakai tudung bidang 60, sekarang tudung bidang 50 je.."
"Saya belum berani untuk pakai tudung labuh..."

Aiyayai.
As I constantly fikir pasal ni, then bamm I saw this post on Facebook. Thhhhank you sis Amena for the video and sis Aneesah for the review. Akhirnya. Kita tak pandai nak letak in words tu yang macam excited gila when someone else took everything right out of our mouths..!

Makes me wonder, dekat Malaysia je ke ada masalah persepsi macam ni, ke macam mana?

Masalah bahasa diri? Kiranya kalau guna Ana-Enta lebih tsiqohlah? Habis dah kalau dekat negara arab dan ustaznya bercakap bahasa Arab sepenuhnya, maka ana-antum lah jadinya. Dan kalau ustaz itu sheikh di negara barat dan berkomunikasi penuh dalam bahasa Inggeris maka I-You lah jadi bahasa dirinya.

Masalah style tudung? Sepertinya muslimah pakai shawl berlilit-lilit ini kurang tsiqohnya berbanding yang bertudung labuh bulat. Kalau negara lain yang memang hijabnya didefinisikan dengan shawl, maka seorang ustazah dengan ilmu agama yang terang-terang lebih mendalam pun kita akan nampak berhijab dengan pashmina. Kalau di negara itu hijabnya tudung Turki dan tiada style lain, maka tak dinafikan begitu jugalah gambaran figura yang beragama dekat kawasan tu. It's cultural.

Kisahnya this is what I think, dalam Al-Quran dan Hadith takde cerita macam mana nak jahit tudung instead, diberi panduan to fulfil a certain criteria. Tidak jarang, labuh melepasi dada, tidak menyerupai lelaki dan sebagainya. Panduan. Guide. Bukan macam answer scheme untuk soalan objektif. Sebab tu manusia diciptakan punya akal, untuk digunakan menimbang baik buruk, is it approved or is it not, and all that.

I see the problem. Kita banyak variasi, xde satu identiti yang signifikan macam tempat lain, barangkali. Let's not see this as a problem, though. Should be cherished but at the same time, tolong jangan sempitkan pemikiran.

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Seolah-olah Islamophobic, 

walhal dikelilingi komuniti yang majoritinya Muslim.

Spesies nak manusia kalau satu rumpun itu biar sama saja patternnya, 

langsung tak boleh nak raikan perbezaan pun payah jugak.

Oh well.

Ah satu lagi tambahan alang-alang pasal tudung: Bila orang buat perbandingan orang yang bertudung dengan yang tak bertudung macam ayam yang ada bulu gebu dengan ayam togel. i was like, If I agree to this, am I actually saying that when I'm at home with my mahram and not wearing the hijab, I, also look like ayam togel? We are equally beautiful, physically. Cuma the hijabbed choose to whom dia nak bagi permission untuk tengok dia punya beauty. 

Yes, I understand tujuan that kind of post is to show how wearing the hijab protects the Muslimah, but
you know, when it comes to suruhan Allah, logical reasoning based on the surrounding may give some clues and enlightenment to some people, no doubt, but it alone is never adequate. Manusia, cara penerimaannya berbeza. Kenali mad'u.

Spreading dakwah is an art indeed. Sebagai dai'e (yang menyampaikan), tak guna syok sendiri dengan artpiece kita tapi orang tak faham mesej kita. But bila kita jadi mad'u(yang disampaikan) it also depends on how we see things. Tolerance. Win-win.

'Ala kulli hal, 
saying one is being judgemental somehow makes me one, no?
tugas kita tetap untuk menyampaikan, 

tapi ramai pilih untuk menghukum.

Till then.

Aah by the way, Lai lai lai~~~ 
Ayuh meriahkan SENI JALANAN, KAEDFEST'13 !

Ramai-ramai click 'going' yuk!
https://www.facebook.com/events/427983953989641/

and and and we're looking for wall artists untuk conteng dinding KAED. haha..

dan sesape yg berminat utk tunjuk live demo graffiti, nak share skill installation bertemakan pop-art, tafaddhol~!

Sedangkan bintang pun mandi.

Ceritanya tidur awal tadi. Dan tak boleh tidur balik. Hailoh.

Before I slept tadi ada terbaca bising2 katanya ada meteor shower malam ni. Tapi dah mengantuk sangat, so tak peduli, terus tidur. Couple of hours later terjaga. oh room mates semua dah balik, by the way :D

Antara benda yang dibuat ialah scroll news feed dan timeline to kill time.

and I saw a tweet, cakap something like "Meteor shower kemain nak cari, masa lailatul qadar tak pulak macam ni?" .. memula macam "BUUURRNN"...

pastu makin ramai orang buat statement mcm tu.
People start comparing the enthusiasm to look out for a meteor shower and lailatul qadar.

I don't know.

Macam, orang tu minat baca buku dan dia ulas begitu dan begini tentang buku tu, then some people would go "Al Quran ko taknak pulak tadabbur macam ni?"

Or dia minat bola sepak, tennis ke apa kan, disuruh berenang, memanah dan berkuda, sahaja.

Sad?

I don't know.
I don't fancy those statements yang you know, discouraging. Yang buat Islam tu cuma praktikal dengan ibadah-ibadah khusus.

I mean, kata way of life. Just do what you want to do, what you love, as long as it is syariah-compliance, takde masalah, niatkan as ibadah and voila! Dah kenapa nak suruh semua orang sama je karekternya. Dah mana pergi kepelbagaian untuk dirai? Appreciate varieties lah. Come on lah pipol~~

Oh and I just find it funny when ada orang tweet pasal harapan nak bertemu lailatul qadar then some people go "Diam-diam sudahlah, tak payah bagitau satu dunia" and when people tweet pasal meteor shower that same bunch of people go "Masa lailatul qadar tak pulak beria-ia macam ni." .. Pft. I didn't know we can tell other people's intentions just by reading their status updates and tweets and what not.

Takkan boleh pun tau niat orang.

Anyway meteor shower and lailatul qadar, 2-2 jadi dengan izin Allah jugak sebenarnya.

Since I don't want people to focus on the bad and just focus on the good, I should then again, assume the ones tweeting sebenarnya nak muhasabah diri and didn't mean to provoke ke apa. Oh well. :)

Aina came up with another thought to ponder upon,
"Jadahnya nak compare benda yang tak sama level pun." :)

Here comes the berapa kurun punya cerita untuk dipublish. Time nak exam ni lah semangat nak cerita semua benda kan. Hmm.

***

.. Kisahnya dalam lif tadi;

"Level 2?" beliau tekan level 2.

"umm, no." yakin. diam jap then, "oh rite, the main entrance is at level 2.."

"haha yeah, are you new here?"

"hahah no.." sengih. tahan gelak.

"you just don't go to the library that much..."

"haha yeah." kantoi.

"just like me. U have finals? Goodluck with that. :)"

"yup. Thank you :)" Keluar lif, level 2.

walaupun bkn itu sbb ke library sbnrnya.
And i thought kos ni xpayah membaca. I thought wrong.

Pinjam satu lagi buku and beg putus. Berat I tell you. Patah bahu cheque.

Sempatlah ceroboh studio awal-awal sem hari tu. Ni hasil lepas portfolio day hari tu, board semua dah letak tepi. Plannya memanglah setiap hari nak ke studio buat sketching and rendering practice alih-alih pintu belakang dah dibaiki and tak boleh masuk dah. dah berkunci. Terpaksa ke library to work in peace.

***

Semester tiga, is almost coming to its end.
Tapi ada je yang dah balik for good, i mean, balik sebab exam diorang sebelum raya n dorang tak payah datang balik untuk amik exam. Kiranya boleh cuti terus sampai masuk tahun depan.

I still have BM paper to sit for.

Semester pendek ni, seronok. Tapi pejam celik pejam celik dah nak habis dah pun.

luls i don't always publish my camwhoring moments although i do that very, often. bahah. tapi untuk kelas BM yang cuma ada kita 4 orang je sisters, maka, nahlah. ada banyak lagi sebenarnya. hahah.

Kelas tilawah satu kelas dengan Kak Dena.. Ceh masa tak kenal suka hati je panggil Denabahrin. and Izzat Zaid, kawan Wani yang Wani pernah cerita pasal kisah antara diorang berdua dekat PLKN sebab nama. Pass 'Izzat loves Wani' and cikgu baca. Pastu ada brother nama Izzat dalam kelas tu. Hahah. How cute!... and yes, Izzat perempuan :)

And Amalina Rahim, kawan Aina yang pernah tanya macam-macam pasal mahallah ameenah masa nak masuk gombak dulu and I even sketched the floor plan to explain. HAHA

***

Keluar iftar dengan room mates and Izzati Mustaza.. Ceritanya nak gi makan burger bakar tapi tak bukak pulak time maghrib. So we ended up pergi KL Fest. Mula2 sampai ada orang bagi flyer Little Taiwan tapi tak terasa nak pergi pun. Hehs sekali semua kedai makan yang biasa pergi fully reserved. Alih2 lagi lebih kurang setengah jam nak berbuka kitorang ke Little Taiwan jugak akhirnya. ahaha. Not bad, kenyang lah. Chinese food, i like chinese. food. and look. eh. Pergi terawih dekat surau yang betul2 depan burger bakar luls keji terasa hahaha. Tp akhirnya dapatlah jugak merasa burger bakar. :P

 

Oh annnd annd annd buat Iftar Kejora!! Memula ingatkot macam kecil-kecilan lah, macam last year, among muslimat je sekali nak dekat 120 orang join! Syamil being the bilal, Amir Hamzah and Syahir Zul jadi imam for maghrib n tarawih prayers and Salam pulak bagi tazkirah after terawih. Free of charge, dewan makan sekolah, surau sekolah, those familiar faces,
It was a reunion sekolah indeed! :D

Annd andd I volunteered to prepare the door gifts kononnya dah cukup simple nak guna paperbag je buat door gifts sekali punyalah susah nak cari! Kat kawasan Gombak ni xjumpa, kat Penang pun tak de. Baca kat blog orang semua orang beli kat Mydin USJ. Dah tak larat nak main terjah-terjah setiap kedai yang probability nak ada tak tentu, I decided to just go there. Subang. Alone. My parents bukan jenis yang bagi keluar jalan sorang-sorang. Safety reason. I myself grew up to believe I must have a mahram with me kalau nak berjalan. Tp dah tak de orang available semua bizi, pergilah jugak. Nebes gak ah.

Tak sangka sampai malam. Went out after Zohor and took the public... Pukul 5 lebih baru sampai. Bapak ah macam balik Penang..! Disebabkan I do not know where to stop sbb tak familiar (LANGSUNG) bukak Waze sambil atas bas nak bajet berhenti dekat mana. LULS.

Waited at the wrong bus stop, jumpa orang tah sape baru bersembang sikit dah mintak no fon ohoh ampun mister, I don't give out numbers that easily to just random stranger espeseli guys walaupun you seem like a nice person. 

Dah malam. Batteri sangat low and I was about 40km away from my lihtehrahl comfort zone. Alone. wohoh. Personal achievement. *Pats own back*

Tapi kena selalu report dekat Mak lah. :D

Alhamdulillah ala kulli hal. Paperbags FOUUUNND~~~~

The event went well, alhamdulillah. Mula dengan retaaruf and usrah kejoraaa~~~! Tak prepare pun tapi, bantai je lah kan.

I love it that yang keluar after PMR pun join, iftar SixTens indeed. Taaruf sekali, Retaaruf buat yang dah kenal.. and I love that you don't really need to spend hours of catching up to feel reconnected, what matters is that they're in front of you and sihat, walafiat. :)

Antara tiga makhluk Allah, yang saya cinta. Completely different personalities and background. Sorang bakal ke UK, sorang sudah di Mesir, dua lagi di UIA tapi jarang beno berjumpanyaa.. 

"You know what I like about us four? We don't really have to macam, jerit-jerit bila berjumpa, it makes me feel like we've never been away pun, it felt just like yesterday je kita last jumpa." pp Aliaa.

In fact we have private fb group dulu buat sebab nak video conference.. and it stays sampai sekarang :)

Ihihi. Maryam didn't recognise me at first and took some time before she actually went  "Ya Allah Caje! Kami tak cam ampaa! Serious tadi kami tak cam!" and Aufa dengan Dayah Don was like, "Caje tak makan kaaaaa?" ekeke. What design did to people. 

Still, long way to go, long way to go.

DAAAAN. KAD RAYAAS!! Tahun ni tak sempat langsung nak hantar kad raya. But my studiomates buat projek kad raya and dorang buat.. HANDMADE! k rasa bersalah kalau x balas. I'll try my best walaupun nanti dah basi. hahah.

Sempat wish kat alam maya je. TK Atiqah cakap "aawh kalau tak mesti dapat kad awak kan. Takpe, nanti dah kerja hantar hamper raya sekali." hahah. pun bolehh. :D Anis Raihanah: "Eii Syaza! Every year awak tak pernah lupa wish Selamat Hari Raya!" hihi. Since 2002.

Kak fizah! Book mark raya!

Aina! Seriously beliau buat felt craft!

Kakem!! LOL at the statement.

Tahun ni first time beraya kat Melaka sampai lebih 4 hari and 2 kereta. Semua dah besar2. Haha. oh and ada BBQ lagi. :D

Baru perasan sebenarnya my cousins sebelah Melaka semua muka cina. Pfft after all these years.

Hari Raya first hari tu call Atok Ali and Wan Timah (Ali and Fatimah. Hiks) dekat penang, loud speaker satu kereta dengan Along, Yan and Adik. Apiq naik kereta dengan Mak, Abah and Wan Hasnah, wan Melaka.. You can tell from their voices how happy they were to receive that call :') Bagilah peluang anak-anak beraya suasana berbeza, say YES to nikah orang jauh-jauh. HAHAHA. k.
Kesian Along asyik kena attack dengan soalan pasal kawen sejak balik Malaysia. bahah. Takdelah kesian sangat, adik dia ni pun suka menyakat. What, I've always wanted to have a sister. :P

Ohh and Alooong is back for goodd and he gave gadgets to my other brothers and as for me Wacom Bamboo tablet and and andddd what I never thought I will evaaa own, Inkling!!! I'm a happy girl! hik2.
And guitar beliau otw untuk diship ke Malaysia. Goodness. Havaaanah~~

Tak terus balik Penang ikut family, I decided to balik UIA terus from Melaka.. Bolehlah nak buat some more sketching practices and uhuk uhuk study uhuk uhuk sikit for BM paper this thursday...

Zaty brought this! 

***

I actually miss spending hours and hours and hours and , hours on the computer, messing with the HTML codes, menghabiskan masa depan photoshop edit gambar orang, tshirt and button designing, ulang-ulang video clipping in making sure the audio fits perfectly. Lukis potret masa orang tengah tidur, just simply amek pensel, observe and start drawing real life image.
That, kind of stuff. Stuff yang kita ingat boleh buat bila-bila rasa nak buat.
To think of it memang my school life penuh dengan buat menda alah ni pun.
Benda yang kita willing nak spend masa, yang takde submission dateline. Oh wait, ada sebenarnya. Bila klien mintak untuk certain event, tapi, ni lain dengan bila lecturer mintak. 

Tak tahu nak salahkan masa.
Atau projek.
Atau pensyarah.

Atau bangau.

***

Dia yang selamba badak redah lopak lecak hujan
dengan kasut tak kira kasut kanvas sukan,
atau kasut kulit sekolah,
bila orang lain semua cari jalan jauh elak kebasahan.

Dia yang berani bertarung (pfft) dengan serangga terbang,
yang watlek watkul watpis nampak ulat atau ular sekalipun
bila orang lain semua menjerit-jerit mintak tolong macam dunia nak kiamat.

Dia yang orang tegur tak reti nak marah ke,
bila orang lain dah menggelegak.

Dia yang selalu ke depan bersuara
bila orang lain rasa mulut terkunci lidah terkelu minda tersekat.

Dia yang bila dihadapkan dengan pilihan urgensi,
yang suka buat kerja gila tanpa sedar atau sebenarnya sedar,
suka sangat ambil keputusan yang lebih berisiko,
berkeras mencuba saat orang lain dah mula putus harap.

Dia yang sama,
takut kucing.
dan masih belum berani putar stereng kereta.

Till then. 

Roller coaster?

Assalamualaikum.

Hari tu, first weekend of this third semester i'm taking, i went to TeenACE. Anjuran Langit Ilahi, dengan Ayu, Qila, Aina.. and jumpa Wani, cousin yg paling rapat kat sana, dia datang dari CFS walaupun dah grad CFS sebab ada kerja2 untuk charity trip to Kemboja tu.

Dah lama tak pergi konvensyen sebenarnya, almaklumlah hidup dalam donia sendiri. pfft. alasan je semua tu, alasan. hehs. tapi betul what. k. alkisahnya Aina datang menginap kat bilik, datang jauh2 dari Terengganu sebab nak join TeenACE. by the way sem ni memang meriah lah dengan kehadiran makhluk2 yang tak berhenti bercakap and stok-stok asyik nak berlawan sape betul sape salah tapi in the end stok yang sama beranyonyo. k abaikan. xde kaitan.

Ceritanya kitorang gerak naik kereta Ayu.. sampai sana around 8.00..? HA! tahu tak ada last minute change of venue??? ya Allah kesian kot dkt penganjur. a day before 2 numbers sent text messages nk inform pasal perubahan tempat. x cukup dengan tu, siap call lagi nk make sure kitorang betul2 tau tempat dah berubah! Asalnya dekat Dewan Centrum Setiawangsa tapi mendengar cerita dorang made way for a wedding reception macam tu je. ye lah, program apa lah TeenACE ni kan, program bebudak je.. -.- Wallahua'lam, I do not know really happened. Tapi begitulah, kena alih tempat last minit ke Menara Telekom.

Ah. Start dengan pendaftaran. Masa nk daftar tu, adehh tengok semua orang...~ sejuk hati belaka tengok gaya pemakaian~~ teringat HIMEGA. terasa asing di situ. bahah. k. yadda yadda diorg punctual, start ikut tentative, alhamdulillah.

Start dengan ucaptama by Hilal Asyraf, the tajuk was 'Remaja Harapan Ummah'..
Ringkas je lah eh, I took down notes, more like quotes sebenarnya.

Kita remaja ada kelebihan dari sudut Masa, Peluang, Tenaga dan Kreativiti.
Kelebihan-kelebihan ni, kita kena salurkan, kena gunakan untuk apa? obviously untuk Islam. It is mentioned, go grab your Quran tafsir now people, tengok 91:08. Ok kalau berkeuzuran sama ada syar'i di mana anda cuma mempunyai mushaf Quran tanpa tafsir atau keuzuran minda separa sedar yang mengatakan anda tak mampu melakukannya tapi sebenarnya mampu atau dalam erti kata lain terasa malas nak bergerak amek tafsir, boleh go to quran.com/number of chapter/number of verse .. (btw, a friend of mine masa mula2 dulu ingat I was tweeting some kind of secret code or something, turns out they're actually verses from the Quran. Betullah tu, secret code, secret code for the hearts. Gittuh.)

ok back back. Kita ada pilihan. Dalam ayat tadi tu, Allah dah bg ilham dekat kita, untuk faham yang mana baik, yang mana buruk. He inspired us to understand, he showed us what's a yay and what's a nay. Antara nak dengan tak nak je. Katakan, dalam context mudah, design field. pffft. takde bidang lain ke nak bagi contoh. sungguh tak berdonya. Kita tahu dan faham utk terlibat dalam sesuatu benda yang Allah taksuka atau dalam erti kata islamiknya, maksiat, is a no-no. Dan untuk enjoined dalam kebaikan adalah sangat dituntut. Of course lah kalau kita dapat klien yang mintak nak buat disko yang terang-terang bercanggah dengan tuntutan agama (unless disko tu untuk budak umur sebulan dua praktis menari merangkak bertatih dan berjalan sambil kat tingkat bawah tanah mak-mak dorang tengah belajar masak .... k abaikan.) bila dlm situasi mcm ni, kita sepatutnya pilih untuk tak nak terima offer kerja tu. Why? Sebab walaupun kita ada kepakaran dan ilmu dalam menentukan warna apa yang sesuai untuk naikkan mood, kita tau cane nk design and explore sesuatu space tu untuk maximise interaction yadda yadda, kita tak nak ilmu kita disalurkan ke jalan yang salah.

k tadi ckp nk ringkas je.
hehs. melalut. my forte.

Now look at 51:56 and 2:30 ..
Dua tanggungjawab kita, ones that we often, way too often, forget.
To worship Allah, and to be a khalifah in this world. Ketahuilah, Rasulullah tak duduk berteleku 24-7, 100% of his time tak digunakan untuk duduk dalam masjid bertafakur, solat, semata-mata. HE WENT OUT. HE REACHED OUT. HE EXPANDED HIS CIRCLE. Tugas kita bukan untuk jadi baik sorang-sorang, tapi untuk sama2 ajak semua orang jadi baik..
memang orang cakap tapi aku tak cukup baik lagi, iman aku, macam semua orang, turun naik. tak beranilah nak ajak orang lain.
oh ho. There's an interesting theory Hilal Asyraf made..
Dia cakap, jangan mindset kita turun naik macam roller coaster, instead, make sure the next 'naik' after a 'turun' is a higher one than the one before that 'turun'. k faham tak?

Gini.
*Grabs markers and a paper* and yeah, tulisan buruk sejak azali, harap masih boleh dibaca.


this, is how we always imagine bila sebut 'iman naik turun kan'
Hilal Asyraf said, instead of having this in mind, try THIS:


Kita usaha nak naik, tapi kita terjatuh, tak dinafikan, at times kita akan jatuh. Tapi jangan biar terus jatuh, naik lagi, cuba lagi, kita akan jatuh, tapi naik lagi lagi lagi . tu yang dikatakan naik turun. kata beliau. So the above graph is how i had apa yg dia cakap tu in mind, but

at the end of the day, he came up with another statement, tentang istiqomah. so i drew another graph dlm buku tu, not this one, i'm not a good note-taker(?) ..

This. Bila kita naik drastik sangat, and kita jatuh, xpe, naik balik sikit sikit, then try istiqomah. stay constant sampai bila kita learnt something new, nak cuba lagi then go ahead, belajar lagi, but not too drastic, enough untuk elak kita asyik kat takuk lama. then be consistent with that new thing. and it continues.

Kata beliau lagi, fitrahnya perubahan adalah berdikit-dikit.

Ah.
Pahe dop?
Faham la kot eh.

Ah, and ada satu kisah, sorg pemuda nak berubah n dia tanya nabi (i can't recall which nabi is this..anyone?) how, the answer is, DON'T LIE.
Sebab katakanlah kalau dia nak berzina, and bila dia jumpa nabi, xkan dia nak bagitau yang dia berzina, mesti dia akan cover. and perbuatan cover tu, dah melanggar tips nak berubah tadi - jangan menipu. Maka cara untuk dia elak daripada menipu and memudahkan proses perubahan? Not doing what he knows is not good and that nabi will not be pleased to hear if he did.

:)

Peh. Baru satu slot.

Next slot was by Amin Idris, "Magnet Diri Remaja Luar Biasa".. This, sebenarnya macam the one that I went dengan Aa, 'Magnet Man, Magnet Lady' satu ketika dahulu setelah berhempas pulas dengan projek and tak nak balik bilik lagi and we looked up for talks dekat notice board, found that and dengan tak balik bilik terus pergi talk tu. I've heard the same input for 3 times. But hey, nama pun peringatan kan. Still enjoyable. :D

Start dengan cerita pasal sorang makcik dengan burung kakak tua spesel pemberian anak dia. Burung tu mampu nyanyi lagu-lagu traditional, mampu keluarkan azan bunyi macam imam mekah (k over gila description dia) pendek kata memang spesel lak, mahal ni burung ni. Tapi mak cik tu ckp apa kat anak dia?
"Terima kasih nak, kamu memang memahami mak. Mak suke hadiah kamu. Sedaaap~~"
luls. got it? burung spesel alih2 kena buat gulai je. Why? Sebab makcik tu tak tau value dia. Macamm, tak guna beli fon cecanggih last2 buat simulasi biskut cicah air milo. Gilo namanya. The point is, know your value, know your worth, know what you can do that may change the world. Gittewh.

bertamadun sungguh manusia..

Katanya bila matlamat kita jelas, tindakan kita akan jelas dan bila matlamat kita besar, usaha kita akan besar. Macam isi minyak. Kalau kita tau kita nak travel 400km, xkan nak isi minyak sikit kan, mesti kita isi banyak, sebab kita tak nak terkandas tengah jalan.
Orang yang ada matlamat yang jelas xkan ada masa nak berboring-boring. Aduh terasa.
And kalau kita lari laju, tapi tak de matlamat pun takguna. Macam dalam video ni:


Annd, he mentioned pasal the importance to stay positive and to keep dreaming, dreaming big. Kalau nak tau impian kita dah cukup besar ke belum, say it to someone and kalau dia tak cakap "gila!", maknanya belum cukup besar.
but to me, it's better to be realistic, though. Not trynna put anyone down or anything but yeah, janganlah berangan nak ada 11 orang zuriat yang soleh by the age of 25 tapi nak kawen umur 27 sebab nak build career dulu. got me?

Favourite quote, "Dream big, dan hanya Yang Maha Besar mampu memberikan sesuatu yang besar.."

Magnet yang dimaksudkan dekat tajuk tu is magnet kejayaan, btw. :)

Peh byk lg slot yg boleh dishare.
Cukup takat tu kot?

Till then.