Ziarah
what to say?
Sunday, November 29, 2009
As I am (plus my mom, my dad, my brother, and my other brother) /are waiting for the Streamyx guy to come and do his work and lead me to much jovial time to spend my holiday sticking my fingers on the lappie, my OTHER brother took it to his U.
ERRGH.
ah~ Happy AidilAdha everyone~
May with the spirit Prophet Ibrahim and Ismail had will encourage us to sacrifise for the sake of our diin, alIslam. insyaAllah.
had a blast as usual, spent a night with my cuzzin wani. she had a lot to tell bout her latest school - SMAP Kajang;where I have several friends to name. Despite being absolutely tired and sleepy after watching the last episode of NUR KASIH and a telemovie, TAUBAT NASUHA, where the whole family (plus my dad's side of the fam), especially MakCik Haniza sat right in front of the magic box, yeah, we ended up talking all night afterwards. ahah. we had BBQ, anyway. no pictures at the moment.
at 8.50 Mak told me to fry some snacks for the *cough* *cough* kids. aah~
"sempena hari raya korban ni, xpe la. berkorban la xtgk nur kasih~~"
hahaha.
oh yeah. i havent told u this - i went to a Dauratun Nuqaba' (Phase 1) on Wed. it went well. Just i'm not in the mood to elaborate. I'll have Bengkel Penulisan dan Bahas Bahasa Melayu which, unfortunately fall on the same date with an English Writing, Public Speaking and Debating Workshop. hoh. xde yg Arab plak ke nk bertindih? "-_-
(currently in extreme laziness n reluctancy). haha..
then got KeTam some more.. which acts as a constant reminder that dude, you're going Form 5 in a moment. huhu.
er. that's about all.. no, not reall. let's just pretend it is. syukran jaziilan. wassalam.
usrah wida' (with pictures)
Monday, November 23, 2009
ni antara point ktorang mse aktiviti usrah wida' tu..
sambil tutup mata, ktorang main psycho, terus-menerus igtkan yg kawan baik diorang ad kat depan. jln straight je. then... sambil tu, ktorang tarikk beberapa org scara random, letak drang between yg menyuap n nk disuap.
ckp kat yg kne tutup mata tu.
"akak nk, skarang ni... korang jalan cari kawan baik korang. tapi, dengan syarat. akak nk, kalo korang rasa terlanggar spe2 pon, korang suap je. terpulang la, korang nk suap sikit ke, suap byk ke, asalkan suap.akk bg mse 1 minit setengah utk korang cari kawan baik korang."
then.. lps seminit,
"spe rase da puas, spe rase dia da suap kawan baik dia, boleh berenti. spe yg blom puas lagi, silakan mencari."
mse da abes. ktorang wat kesimpulan.
jgn suka2 hati suap cinta kita kat lelaki. even kalo kita da target dia yg kita nk sehidup semati, kuasa Allah kita xtau. jodoh semua kat tangan Allah. bayangkan, dalam mse xsampai 2 minit, target korang ilang. sebab apa? sebab tangan akak2 yg tukar kedudukan target korang. skarang ni korang baru 13,14 thun. lambat lagi nk kawen.. kalau tangan akak2 da boleh ilangkan target korang dalam mse seminit dua, kuasa Allah nk hilangkan target korang dalam mse 5-10 tahun lagi ni, kita xtau. dlm mse seminit dua pon korang g suap je kat spe2 yg korang langgar... lg 5-10 thn nnt, kalau frust, couple ngan org lain.. frust lg, bercinta ngan org lain pulak.. xpenat ke?
jgn la murah hati sangat bg sume kemanisan cinta kita kat org yg blom tentu jd suami kita. bygkann kek dlm bekas tu cinta, kasih sayang, ketaatan yg kita simpan khas utk husband kita... kalau da suap kat org lain, tinggal ape kat husbanD? BEKAS JE?? (analogi by adilla)
tolonglah. tolongla mahalkan diri. jgn risaulah, selagi kita percaya dgn janji Allah pompuan keji utk laki keji, laki keji utk pompuan keji, wanita baik utk laki baik, laki baik utk wanita baik. (24:26)....jagalah maruah, cinta, kasih sayang kita.
jgnla abdikan diri kat lelaki sekarang ni. nnt bila da kawen, priority laki still kat mak bapak drang, tp kita, as perempuan, as isteri, priority untuk SUAMI. selagi kita berpeluang letak parents yg amat amat kita cintai, selagi tu lah, gunakan priority yg ada. jgn sia2kan peluang ni sbb nnt bila da kawen, parents no 2, adik2 akak yg tersayang.....
mcm tu la serba sikit. nah, ni ad sket gambau. (xikut turutan)
amal ckp ad bape kerat yg tido, tp xpela, bilangan yg mendengar lebih ramai. this is a great indicator for a start. since we can only feel the biah islam for just a year, all we could do is provide a platform in bringing the biah back in irshad. insyaAllah.
biarlah org nk ckp ape pon.
wsalam.
some updates
Sunday, November 22, 2009
so i've soooo many posts suspended in my drafts right now.
however, i've decided to put everything in a single post.
long, single, post. hahaha
now. where should i start? ERGH.
LET'S START WITH EXAM.
final exam is finally over. no more Peperiksaan Akhir Tahun in my high school life after this. lps ni, pekse last pon SPM je la~ anyway, da lame x bukak friendster. n asal xleh log in? kne block ke? hahahaha...
one fact for sure, i slept the whole night before chemistry. HUHUHUHUHU. i've read earlier, even weeks b4 the exam but bak kata ustaz azli, "bukan masuk tlinga kiri, kuaq tinga kanan. xmasuk terus. dia terbang kot atas pala...shuuu"... hahahahaa...last minute work + syaza, it's a chemistry. hohoh. but Alhamdulillah, i think i can answer the Qs far better than i've expected for someone who did not manage to study the night before. thanks to the teachers from awal thn smpi skang too. :)
so i dont wanna think about exam right now. i'll start drilling some day soon. insyaAllah. hehehehe.
as soon as exam's over........ the next day was a memorable day, at least, memorable hours. met TK Atiqah at her MRSM!!
ok, i was curious to know the rest of the story she told earlier, n of course, mmg nk jmpe, i thought, since exam's over, it would be possible to go n visit her, kan?
so, on 14th november, habis je kje majalah kat umah Cg Yati, Yan drove me to MRSM KB. sembang sembang semmmmbang jeh. hahaha. about 2-3 hours is not enough la for friends who havent met for like, 7-8 years! huhu. get updates n so.. xnk cite panjang, cukup la korang tau i'm taller n BIGGER, of course. ahahahhahahaha. mse nk balik tu, i was thinking, "ble lagi eh leh jmpe?"...God Knows.. sigh. oh, n she gave me a book, TQ..
(pinjam lah.. exchange; i'll post the 6 decisions)
"Live and Learn and Pass It On".. best! my fav so far, that 8yo kid ckp, "i've learned that my dad can say a lot of words i can't"...haaha.. simple, but i believe lain org, lain tafsiran. oh, n i must say, i'm impressed with the biah islamiah there.. for a science school, they've done a great job (as far as i can see)...for a religious school, WE need to start work our tuut off. huhuhu
lagi lagi. erm. oh, n happy belated birthday to Adilla. better future ahead, insyaALLAH. 15th November. three days after that, Mak and Abah have been together for exactly 20 years; n they've been "suffering" for 16years nk jg anak pompuan sorang, 19 years nk jg 4 org anak laki. hahahaha. eh x, x suffer, baik2 belaka.. huahua.
then... start ari isnin, 16th Nov ari tu, ktorang jmpe ustazah Alawiyah n talked bout our plans nk wat one day gathering ngan adik2 f1, f2 b4 cuti panjang. masalah demi masalah naik. rse cm nk putus asa dah.. the teachers didnt seem to have faith in us... T.T..ye lah, spelah daku.. haha. then, ustazah Ala talked to ustazah Najihah. Ustazah Najihah mse tu, kebetulan, dlm usaha memantapkan BADAR... i was afraid to tell her that our objective n focus is to girls form 1/2 only...unlike hers, the scope is too big for a start - the whole school.
dpt kebenaran utk buat usrah 4 jam start dr baca yasin smpi balik ari jumaat terakhir. n that, i was relieved.
then, tetiba ari selasa(esoknya) adilla n izzati pqah panggey, ckp ad mesyuarat BADAR. n i was like, why me?? da la xterpilih pong nk pgi kem BADAR kat langkawi tu. cam xlayak je. they said they called us pon sbb they felt outcasted. like, DUUUUUH. huhuhu.
masuk2 blik gru, the whole "board" of BADAR da ad da. (yg pgi kem) . haduih. mcm nk balik klas je time tu. xlayak. tp ustazah suh tunggu. rupanya bru nk wat board.
Yu jd pengerusi, Amir n Afiq jd Naib 1,2.........n pengerusi for perempuan, adilla cadangkan..
"SYAZA". erk
"SYAZADIYANAH"..
ASTAGHFIRULLAH HAL 'AZIIIM.
I AM SO DEAD.
siapalah dirikuwh ini nk ad dlm majlis tertinggi badar.
diri pon xbtol nk bwk org lain.
it should be one of those yg pgi kem tu!! everyone was rather quite. ntah stuju ke idak. but i think people will agree more if it was tasha, qhoirun, wani, whoever lah YANG PERGI KEM. i am NOBODY, ok. NOBODY. i was only aiming to be a good Guide Sis for our dearest form 1 n 2 sisters. that is ALL....blom bklayakan lagi dowh. keputusan da dibuat, this is a huuuuge responsibility which im not so sure whether or not can i hold. ALLAH... help me.......
ustazah suh cri 100 org utk jadi nuqaba', 4 rabu depan, ad seminar BADAR...
(God, the title is really heavy.)
then, abes mesyuarat tu... kumpul pulak 4 org bncng tentatif 4 ari jumaat.
(ana, aliaa, adilla n izzati pqah)
bincang punya bincang, mka stujulah kami ber4 dgn tentatif n pemilihan naqibat.. however, the next day dgr kata ad yg xbstuju ngan pemilihan naqibah ktorng. n i was like, "eh. siapa n knapa?"...n then, i was told yg ad bbrp org rasa dibelakangkan dlm hal ni. n i was even more confused.
so, di atas ksempatan ni, which i didnt get the chance to explain pagi td, here how things were.
the naqibah we've chosen are supposedly for usrah, friday 1 hari tu SAHAJA. xde kna mengena dgn seminar BADAR this Wed. n since the idea of nk gather adik2 ni, dtg even before BADAR or Board of BADAR diputuskan lagi, i think x patot timbul isu belakang-membelakangkan ni. besides, we've talked informally, among us pasal this minicamp.. n kebetulan ustazah plak bincang pasal BADAR, which, makes it even harder for us to concentrate. these two things are TWO, different programme.. yes, usrah is under BADAR, but starting next year kan. mse ktorang bincang, we don't see this programme as under BADAR, we were just finishing what we have started!
100 org nuqaba' tu for 2010. our chosen ones, for 20th Nov 2009 only. huhuu. i do not know exactly what has happened, but if it was because of our chosen naqibat.. i am sorry that i see everyone deserves a chance to guide n be guided. the message we planned to tell our dearest sisters, we thought should be heard by other people too. we did this sbb naqibat xbuat apa sgt pon hari tu nnt, just for the sake of having a naqibah for each group.. THAT IS ALL.
since the plan started among us, i'm sorry that i didnt know that i should seek opinions from those who didnt even know about our small farewell usrah; which i've told u, we've planned even before exam lagi.
is everything clear?
i dont even know if there's anyone reading. hahaha.
bnda2 cam ni cam xpatot je ad salah paham. huhuh.
so. ari yg ditunggu2 akhirnya tiba.
adilla bwk lolipop 20 batang, aliaa bwk kain perca n limau,oren n i brought cakes. adilla last minute kne g terengganu (xaci~ haha)
tentatif stat kol 8.30.......as expected, teachers akn bg ucapan. UNFORTUNATELY, lepas soorang, sooorang bagi ucapan. rse cam nk nangis je. jangan la bg xjd benda ni.
we havent told adik2 tu lagi pasal usrah tergempar ni, n i was damn nervous. decided to pass notes tulis.. "FORM 1, FORM 2 perempuan, tunggu lps ni. AMANAH." HUHUH.
then, ustz halim ckp ari ni ari last cg che Jo, n ad ucapan perpisahan. since i was ultimately worried, i couldnt care less. huhuhuhuh. sooo sorry.
then, bila da boleh bersurai. tgk2 ad cikgu2 nk bg taklimat la itu la ini la. nk tunggu sume cg abes bg ucapan, alamatnya ntah kol bape stat.
SO. I told Tasha n Aliaa to help tell our sisters, kluar, berkumpul kat dataran asrama. TENTATIF FROM 8.30-10.00 am BURNT mcm tu je. sedih tau x.
i was quite panicked; suara xkuat. how do i handle all these people?
huhu.
get them gathered. n ktorang teroskan ngan aktiviti suap menyuap kek..the only activity left.
guess what, after 3 years xmenjerit, i finally get my loud voice back. ahhahaha. my friends were quite shocked. duuh~ mse skkola rndah dlu people know me as "pengawas yg jerit suruh semua org turun g kantin....suara dr bawah dgr jelas smpi ke tingkat 3"hahahha
huhuhu.
the usrah didnt go as we planned. but, kita cume leh rancang je kan, Allah yg tentukan. i was so stupid for forgetting names of surah mse bg quote from Quran. errgh. agak kelam kabut, since we were like, cramming all messages we supposedly spread in 4hours, in just 30 minutes. huhuhu.
but bila stat lambat ni, it's a blessing in disguise. xsempat wat bhg dlm halaqah, cari2 naqibat pe sume tu, so i think this somehow cleared the conflict earlier. kan kan kan. alhamdulillahh.. huhu. He always knows what He's doing.
kalo nk cite what we told them tu, mmg panjang ah.. ad kat post seterusnya.
random jelaaaa
Monday, November 9, 2009
salamualaikum
DO U KNOW HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO HAVE EXAM WHEN U ARE LOADED WITH A LOT OF PLANS IN MIND?
I know tomorrow got add math… calculus … algebra.. whatever u call them, they are questions that if anyone dares to answer, they’ll dieee… *exaggeration*
N yet here I am, blogging.
I planned to blog on sat n sun, but the connection was just a mere possibility laahh. I hate it when I don’t really want to go online but the internet’s there, xtremely smooth n fast. Just happen to hate it. I hate it even more that I’m currently blogging using Microsoft Word. “-_- baaarrrgh.
Hmm.
Few days back, Atiqah called. She informed earlier that she wanted to tell something and yes, i waited for her call, while reading my bedtime stories (buku teks sejarah tingkatan 4. Arap maklum).. I was really eager to know what the story is tau x!
Then, at 11 something, she called! Aaaarrgh! Da la baru lps hujan, I couldn’t hear her very well! Putus2!! As far as I can interpret what I heard, she said something pasal “pukau” kat MRSM.. then smbang sikit lagi, n i told her to call me back anytime later, or I’ll call her… line clear br puas! Dgr putus2, xpuas je smbanggg. Huhuhu
Then.. erm.oh yeah, 3rd nov lepas, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ADIK! Xaci gle dpt PS3… I just do not understand what’s so great bout PlayStations… mula2 dlu, thn 2002 bought PS1. Thanks to me, I picked PS ONE for my brother Syahmi yg mse tu nga carik hadiah UPSR dia…if I’m not mistaken, kat TAMPIN kot. I was quite addicted jugak dgn PS1 mse tu.. but my bro asyik bawak kawan je dtg rumah,
“budak pompuan xleh main. g main jauh2” … chaaaaiiit….
Then, Adiah UPSR Yan, dpt PS2…abes canggeh da la mse tu. I can still remember, we were arguing over a thing, n he said, like, he forbid me from touching his PS2! DIHARAMKAN! Hahhaa. Ngarut je . then adiah PMR yan kot, 2006, PSP yg gemok tu. Yg hitam tu. Along dpt ape ntah PMR? All I know he asked for a laptop n dpt as hadiah SPM. Huhuhhu .. then another one came, bile ntah. Thn lps kot. PSP Slim… Apiq got dangerously addicted to PSP since xpasang Astro. He can’t watch cartoon network, he didn’t go to school, so he spent most of his time playing any kind of video games. lps ni ape lak? PSPGo?
Then then then. Janji syabil ngan abah. “1,2,3…PS3” – mantera belajar syabil. Hahaha. Meaning dia, kalo leh dpt no 1,2 or 3 final exam, he’ll get PS3…. N he didn’t get to be among the top 3s. he got the 10th place AND FORTUNATELY, he’s the first boy after the long queue of 9 little girls! HUHUH. So, as promised, dapatlah dia PS3….. he’s lucky to live during the time abah senang sikit. he didnt get to feel how it was like to being so guilty for spending rm25 from rm50 abah gave for lawatan g padang besar.. hahahah
I MEAN, look at his life now! Way different than i was during my time! I had curfews, n he didn’t. dlu, kalo da kol 9, mesti masuk bilik, tido or study! Sampai kalo nk tgk tv pon mengendap2 je kat grill tangga tu dr tingkat atas!! N senyap2 bukak tv dalam bilik..mak dtg, tutup..buat2 tido. Ahahahha. i have to say, sjak pindah penang, my life changed real much.. kot.
Abah ckp kat adik..
“asal leh dpt no 10?”
“alah ok la tu…yg lepas dpt 22”
“hmm.. dlu boleh je dapat no 1,2,3 mmse jah 1,2…”
“alahh. Tu kan darjah 1…soalan darjah 1 mmg la senangg..”
HAHAHAHAHHAHAHA….ya allah spelah kakak dia. Hahahahha
…
Mse dia mcm malas2 nk blaja, I told him…
“dlu akak mse jah 3, akhir thn, xcukup tgn nk bawak balik hadiah! Smpi kne bawak plastikkkk..”
“eleh. Blagak. Skarang xdpt ponn..”
Diam jap.
“alahhh. Dulu da penat da kutip adiah, skang skola menengah akak rehat la jap”
Waakakakkaka.
Oh, da melalut.
today, birthday mak Aliaa, MakCik Azian!
n today got physics, I think I just flunk my physics paper. Huhu. It’s not that I hope for a flunked paper, but I just don’t think I did my best for my physics paper.
Minggu bahasa + agama da lepas. Tinggal skang ni, minggu sains+m3….spe la susun jadual. But it’s ok la, ringan sket the first week. At least when it comes to much heavier subjects on the second week, we are, at that time already prepared and adapted with exam-mode. Kan.
Hhmm. albeit frankly speaking i don't work my butt off for any exams since ....bile ntah. haha.
since i didnt work that much, i dont expect for high grades whatsoever. u get what u give la kan.
ape2lah.
Ooh, this 18th of Nov, mak n abah punya 20th anniversary! nk wat ape eh??
I have so much to say, so little time. Babaaaiii. Salam!