some updates

salam.
so i've soooo many posts suspended in my drafts right now.
however, i've decided to put everything in a single post.
long, single, post. hahaha


now. where should i start? ERGH.

LET'S START WITH EXAM.

final exam is finally over. no more Peperiksaan Akhir Tahun in my high school life after this. lps ni, pekse last pon SPM je la~ anyway, da lame x bukak friendster. n asal xleh log in? kne block ke? hahahaha...

one fact for sure, i slept the whole night before chemistry. HUHUHUHUHU. i've read earlier, even weeks b4 the exam but bak kata ustaz azli, "bukan masuk tlinga kiri, kuaq tinga kanan. xmasuk terus. dia terbang kot atas pala...shuuu"... hahahahaa...last minute work + syaza, it's a chemistry. hohoh. but Alhamdulillah, i think i can answer the Qs far better than i've expected for someone who did not manage to study the night before. thanks to the teachers from awal thn smpi skang too. :)

so i dont wanna think about exam right now. i'll start drilling some day soon. insyaAllah. hehehehe.

as soon as exam's over........ the next day was a memorable day, at least, memorable hours. met TK Atiqah at her MRSM!!








ok, i was curious to know the rest of the story she told earlier, n of course, mmg nk jmpe, i thought, since exam's over, it would be possible to go n visit her, kan?

so, on 14th november, habis je kje majalah kat umah Cg Yati, Yan drove me to MRSM KB. sembang sembang semmmmbang jeh. hahaha. about 2-3 hours is not enough la for friends who havent met for like, 7-8 years! huhu. get updates n so.. xnk cite panjang, cukup la korang tau i'm taller n BIGGER, of course. ahahahhahahaha. mse nk balik tu, i was thinking, "ble lagi eh leh jmpe?"...God Knows.. sigh. oh, n she gave me a book, TQ..
(pinjam lah.. exchange; i'll post the 6 decisions)



"Live and Learn and Pass It On".. best! my fav so far, that 8yo kid ckp, "i've learned that my dad can say a lot of words i can't"...haaha.. simple, but i believe lain org, lain tafsiran. oh, n i must say, i'm impressed with the biah islamiah there.. for a science school, they've done a great job (as far as i can see)...for a religious school, WE need to start work our tuut off. huhuhu

lagi lagi. erm. oh, n happy belated birthday to Adilla. better future ahead, insyaALLAH. 15th November. three days after that, Mak and Abah have been together for exactly 20 years; n they've been "suffering" for 16years nk jg anak pompuan sorang, 19 years nk jg 4 org anak laki. hahahaha. eh x, x suffer, baik2 belaka.. huahua.

then... start ari isnin, 16th Nov ari tu, ktorang jmpe ustazah Alawiyah n talked bout our plans nk wat one day gathering ngan adik2 f1, f2 b4 cuti panjang. masalah demi masalah naik. rse cm nk putus asa dah.. the teachers didnt seem to have faith in us... T.T..ye lah, spelah daku.. haha. then, ustazah Ala talked to ustazah Najihah. Ustazah Najihah mse tu, kebetulan, dlm usaha memantapkan BADAR... i was afraid to tell her that our objective n focus is to girls form 1/2 only...unlike hers, the scope is too big for a start - the whole school.

dpt kebenaran utk buat usrah 4 jam start dr baca yasin smpi balik ari jumaat terakhir. n that, i was relieved.

then, tetiba ari selasa(esoknya) adilla n izzati pqah panggey, ckp ad mesyuarat BADAR. n i was like, why me?? da la xterpilih pong nk pgi kem BADAR kat langkawi tu. cam xlayak je. they said they called us pon sbb they felt outcasted. like, DUUUUUH. huhuhu.

masuk2 blik gru, the whole "board" of BADAR da ad da. (yg pgi kem) . haduih. mcm nk balik klas je time tu. xlayak. tp ustazah suh tunggu. rupanya bru nk wat board.

Yu jd pengerusi, Amir n Afiq jd Naib 1,2.........n pengerusi for perempuan, adilla cadangkan..

"SYAZA". erk

"SYAZADIYANAH"..

ASTAGHFIRULLAH HAL 'AZIIIM.

I AM SO DEAD.

siapalah dirikuwh ini nk ad dlm majlis tertinggi badar.
diri pon xbtol nk bwk org lain.

it should be one of those yg pgi kem tu!! everyone was rather quite. ntah stuju ke idak. but i think people will agree more if it was tasha, qhoirun, wani, whoever lah YANG PERGI KEM. i am NOBODY, ok. NOBODY. i was only aiming to be a good Guide Sis for our dearest form 1 n 2 sisters. that is ALL....blom bklayakan lagi dowh. keputusan da dibuat, this is a huuuuge responsibility which im not so sure whether or not can i hold. ALLAH... help me.......

ustazah suh cri 100 org utk jadi nuqaba', 4 rabu depan, ad seminar BADAR...

(God, the title is really heavy.)

then, abes mesyuarat tu... kumpul pulak 4 org bncng tentatif 4 ari jumaat.
(ana, aliaa, adilla n izzati pqah)

bincang punya bincang, mka stujulah kami ber4 dgn tentatif n pemilihan naqibat.. however, the next day dgr kata ad yg xbstuju ngan pemilihan naqibah ktorng. n i was like, "eh. siapa n knapa?"...n then, i was told yg ad bbrp org rasa dibelakangkan dlm hal ni. n i was even more confused.

so, di atas ksempatan ni, which i didnt get the chance to explain pagi td, here how things were.

the naqibah we've chosen are supposedly for usrah, friday 1 hari tu SAHAJA. xde kna mengena dgn seminar BADAR this Wed. n since the idea of nk gather adik2 ni, dtg even before BADAR or Board of BADAR diputuskan lagi, i think x patot timbul isu belakang-membelakangkan ni. besides, we've talked informally, among us pasal this minicamp.. n kebetulan ustazah plak bincang pasal BADAR, which, makes it even harder for us to concentrate. these two things are TWO, different programme.. yes, usrah is under BADAR, but starting next year kan. mse ktorang bincang, we don't see this programme as under BADAR, we were just finishing what we have started!

100 org nuqaba' tu for 2010. our chosen ones, for 20th Nov 2009 only. huhuu. i do not know exactly what has happened, but if it was because of our chosen naqibat.. i am sorry that i see everyone deserves a chance to guide n be guided. the message we planned to tell our dearest sisters, we thought should be heard by other people too. we did this sbb naqibat xbuat apa sgt pon hari tu nnt, just for the sake of having a naqibah for each group.. THAT IS ALL.

since the plan started among us, i'm sorry that i didnt know that i should seek opinions from those who didnt even know about our small farewell usrah; which i've told u, we've planned even before exam lagi.

is everything clear?

i dont even know if there's anyone reading. hahaha.
bnda2 cam ni cam xpatot je ad salah paham. huhuh.

so. ari yg ditunggu2 akhirnya tiba.

adilla bwk lolipop 20 batang, aliaa bwk kain perca n limau,oren n i brought cakes. adilla last minute kne g terengganu (xaci~ haha)

tentatif stat kol 8.30.......as expected, teachers akn bg ucapan. UNFORTUNATELY, lepas soorang, sooorang bagi ucapan. rse cam nk nangis je. jangan la bg xjd benda ni.

we havent told adik2 tu lagi pasal usrah tergempar ni, n i was damn nervous. decided to pass notes tulis.. "FORM 1, FORM 2 perempuan, tunggu lps ni. AMANAH." HUHUH.

then, ustz halim ckp ari ni ari last cg che Jo, n ad ucapan perpisahan. since i was ultimately worried, i couldnt care less. huhuhuhuh. sooo sorry.

then, bila da boleh bersurai. tgk2 ad cikgu2 nk bg taklimat la itu la ini la. nk tunggu sume cg abes bg ucapan, alamatnya ntah kol bape stat.

SO. I told Tasha n Aliaa to help tell our sisters, kluar, berkumpul kat dataran asrama. TENTATIF FROM 8.30-10.00 am BURNT mcm tu je. sedih tau x.

i was quite panicked; suara xkuat. how do i handle all these people?

huhu.

get them gathered. n ktorang teroskan ngan aktiviti suap menyuap kek..the only activity left.

guess what, after 3 years xmenjerit, i finally get my loud voice back. ahhahaha. my friends were quite shocked. duuh~ mse skkola rndah dlu people know me as "pengawas yg jerit suruh semua org turun g kantin....suara dr bawah dgr jelas smpi ke tingkat 3"hahahha

huhuhu.

the usrah didnt go as we planned. but, kita cume leh rancang je kan, Allah yg tentukan. i was so stupid for forgetting names of surah mse bg quote from Quran. errgh. agak kelam kabut, since we were like, cramming all messages we supposedly spread in 4hours, in just 30 minutes. huhuhu.

but bila stat lambat ni, it's a blessing in disguise. xsempat wat bhg dlm halaqah, cari2 naqibat pe sume tu, so i think this somehow cleared the conflict earlier. kan kan kan. alhamdulillahh.. huhu. He always knows what He's doing.

kalo nk cite what we told them tu, mmg panjang ah.. ad kat post seterusnya.