friends apart.

A broken friendship may be soldered, but will never be sound

Salam..Susah x?Susah x nak berubah?Susah x nak berubah jadi baik?Susah lagi nk ubah org.

ana bukanlah makhluk Allah yg paling baik kat dunia ni..

tpi ana bukanlah kejam.. wlopon ramai kawan2 ckp "charger kejam". ok ok. kejam la sikit.  wakaka

it's been a while since "yesterday"...

ntah. hidup x selalunya indah, langit x selalu cerah....

ana nk ckp..ana rse Allah da bg satu amanah besar dan ana xberjaya menjaga amanah tersebut. sedih owh..

ana bukanlah bertujuan nk meddle in her life, ana bukanlah bertujuan nk kongkong dia, tp tu la kan..

bila dah ana rasa dia tanggungjawab ana, ana rasa tu tugas ana.

ana bukannye nk halang dia buat itu ini.. ana risau.. tengok keadaan dia sekarang. ya Allah.. mungkin selama ni ana terlepas pandang, tersilap langkah, terlajak bicara sampai jadi cam ni...

parents dia pon mcm da bg kpercayaan utk ana jaga anak drang... but then what happens? 

did i leave her? or did she leave me?

i tried to help her, even if not for her to be better, at least not worse. 

i love her, n i dont want her to slip away. i love her but i dont want her to be sad because i wasnt there for her.

i might be over protective

"but she seems happy." said a friend of mine.

"happy? jgn menyesal kemudian sudah..."

i talk as if i care nothing more. but, once she was in trouble, i'll be the one thinking of solutions, non stop, 24-7, making my friends annoyed ... once problems solved, there she goes again. problems come, hi. we meet again. (it rhymes~ haha)

YA ALLAH.

u feel like u've sacrified everything, but it appears nothing. 

i just wanna hold her hands and stop her from jumping down the cliff. but if she feels like she is already occupied with safety features, with lots of friends to jump together and laugh ha ha ha in the air, then fine. go. do as u wish. but when something bad happens, if the water's too deep and u are drowning, dont tell me i didnt stop u. just call me n i'll be there. that's my promise. but u didnt call me n continue leaving gaps. continue leaving me in the dark, questioning...leaving me one way, o Allah please land her safely.jump all u want. u got ur friends.

hold still mr. stickytape.

jiwang je. asal nta? haha. sje nk citer, bukan ad org nk bce pon ann. hahaha