hmm.

Org ckp ana xpnah marah.
mm. ye lah sgt.
Org ckp ana ni cool je. mcm xde perasaan.
mm. ye ke?
Org ckp npe ana x kalut? rilex je?
mm. Ntah?

tp ari tu kesabaran ana teruji.
TERUJI SGT SGT.
ya Allah time tu, kalo ana xigt yg ana ni masih bertuhan (NAUZUBILLAH. ALLAHUMMA ZAKKIRNA MIN HUMA NASIINA!)
mmg ana da melenting.
melenting sgt sgt.
gerammmmm!

ari tu terlepas ckp.
"org kalau da pandai sgt, hidup mcm xde peraturan, mcm xde Tuhan. sume nk langgar"
even though it was just a message sent through SMS ... i felt dmn guilty. walopon the people i meant tatau pon i said that. just luahan jeh..

satu hari nnt, we never know, we might be like them .
nauzubillah, nauzubillah min zaaaalik! skarang pon xkukuh lg, mse depan ntah mcm mne lakk..

tp mmg ari tu marah sgt.

tp marah tu reda jap.
ari ni my patience was tested again.
dah nk melenting. tp msih terkawal.
cuma sempat memerli jeh.

ya Allahh..

permudahkan urusanku ya Allahh...
btolkan yg mana salah...
mungkin cara menegur xberhikmah...spe tau.
ya Allah...

hmmm.

pejam celik pejam celik, PAT DA DEKAT...thn depan naik form 5. we'll be the leading batch. batch 2010.
albeit i'm not one of the Pemimpin Pelajar, officially... i still feel the urge to bring back the islamic environment in IRSHAD that had gone with the wind years ago.
diri mmg xsempurna. lagha sentiasa. hoho. tp like Aliaa said,

"i want our leadership to leave a mark on this school..." (pnoh perasaan)
"xnak mark je...xbest.." (mood spoiler - ME)
"then?"
"legacy...eh, xbest gak.."
"warisan?"
"bukaaan... ape haaa..."

erm, yet, sampai skang xjumpe lagi the right word to describe.
i want us to at least, leave a spot for the next leadership to drag that tiny spot and continue making an endless line..insyaAllah.

hmm.
mcm tinggi sgt. but it's not wrong to hope kan. "-_-

till then. salam.