Salam..Susah x?Susah x nak berubah?Susah x nak berubah jadi baik? Susah lagi nk ubah org. Susah lagi nak ajak orang berubah. Susah lagi...susah..
Ana bukanlah makhluk Allah yg paling baik kat dunia ni..
tpi Ana bukanlah kejam.. wlopon ramai kawan2 ckp "Charger kejam". ok ok. kejam la sikit. wakaka
it's been a while since "yesterday"...
hidup x selalunya indah, langit x selalu cerah....
Ana nk ckp..Ana rse Allah da bg satu amanah besar dan Ana xberjaya jaga amanah tersebut. sedih owh..
Ana bukanlah bertujuan nk meddle in her life, Ana bukanlah bertujuan nk kongkong dia, tp tu la kan..
bila dah Ana rasa dia tanggungjawab Ana, Ana rasa tu tugas Ana.
Ana bukannye nk halang dia buat itu ini.. Ana risau.. tengok keadaan dia sekarang. ya Allah.. mungkin selama ni Ana terlepas pandang, tersilap langkah, terlajak bicara sampai jadi cam ni...
parents dia pon mcm da bg kpercayaan utk Ana jaga anak drang... but then what happened?
did I leave her? or did she leave me?
I tried to help her, even if not for her to be better, at least not worse.
I love her, n I dont want her to slip away. I love her but I dont want her to be sad because I wasnt there for her.
"but she seems happy." said a friend of mine.
"happy? jgn menyesal kemudian sudah..."
I talk as if i care nothing. but, once she's in trouble, I'll be the one thinking of solutions, non stop, 24-7, making my friends annoyed ... once problems solved, there she goes again. problems come, hi. we meet again. (it rhymes~ haha)
YA ALLAH.
u feel like u've sacrified everything, but it appears nothing.
I just wanna hold her hands and stop her from jumping down the cliff. but if she feels like she is already occupied with state-of-the-art safety features, with lots of friends to jump together and laugh ha ha ha in the air, then fine. go. do as u wish.
but when something bad happens, if the water's too deep and u are drowning, dont tell me i didnt stop u. just call me n i'll be there. that's my promise.
but u didnt call me n continue leaving gaps.
continue leaving me in the dark, questioning...leaving me one way,
"o Allah please land her safely".
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to yg berkenaan;
Sometimes I really think it is time for me to give up on you.
BUT MOST OF THE TIMES, I promise myself; I must not let you go.
Another friend of mine said, "because you love her"
YES. BECAUSE I LOVE YOU. not because I think I am an Angel with glowing ring over my head like what your friend said. not because I am jealous that you're happy doing all you wanted.
be happy, but hukum Allah, please, jgn tolak tepi, my dear.
if you still wanna label me as busybody what-so-ever, I don't care. even though I am UNDENIABLY dissapointed, I WILL NOT GIVE UP.
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i wish i had the guts to say all this face to face.
KEPADAMU SAHABAT (kaduk asrar)
Meskipun kadang-kadang
Bicara kita sering bertentangan namun aku tahu
Kita mencari
Satu kebenaran dan keberanian
Untuk mengenal dirinya sendiri di antara bangun dan jatuhnya
Mereka di sisi kita
Kepadamu sahabat,
Janganlah kau rasa kehilangan
Kiranya aku akan berundur
Menarik diri dari satu pertemuan
Kerana mungkin satu perpisahan
Akan menjadikan kita
Saling mengenal
Erti kerinduan dan kejujuran
Kepadamu sahabat,
Dalam kau mengorak langkahmu
Dalam diam kau berbicara
‘Sahabatku, aku tetap hadir disampingmu kerana
Kau sahabatku, walaupun haluan kita mungkin berbeza kerana kita satu jiwa
Yang terikat pada ukhuwah yang disemai”
Lalu dalam tawa hatiku berlagu rindu
‘aku rindu padamu teman! Aku rindu mendengar suaramu teman,
Aku rindu pada senyum, tawa dan duka mu teman
Kerana itulah pengubat lukaku kala sendirian’
Sahabatku,
Andai kau mampu mendengar hatiku berbicara cinta dalam luka,
Menyemai tawa dalam kedukaan,
Kerianganku mungkin kepuraan-puraan,
Tapi aku benar-benar terasa aku perlu mengundurkan diri
Agar kita saling mengenal erti rindu dan kejujuran….
T.T
1 org bernyanyi riang.:
girl,u sound strong!alhamdulillah~~
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